I just hope you still love me
After all of the catastrophe
We were once companions, I believe
I never thought I would cause you to grieve
I miss you, and I love you
I just hope you love me too
I remember the mornings you came into my room
In those moments, there was no such thing as gloom
You would tickle me, kiss my cheek, and tell me of the sun
I never thought that from you I would run
Run right back to the hell I had tried to evade
It wasn’t you to come to my aid
I had to drag myself into the fire
Hearing your screams of, “You’re a liar”
I am haunted by the memories, that 10th day
How do I keep this at bay?
Share with me your experience, your intelligence
Please don’t make this moment one of vengeance
I would start all over, try to do better
But the furthest I could ever get was this piece of shit letter
Look at me, now look at you
Tell me what I need to do
To make you smile, to make you grateful
To make you believe I’m not hateful
I didn’t mean to hurt you, or to fuel old scores
How could one person create so many wars?
You must not know or care how I feel
This pain is what you don’t believe to be real
In me, or anyone else that you have tension with
Your mindsets are based off of nothing but myth
Gain experience and knowledge to come to reality
Destroy and burn your frailty
Leave me out of your emotionally volatile system
Don’t give me your bullshit wisdom
-Jamie Lea S.