I feel bad and gross and annoyed and sad. I’m never good enough for other people. I’m always everyone’s second choice. I could never be anyone’s favorite person. Why would I be though? I’m horrible at socializing. Id rather be alone than with other people. When I’m alone I’m just myself. I’m not worried of being judged. Saying the wrong things. Not being talkative enough. Not being energetic enough. I feel tired as hell 75% of the day. When I’m with other people I feel lonelier than when I’m with myself. That makes no sense. But why don’t people like me? Do I not look goood enough for them? Do I gross them out? Do they think I’m too wierd? Do they think I’m boring? Do they not understand me? I don’t know, I guess im just not good enough for people. I can’t be myself around people. As much as I try.
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I feel the same as you. It’s hard for me to make friends too, and I’m always tired. But you’re probably an amazing person ????
The thing is that I think I’m a pretty ok decent cool person, but no one else seems to think the same ._. It sucks
You think you’re cool. That’s all that matters. Only your opinion about you matters, because you know your own heart. 🙂
Maggie. If you’re not good enough for other people, that’s their problem. That has nothing to do with you or how you look or what you enjoy. It’s their judgement, their negative energy, their bad karma.
You can look at second place as being the back up or part of the rotation.
You can definitely be someone’s favourite person. Why not? You might not be good socialising, that’s okay a lot of us aren’t. I’m not. There’s nothing wrong with being alone. Being yourself and not scared of judgement, that’s what you have to feel like when you leave the house.
Maybe people need to see the real you? The you that is you at home alone. The you that isn’t worried by judgement. I’m not saying you’re fake, but it sounds like you’re self conscious. I am too. It’s very hard I know. It needs to be a conscious effort. An effort to get reward.
People sometimes just don’t tell each other enough “hey I like you” we just kind of expect them to know.