I came across this website tonight as I was drowning in my tears looking for a way out of this hell hole. not sure what im doing here, but this feels right. I need somewhere to write my thoughts and I need someone to listen. so here it is, my name is hannah (as you can see by my username which I didn’t know I couldn’t change.) I am not okay. I am depressed. and today I realized this when I was asked if I was okay and I cried before I could even say “im fine” as I would usually say. I have no one to talk to, no friends, no family. constant thoughts of suicide, even if I wouldn’t act on them they seem to be affecting my everyday life. ive lost all motivation for school, nothing interests me. I have flash thoughts of ways I can die as I get in the car to drive. even at my happiest times theres that thought in the back of my mind that this wont last, and im right. anyways I don’t want to make this super long, but this is me.
goodnight.
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Many here have similar “constant thoughts of suicide.” There’s no easy answer to anything that ails you, or us. Welcome.
Hello Hannah. I also dont have anyone to talk to. I guess that’s normal here.. if you ever get lonely, my email is devinbelver@yahoo if you ever want to talk to someone
Welcome to SP, Hannah.
So sorry you felt bad enough to end up here.
About the only people who understand us are us ‘cides and the shrinks. Sorry you are hurting. Around here we know about hurting.