I give up. On everything. Nothing is worth it anymore. Nobody loves me. My family hates me, especially my dad. Everyone loves my sister more than me. She’s skinny, smart, popular, and beautiful. Multiple crushes and my own father (he shouldn’t even be called that) like her better. My father calls me stupid, a whore, and a slut. The one boy I have loved since kindergarten told me repeatedly he hated me, that I’m a freak, that I’m ugly and fat and a lot of other stuff that’s completely true. I have practically no friends. They all left me in 6th grade. I was left utterly alone. Everyone hated me and thought I was a freak. My own ex-best friend became my new bully. The boy I loved chose another girl over me. Everyone chooses other people over me. I am nothing and nobody. I lie to everyone so that they will like me more, but instead people still hate me. People judge me and laugh at me. I know people talk about me when they think I am not listening. They make fun of the fact I am fat and not have the nicest clothes. I am hopeless. My two bestest friends committed suicide, they luckily succeeded while I have been unsuccessful for over a year. Then a boy came, Arthur. I was in love, I was actually happy. But he used me for sex and then blamed our friends suicide on me and he made me into a bulimic. He told me everyone hated me and no one will ever love me. I have tried everything to commit suicide. I have driven my car into a light pole without wearing a seatbelt, I have tried to overdose on Vicodin, I have tried to overdose on Tylenol, I have tried hanging myself, but each time someone finds me and “saves” my life. I want to die. Please help me. Please give me ideas on  how to non-painfully die. I am desperate. Please help me put my suffering to an end.
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hey please don’t do it. your beautiful, suicide is a permanent solution… for a TEMPORARY problem. study hard, get a lot of money, move out of the house, move to the other side of the world for all i care. just DO NOT do it! jesus loves you so much, and i love you too 🙂 please don’t do this.
hey, suicide is not worthit, i was in a coma for about a month and still only just surving, dont do it because you will wake up in that hospital bed to a failed attempt. get as much help as you can, because if you have that help and someone to talk to then it might help even a little bit. just please dont do it, i would hate to see you go. i care and love you, so please do not do this.
suicide is not worth it hunny and i am glad that you are asking for help becuase that is showing that you dont want to die.. you just want things to change and things will things will get better you just need to stick things out talk to me whenever you need help samanthamcgoff@yahoo.com