moving on…

Wondering starting to date again… I like one girl more then the others she is cute and sweet. She is originally from the country that I moved too 6 years ago. But also lived in the east and southern of Europe.

She is 8 years older then me. I don’t mind. I actually quite like it as I would like children and I think she would want them too. I wonder though if it is a wise step.. in the longer run for my happiness if that path were to happen….

we click really well so I do not really for see problems in that perspective, we talk really well…. Or I dunno maybe I do a lot. I am sure if I imagine this or not but I think I have insecurity issues because of all that happened and also because of my ex.

so I wonder about if that is a sign from her not liking me. And also in other ways I make myself insecure… I quite hate it…

don’t know why I have to do that and I wish I coiled just stop that somehow.. but not with smoking, I try herbs and it helps 🙂 but still sometimes the thoughts are quite bad… And I still think of my ex too… Still hold a grudge but mostly aimed at myself.

She give a lot of compliments. I like them. Got example that she says that my beard fits me. that I am intelligent; I do not think so of myself… again that insecurity, she thinks that I am wise and the age is not a problem for her, I figure why would it it’s probably only good for her.

Opinions? Any comment is welcome