was the day you left me. It’s been over 3 years. I don’t know what to think. You told me if we were meant to be, it’d happen. I still believe you’re my soul mate, but I don’t know where you are, what you’re doing, how you are, or even if you’re alive. I know you needed to leave, I needed you to leave, but fuck you. You haven’t checked up on me once. I was fine for a while, I’ve gotten used to the fact. I barely remember what it’s like to have you in my life other than you made me the happiest I may have ever been. I was fine without you, but suddenly I’ve been getting nostalgic and you’re racing through my thoughts. I don’t care if we don’t end up being anything, I mean we were best friends for over two years and it wasn’t romantic. It’d just be nice to have you in my life again. It hurts you haven’t checked up on me with the condition I was in before you left me. I can only hope it’s because you’re scared you’ll find out I’ve killed myself, but I didn’t. And I am sure it’s not the case, you’ve forgotten me, moved on. You gave me permission to love other people, but I’m scared you’re the only person I’ll ever feel anything for. I’m not some heartbroken **** or anything, it’d just be nice to have you in my life because I need someone [you]. Things are really tough when I’m away at school and I don’t think I can do it alone anymore.
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being broken hearted sucks! I can’t take it anymore. Rejection is the worst feeling in this world. I love this guy so much but he will never commit to me. He’s everything I have ever wanted. Life is not worth living without him!
I know what you mean, I’m not broken hearted though really. Scared that I’ll never love someone again, before or after him because I don’t feel much of anything. He was afterall my best friend, I just want him back in my life rather than a need to like be with him or anything. I’m really not broken hearted, I don’t know how to explain it.
I understand your pain. There is nothing worse than the feeling that you’ve found “the one,” only to have that relationship end. It’s even worse when you lose all contact with that so very special person. I too am in the same situation. I wish I could talk with my ex. I know that having a romantic relationship with her is impossible at this point, but I would suffer unrequited love, to be only friends if it meant having her in my life.
Having a broken heart is the worst feeling in the world. I hope that you’re able to find someone else that can bring you the happiness that you found in that previous relationship. I hope the same for myself.
I think I’m just more scared I’ll never feel anything again cause that’s the only damn thing I ever felt. Like I said it’s not quite as romantic as I wrote up there, yes I do love him, but I miss my best friend, too. I think I fall back on missing him when things get bad again. He was my comfort in the past.
He sounds like a douchebag. You do know the world is an ocean? Lot’s and lot’s of other fish in the sea! One will fit you better than he does.