I have a wife and a great mam and dad. I feel selfish for wanting to kill myself as I know it will finish these people. I have tried tablets before and ended up in hospital for a day or so! I was 23 at the time, unhappy with my friends, my job and being lonely! am no longer alone but lately (last two years) I’ve just hit rock bottom. I’ve made it to 32 years old and feel the world as nothing more to show or offer me! I feel emotionless writing these words as I’ve heard them in my head so many times if I could only leave this world without it noticing! am done ,am spent, am tired, am a failure, a waste of oxygen, a non achiever, I feel like a charlatan. I definitely took someone’s place. if I could start again I would have made different choices like maybe stick in at school and not take drugs but that’s that. am going to think it over but I can’t handle this much longer
if your reading this there’s nothing more you could have done you all done more than enough bless you all. it’s better to burn out than to fade away
to my parents thank you and I love you
to my wife thank you and sorry I couldn’t have been more x
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i wish i had the words to say. but hey man, i hear you and i feel your pain.
My heart will forever ache if I left this world as it was.
I don’t want to sound uncaring because I can hear how you are suffering. But I just wanted to tell you that my wife is divorcing me after 24 years of marriage. Our marriage hadn’t been good for a long time, but I still wanted to be with her. I’m not trying to minimize your struggles, but is it possible that maybe you could focus on her. Be glad that you still have her and continue to keep going. I wish I still had my wife. Anyway, just a thought and I hope this helps just a tiny bit. I hope you can find some peace.