waiting for mothers to come

truth can only be self evident
so truth can never be impartial

when you keep this at the forfront of your mind at all times,
you can cope with being abandoned……….this is a possibility,
an obtainable thought process…….that i havent quite walked up to yet
this is sour, just a deep well of emotion
i dont like thinking about it
every time i come here it suprises me still
how much it has taken
how much it still takes
i dont know if it was the passive way in which she gave up on me,
or how easily she did it that bothers me more
My children
i cant imagine anything that would force my hand to inflict
this brand of pain
murder pedophillia incest
there isnt anything in this world…………….
They will be inherently damaged by me someday, i know i could never be what they deserve
they accept it gladly, they love me unconditionally
no state of mind, no ugly thing, death himself
there is nothing that would make them unreachable
i to them and them to me