I do but then again I couldn’t care less. There’s just so much pain behind the fake smile that I put on my face every morning in order to “fit in.” I’m just tired, can someone come and shoot me in the head? I don’t deserve to live anyways, I want to die.
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I feel exactly the same… I don’t know what you are going through, but I really hope for you it will get better soon.
That’s what depression does try seeking some help one step at a time, and don’t say that about yourself no one deserves to die
I often think about ending everything and just giving up, but then you hear stories about others who have been through twice as worse as me and are still here and I just feel guilty and selfish.
A girl committed suicide a few months ago at my school, and a lot of people ( Out of love ) said it was a selfish choice she did, just to leave her family/friends in pain.
I don’t want to leave this earth being names such as selfish, and I feel guilty because no one knows my thoughts of wanting to leave.
I hope everything turns out okay for you Buddy
I feel the same, and I’m not depressed. I’ve just come to the conclusion that my life sucks, the truth is scary, and I’m offing myself soon. And by soon I mean, sometime in the next year, if things continue to get worse.
I feel guilt for quite a few things but killing myself is not one of them…. I don’t owe it to ANYBODY to live if I don’t want to….People can call me selfish …weak…coward …whatever ….I don’t give a fuck because all of their opinions are based off illogical emotion feelings rather than logical rational judgement…. To be selfish means to take something as an advantage to yourself at the expense of others…or to be greedy….how does suicide constitute as selfish? What advantage does one gain by ending their own life? is it greedy to not want life? People say suicide is “selfish” because they think that they are entitled to your life regardless if you want it or not….by ending your life they think that you are “keeping your life all to yourself” as if they had partial ownership over it….like a business or shared asset… I refuse to allow other people to make me feel guilty because I don’t want this life….The day rapidly approaches when I will end my life and will have no guilt in doing so…. that isn’t to say I want to create pain for others but it is just an effect of death period….whether I die from cancer or suicide either way people will be sad…
@people_do_care “no one deserves to die”….. life and death isn’t a reward / punishment thing…..its a natural process….saying no one deserves to die is tantamount to saying no one deserves to blink. It happens regardless if you deserve it or not…. A child rapist may “deserve” death but that doesn’t mean he will die just because he deserves it….he will die because of natural causes or secondary causes such as other people or by his own hand…. A old man who has devoted his life to helping others may not deserve to die but…..he will die either by natural causes or secondary causes….he could be walking across the street in the direct path of a drunk driver….did he deserve it? nope…but it doesn’t matter because death doesn’t take just deserts into consideration
I back every word PainNLife just said.. i don’t feel guilty for wanting to die.. it would be like feeling guilty for wanting to escape or wanting to move on or see the world..
I am sure those are the things “normal” people won’t be guilty about.. so why this??
PS: I am not promoting or demoting suicide, i am just sharing my views.
Yes i feel incredably guilty ive tryed multiple times ive lived after each one and 15 years have passes and i find myself in the same position after what my family has been through it holds me back