I have so many regrets in my life after I graduated college. I have many friends but I feel depressed at times. I am the youngest in the family and my parents are so over protective to me. I should be home before 8PM. Rules are rules. No boyfriend after college. No drinking of alcohol. No smoking. They are over manipulating me. I am not a robot. Especially my sisters, they always control my life. I hate living anymore. I had a boyfriend. I met him at my work, he’s my co-employee. We’ve been together 7 months from now. He’ s my first boyfriend, First kiss and first sex, yes, i am not a virgin anymore. We had sex on our 4th monthsary. It was painful. At first, I regretted it but it already happened. 2 weeks ag, we had sex again. I can’t control my f***king damn hormones again. I love him. then 2 days ago, I feel dizzy, I feel like im going to faint. I am anemic and maybe this is just stress. But I feel paranoid. I can’t be pregnant, I don’t want to be pregnant. I am not yet ready. I hate my life. :'(
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You’ve mentioned the anemia which, to my lay understanding, is the most likely culprit of the dizziness. Take a deep breath (not said to sound patronising, just something I have to tell myself sometimes that seems to help.) Best-case scenario you have to review your iron intake and in the worst-case scenario you have a vast range of avenues open to you.
You mentioned also your hormones – understandable that they might seem so out of control to you; love and indeed sex are both exciting and joyous but, due to their instinctive, carnal nature can be quite dark and confusing at times. I can certainly relate to love making one feel shit!
Lastly, for what it’s worth, parenthood is indescribable elation.