Dear Unnamed fuckface who threw his tray across the room and tried to play it of as an accident when he realized his favorite housekeeper was there,
you piss me off. Stop asking so many personal questions. Let me do my job and leave. It’s bad enough that I scrub toilets for a living. You really REALLY don’t have to make it any worse. I’m stressed enough without people like you making my job more difficult than necessary.
Sincerely,
Samantha. The very angry cleaning lady.
In other news, my head is pounding and I’m exhausted. I’ve been asking myself the same thing all day.
Do I really want to get better?
The answer is yes. I do. I think I’m just scared to do it alone. I want someone to support me through it all, but no one seems to understand and I can’t burden anyone with the kind of issues that I bring to the table. There’s a song that’s been playing on repeat in the back of my mind for a while now.
Alligator. Alligators. -Trophy Scars
It’s my anthem right now.
Maybe my last day is closer than I think.. I’m scared.
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Hey sorry you had such a bad day and that you’re stuck in a job that you hate. Frankly desperate times call for desperate measures so if anyone is willing to help you out-take it. Just because you might think you’re a burden on others, doesn’t mean they consider you to be a burden.
If you can live with family or friends while you upgrade your job/career, go for it. No doubt your situation is making you feel trapped and suicidal. I’m in a job I don’t like-in an office. It’s dull and repetitive, but fortunately the people around me are fun and entertaining. It’s very hard to make a change, but I plan to upgrade my career as well. I have the education-just need to find the right job.
But ya-use anyone that is willing to help you-just be grateful to them-that’s usually all they ask for. And if you ever get in a good situation you might be able to return the favor. Just remember, treat it like a marathon, not a sprint.
I used to live in a terrible place once, I was there for a few years, issues with noise, bad neighbors, landlord, but I toughed it out and I knew one day I’ll be in a better place and I succeeded. It was a hard struggle but I can look back now with pleasure knowing how far I’ve come. Still not where I’d like to be but closer to my goal.
And since you’re a girl, you can use your assets to your advantage. Find a guy who’s doing well and mooch off him-just be smart about it. As a guy I wouldn’t mind if my partner didn’t work as long as I liked her. Of course it’d be better if she had an income too-we both benefit, but I don’t expect it from her. Just don’t let them know you’re using them.
I couldn’t use anyone like that if I wanted to.
I get what you’re saying and I am in school for occupational therapy. I mean, I’m only 18. Ive just been dealt a shitty hand. All of the past struggles have a way of making the small things seem ten thousand times worse. All of the mental and emotional termoil has me on edge 24/7. Just a lot irrevocable damage.
I’m sure you’re a noble person like myself and couldn’t fathom using others, but that’s really the way the world works. The best job opportunities and highest paying have always been through friends/family/contacts, never via resumes or hiring companies.
Sometimes you have to swallow your pride to get ahead in life. I used to live with my dad for years while I was trying to get my career and a business off the ground. People used to talk shit about me-they didn’t know what I was working on….I found some success in what I did but eventually left and got a job and lived on my own ever since.
I’m simply throwing out ideas-I realize they might not suit your personality. But when you’re in a tough situation, then it’s better to try any method to get out of it. Worry about your pride after. And there’s nothing wrong with needing or wanting help from others. Some people are very generous and forgiving like myself. I’ve helped people that completely didn’t deserve it…but I did it to satisfy my own conscience. I knew if I did nothing they would’ve definitely ended up homeless or worse.
I can also fully relate-sometimes when life has treated you so badly, one becomes hypersensitized to any further suffering or ill-treatment. Things most people might easily brush off, would affect you deeply-an errant word for instance. But it’s also about putting things in context and letting the small stuff slide. Also having a goal-something to shoot for (like my apartment example), makes it easier to bear the “slings and arrows” that you have to endure on a daily basis.
I’m not that much further up the ladder from you-it’s a low-level job and sometimes I have a lot of stupid shit to deal with. I’ve learned to take it in stride and also I know I’ve always been meant for better positions due to my education. It’s simply a matter of going through the motions, jumping through the hoops (finding better cliches, lol) till I am where I want to be in life. I’m sure you can do it too-you clearly are very intelligent and usually that’s the key (along with some luck and hard work) to getting ahead.
Edit: The best job opportunities that I’ve had…..
I can’t think of anything encouraging to say, but I’d gladly kick the shit out of that asshole…or attempt to at least, being a cripple makes planting my foot in someone’s ass a lot harder than it used to be.
Regardless, I hope things get better for you. I’ll be over here in the corner cheering you on.
Sammi! You brought the walrus out of hiding! Quick, help me hold the fuckface’s ass open whilst walrus carefully maneuvers his foot into it. And after, for stress relief, we can all go fold fitted sheets 0_o
“I’m just scared to do it alone. I want someone to support me through it all, but no one seems to understand and I can’t burden anyone…”
Ugh you said a mouthful. It’s weird knowing you have all the strength & all the skills to make sense of life, but you just can’t (or won’t) do it alone. That’s how I feel every day of my life. What’s that about anyway? Shouldn’t we be able to walk the tightrope without a safety net just as easily as with?
I dunno. Stupid brain. Well someone promised me candy today. Pay up or I’ll have to start jumping into random vans.
Oh my god walrus! I’ve been wondering about you. I’m with salt on this one. But this is a big guy. We may need more help..
I’ve got your candy. It’s in the mail with another defective shot glass.
I can also help.
Eh, I can take him, I’ve got a big crutch.
And I didn’t mean to be hiding, I just couldn’t find the energy to comment on anything. I’d ask how you’re doing, but this post gives me a decent idea.
Don’t give up sammi ;c
i haz faith in you.