Ya know, I have had many, many, many, suicides this past month or so. Three. They all never showed any signs or anything and of course with the subject coming up everywhere i look now that this has happened it has reopened my deep feelings of wanting to do it however i stuck in there because it was the holidays.
Today i found out my parents are getting divorced. out of the whole year it had to be this month with all my friends’ suicides. like seriously. this is tearing me apart but i put on a brave face and listen to both of them yell at me thinking that i am the other spouse. like i love being there for them but i hate being treated like the rat here. this has already happened four times and this would be the fifth. my mom said that if she did it again then she would end up like my cousin who killed herself months ago. like seriously.. how much pressure, pain, anger, and simple agony can i take. ive had waaayy too much heartbreak than a teenager should ever face. let alone in a month. i dont know what to do.
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PLEASE DONT!!!!
It all seems so bleak right now…………We lost our son to suicide, NEVER ever did we want that……….Your son will struggle soo much with this, it will define his life, he, to will think that may be the answer, I promise you will leave a whole new set of unimaginable problems and issues for him, he wont get over it.
PLEASE NO!!!!!!
listen, of you are treated badly, yelled at, and being threatened with suicide, just stay here. We are your family too you know. We are here for you, we love you, and we don’t want to lose you, just like any other family should. So please stay with us, or you’ll break your family’s heart.
this is way easier said then done. im just so lost.
tell me about it, litterally, tell me everything. I’m your family, I care.
i wish i felt like it. i dont mean that in a mean way at all but its just such a long and sad and painful story its tiring to tell.
I understand Stacey, I really do.
Don’t be silly Stacey. Life = problems. I’m really sorry about the deaths you’ve had to face and I know 3 deaths is a lot but you shouldn’t take that as an exit to all your troubles. Your parents fell out of love, they too are having a hard time and you need to tough it out for them. Your parents suffer too don’t let them down. I’m sorry to say it but don’t be a sissy, be strong. I know heartbreaks are tough but that’s life honey. You fall in and out of love with different people and you grow from it. EVERYBODY does, not everybody dies from it and neither should you. I understand you’re a teenager. Give life a chance, your perspective of things isn’t fully developed yet and everything will seem silly later. All the heartbreaks. And death can be so hard, see how sad those 3 deaths made you? Don’t make your parents more sad. Just hang in there. Hang in there
RORyBoo..
No offense you suck at encouragement. I have been through hell and back. I had to practically quit school to take care of my sisters because both of my parents werent there for us. i have been through so much pain there is no question in my mind that i wouldnt be here if i didnt have sisters to take care of. i gaurentee you would collapse if you just lived thirty minutes in my life. i sure do. but i cant show a damn sign to anyone because it would be too much because they are dealing with enough already.
stacey, sometimes its good to vent. If you need to, just tell us
What a sad story, i myself have a fammily who cannot bear the loss of me, even tho im nothing but a burden to them, and useless ect. But it pales in comparison to you, a huge hug here from me to you, i hope it gives you at least a little comfort!.
Stacey NO OFFENSE… but you don’t know shit about me so be quiet. You didn’t talk about that in your message i thought you wanted to kill yourself because your parents were divorcing and i thought that was ridiculous. My bad.