anyone else ever get that mental fog… where you feel so out of it almost, but not in a good way? and you kinda feel like nothing is real, that everything going on is not really happening? -and you’re not all there?… i feel that way right now, and it’s messing me up. i wonder if anyone here can tell me what i suffer from, so i can have a name for it. because it bothers me not to know…
i feel so lowly and depressed. and dammit, i told myself i wouldn’t cry today…
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There was a name for this thing, but i forgot. I’ll look it up for you if you wish.
Sometimes i do feel something similar but i’m not sure if that’s exactly as you mean.
Sometimes i feel like i’m not really there, like my body is moving on it’s own and i’m not really real, sort of.
Depersonalization was it?
Maybe a form of derealisation?
I often feel what you described…
When you feel deeply depressed you can feel like you’re not really here, but it dosen’t mean you’re suffering from something new… It dosen’t necessarily got a name.
well, i’ve heard depersonalization, derealization, dissociation. but i don’t think what i have is really severe enough to be these things? i don’t know. perhaps its just a symptom of my depression. it happens only when i’m very depressed, which i am now. i wish i knew what to do about it. can’t really see a professional. :/
I don’t think it has to be severe to count as this things?
They sound the closer to this than anything.
But i’m not too sure either.
I only get it when i’m depressed and miss a lot of sleep too so it might be.
Why can’t you see a therapist? If it happens too often you might need to, if you want to get rid of it.
Maybe you should try and get some rest until it goes away
Click on my username and go to the post titled “Knock knock..”.
Derealisation may have various faces.
DuZo: I can’t see a therapist because of money and transportation reasons.
LittleBread: I read your post. What you described is like a much more severe version of what I sometimes feel. I think what I have is a really, really mild case. Like just feeling detatched in general.
My situation was the same as yours, but it was getting worse and worse during the passing years. Also, remember that not every illness has the same run record for different people but it is still the same illness by the name. Derealisation doesn’t need to be severe – it comes from very light forms of detachment to even losing memories.
In that case, I probably do have it then, because that sounds like me. I probably won’t be diagnosed by a professional anytime soon (because of the above). But I feel slight detachment a lot of the time, and I even have gaps of memory lost (my memory isn’t good in the first place).
Also, I realize in my last comment I called yo Bread, not Bead. My mistake. -__-
That goes to show how out of it I am.
What a funny mistake =) I hadn’t even noticed it before you mentioned it =)
I really encourage you to see a shrink or a therapist. It may get worse and you don’t want to be on meds, don’t you? Derealisation happens when you’re very afraid of something. It’s like your brain was protecting you against unknown threat. Maybe you could work out and get rid of it.
I had this for a while, and differed in severity from week to week, but the constant is that you feel the world is unreal or lacks realism, as if time passing is irrelevant to you if that makes sense, among other things like everything is completely scripted, pointless, lacking free will perhaps.
I think you become this way when you feel numb towards life and the world in general and get desensitized to anything normal, and you see the world differently. It can also happen when you go through severely traumatic things that you cannot recover from emotionally (or physically perhaps also).
Notwithstanding everything else I still have in spades, I don’t think I have the above anymore or as much, but I don’t know how I lost it, I think I got more mature and started just not caring about things more and taking things far less seriously, getting stronger in general, not caring about people’s opinions or remarks etc.