I guess you can say I know what I want now. Lately I have been trying to be the social guy that gets invited alot and talks to alot of people. I wanted to make myself think that that was the way I can change for “better.” But in reality thats not me. I am the guy that is really quiet in class and when I go home, I go straight to my only friend. My computer. Thats all I want now. All I want is to be the quiet guy that no one talks to, the one who goes home and find his only hapiness within a computer, binge watching on animes and playing lots of games. After a couple of years of unhapiness and loneliness all I want is to forget about friends, forget about love, forget about being a social guy. I just want to shut myself out from the world and be the “shell” that I have always been.
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Sometimes everyone has this period of life that needs to be alone. It’s nothing bad, though, but there always comes the time when you must stop. To live like a hermit entire life would be like to lose all the beautiful moments the life can give you.
Enjoy the loneliness, I’ve found the peace in mine. The same I wish to you.
I completely understand where you are coming from. Lately, I have had a similar goal: to be more social and try to make more friends. I’m not sure it’s working out like I’d hoped, but I think it’s human nature to wish to find others to be close with.
I hope you find happiness in whichever path you feel suits you best.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)
There’s nothing necessarily wrong with being unsocial if that’s what you prefer; but if you want to be more involved with other people, just be comfortable with yourself and act naturally and you’ll end up forming personal relationships some how. It takes time, but it’ll happen if you don’t give up and run away.