My Mother Drives Me Over the Edge…

I’m going to try and give my story the best way I can. I haven’t been on this Earth for a very long time, and I’ve been plagued by problems (but not as much compared to come of the posts I’ve read on here). I started having suicidal thoughts when I was about 10, and I’ve had them ever since. I started having them because I was being bullied very badly at school. My Mother (who is going to appear many times in this story), also picked on me but not as bad. Fast forward 2 years from then, I started getting homeschooled, and my Mother completely goes in on me. She calls me fat, a wench, she said I was the dumbest child, she tells me she’s going to send me to live with my biological Father, that since I’m my Dad’s biological daughter she can’t expect much from me, and so on. My Mother has pushed me to the brink of suicide many times, although I have never summoned up the courage to attempt it, and I guess because my dreams of being a singer give me the strength. My Mother is a crazy and stupid woman. I am a child of a cuckold relationship, all of my siblings are but I guess my Mom hates my Dad the most. I don’t even know what to believe anymore. My Mother has told me that my Father driven a woman to commit murder in the city I was born, and many other lies. My Mother also claimed that I said I saw my Father in a drug deal when I was younger, but I don’t remember saying this. My Mother also got me to argue with and belittle my Father, when I was younger and impressionable. Now I’m afraid to talk to him because I feel so bad. My Mother and I were watching a documentary about someone, because they had died of cancer. And the symptoms that the person had I also had, and I wanted to hear more about that. After we watched the documentary we learned the person had a very hard life. And it seemed as if my Mother wanted ME to go through those things, including dying at a young age of cancer. I don’t want to go into further detail about anything, because I’m afraid she’ll find me on the web.