Just sad. Thats all I am.
This is terminal, isn’t it? As in my time is pretty limited now. If suicide doesn’t get me in the end then anorexia sure will. I guess i’m pleased only im growing impatient. I know of very peaceful ways i can die. And yet i still sit here crying from the pain. I’m on the verge of making an official plan when i’ve only ever gone by spontaneous crisis moments before.
I’ve been in an endless suicidal episode recently. This just has got to stop. Am just trying to make it through this night without resorting to an overdose. Please make this stop.
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Yes, very sad. I wish I could make it stop. How old are you? If you’re under 20, there is hope. Teen hormones are horrible. Once again, I wish I could make it stop. I truly do.
I understand. How many times I’ve cried and asked God to make my life stop. Maybe I’m a coward that I can’t end it on my own yet? I imagine walking into the kitchen and slashing my wrists with the nearest kitchen knife. I imagine taking a hand full of dilaudid pills to numb and stop the pain. I’m so tired of feeling unimportant and unloved. So many times I feel that I’m the only one….until now. I just found this website. Maybe I’m just being optimistic (I already mentioned I’m a coward) but I just want to reach out to someone who feels what I feel and know that I’m not alone. I can’t possibly be alone.
katiejones78, you are not alone. Vedura