the past few days have just been the worst I am seriously in so much emotional and mental pain. I havent ever felt more empty or hopeless than I do now and sometimes I just wanna say fuck it and grab my fucken gun and just try to end it and hope that i’ll be lucky enough to die. I swear it feels like a shitload of misery and sadness and hopelessness just fell out of the sky and landed right on me. I feel so alone right now so empty i’m sitting here just bawling me eyes out and I can’t stop I just want to to right now so bad.
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I was just reading up and saw you were the same person who wanted to “bite the bullet” so to speak. Interesting thing, I’m in a similar situation to you and I was speaking with another suicidal individual over the phone. Many tears were shed on both ends and I think it’s the first time we’ve connected with anyone on that level. Three days later, and I still haven’t heard from her.
Guess what I’m trying to say is that people may try help your situation but when it comes down to it, we only have ourselves to get out of this place we are currently in. And hey, I’m rowing the same boat as you, so if you want to talk, I’m here 🙂
You are not alone by any means!! I believe that this world sucks and the sooner that one passes on the better for that person. On Fox news recently a guy in Florida was arrested for exposing himself. He had a very grotesque face. I read about it and he tried to kill himself by a gunshot to the head, but he survived!! If you are not 100% successful then your life will be SO MUCH WORSE than it is now. I just wanted you to know there are ALOT of people out there suffering like you and me. We are not alone.
Peace.
@rare echelon& @lovedogs: yeah i know that but I can’t help myself so i have nothing!! no fucken will all i want to do is lay down and cry. I want to sleep all day and night and not wake up I wish I was in a coma or something where I wouldn’t feel or know anything. But being dead would just make more sense the word exhaustion doesnt even come close to describing how worn down I am. And yes I know that shootings can go horribly wrong but its what I can work with right now, everything else is a process. Chemicals drugs you have to find a supplier and wait to receive it and sometimes I hurt so much that I don’t want to wait id rather take the risk of shooting myself.
Acknowledged.
I have to agree with you completely on everything you’ve said, I mean, damn I feel exactly the same but I don’t know why I keep holding on to this little thread of hope. I feel “fatigued” as that’s the word I resonate more with.
I’ll stop there, I’m only making things worse.
Functions test your weapon this time, I’d use some CLP as well just in case she misfeeds or decides to derp on you. Remember – circuitry shot. Nowhere else.
@alina_01
No, I’m not encouraging you, but if you wanna go “out” so badly, you may as well be informed.
The only way you can fail is if you get a rush and move your head or hand before pulling the trigger or if you’ve got a shitty converted pistol and home made ammunition. The ones who botch it shoot from the side instead of straight up.
I’m not in any way saying you should kill yourself. I hope you don’t I hope you and me and everyone who is depressed and suicidal can feel better, but in my opinion the most responsible and pretty much a guarantee way to kill your self is to jump off a bridge or cliff. Very tall bridge 200 feet or higher.