Why did he ask me for a kiss? Why did he have to tell me he loved me? How come my heart told me over and over again he meant it? I felt like I was floating even though he was wrapping his arms around me, telling me to never go. His laugh made me smile. His touch was felt everywhere and the way he kissed me tugged on my heart. Why did he have to fill my head with all these lies? Why couldn’t he just tell me he wanted one thing? It would have been easier. Why did he make me feel higher than heaven and then drag me through hell? I actually believed I was beautiful. I felt wanted. I felt needed. I felt special. I haven’t felt like that in a long time. Why did he have to fill my head with lies? What a stupid girl, fell in love with the boy that told her he loved her. Every boy she sees she wishes it was him and he could care less. The last boy that told her he loved her almost ended her. She could lie and say it was hard to believe him but she wanted to get carried away. Just for one moment. It would have been easier to tell her this was just a moment. Why did he have to lie? Why did he tell her this was more than just a one time thing? I think about it over and over. I come to one conclusion. Dear boy, don’t be sorry, it was my mistake for believing you.
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hun i know how you feel iv been on both sides with one girl when i was going trow shit she made it all beter evrey thing was good then she left me she only whantid sex from then on it was the same with all her frends
with the other side welli came out of the grop of frends after bing past rownd i thort that was how it workt so i did the same with another girl i did love her but the things i did that i thort were right it was only a copull of months ago that i realisd what i was doing was wrong and i hate my self for it i dont think i will evre for give my self
so the morelits not your falt its his trust me stay storng frend xxxxxxxxxx
it’s not fair that he makes me feel real. alive. and now im just used goods. it’s just not fair. thanks for the advise. i’m trying but its a losing battle. i feel defeated.
I know how you feel. I once had someone real close to me. They made me feel so loved and wanted. They gave me hope for a better life and a better future. But it all turned out to be a huge lie. Now I am ruined. But you will find someone else. Maybe it will take a bit of time, but your patience will be greatly rewarded
@unlovable_me: thanks for the confidence, a broken heart is so difficult to mend.
What i don’t understand is EVERY time I have been lovey dovey like that with a girl its smacked me in the face. Every time I did, I meant it too.
you are not defitid you are stronger then him your not a cowerd like that hiding behind words you feelt something rele he wove a wed of liys and hate diretid at you but your here with us we care i know how you feel it takes time and im not going to say the same old lecher bout how you will find some one cos its demening people willtry to ues you but youv gotto kik them in the nuts this will be a battel but you will win cos from what iv read
you stronger than me for shure and from what iv read i belev in you and i belev some one will find you not becos of the the shit thay say to you when you first brake up with some one because if i thort you whont find some one i would say it you are stronger than him your not a cowerd like him all rownd you ARE beter than him
idk why he likes to play mind games, it’s not ok. i just want to be happy, everyone deserves 2 be happy even if it’s just for a moment. maybe that was my moment, even if it was briefly. i’m 2 exhausted. their are other reasons but what got me the most is that i’m going through so much and then he comes along, it feels like he’s pulling me out of the water n then at that moments lets go. i’m jst trying 2 go day by day, thanks for the advice, 2day was just so difficult.
@painman girls come in two tipes rele and sluts dont let it get to you find a rele girl not the ones who have no sole and take it esey on the lovey dovey allrownd its a trap that is hard to get out of it makes you seem needey for some reson some girls nower days dont like nice things :
Yep! I know that one! I’d love to find a real girl with soul. The last time I thought I did, I cared for her feelings, made her feel good about herself (because she really didnt) and then she went off with some guy who ended up apparently almost strangling her to death! lol she then almost came back to me, I said a tiny thing out of place, it got to her tiny head and she went back to him for a second dose! ok then, cya..
boys are no difrent thow were as stupid as ech other :/
Speak for yourself lol :p