Every doctor pretty much makes it seem as though if you take this medicine, everything will get better. Sadly, that ain’t the truth. I have been taking medicine since I was in 6th grade and look at me. I am STILL depressed and I STILL have a lot of anxiety and anger. Can medicine really help you? No. It can help you a little. It can slightly make you happier and slightly less anxious, but that’s not always the case. When I cry, I can’t stop crying for about an hour. My anxiety gets so bad that I shake to the point that I can’t write straight or hold anything. My anger gets so bad that I punch, kick, scream, and hurt myself. NOTHING helps me besides cutting and hurting myself. If I don’t punch something hard, the anger is still there. If I don’t cut, then I keep crying. NOTHING can help besides pain. Not all medicine works. No medicine so far has really helped me. I have been the same since I was young. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t do anything to help suppress the urges to hurt myself because there is no release. I guess that I am just a lost cause.
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I don’t know – sometimes I wish I could cry instead of cutting or punching myself or something. You’re right though, medicine doesn’t always work – it isn’t some magical pill to pop and make yourself happy I guess. Sometimes I guess you have to really work with the meds, or play around with the kinds and dosages. But really I don’t think pills will even work then – I think pills TRY to just mess with the chemicals in your head, but that doesn’t take the thoughts and feelings away. I think more of a sit down to figure out your problems and learn how to better cope with them is better than the “Here, take these pills” approach. You’re not a lost cause though, but it isn’t easy nor fast to get to feeling better. Don’t give up quite yet…
Yeah, meds havent helped me out, I have been depressed for more than half my life, and for me its not environmental, so they should work, but they dont. I often get mad at myself because of this, so I go punch my brick wall in the basement, and whenever I do something wrong I punch either the wall or my head. I did find someone who I was able to be around that made everything allright, but she will not be able to provide that for me anymore, so I am looking again, but I dont know if that helps.
You’re right. But some meds don’t work for people. Some meds do work for people. and, usually, seeing a really for real psychologist that listens to what you need to spill out and offers good relevant ideas and then determines what kind of behavior has changed in you over time…is actually not the worst idea. Then, going to a good psychiatrist to get the RIGHT pills to suit you is a good idea. But, know this: there is never any medication that is going to instantly heal you. Meds help adjust you to be prepared for certain circumstances in life, so you will understand how to counter them. It’s like instead of getting kicked in the face all the time with no relief, you will occasionally dodge those kicks or even kick back…with letting time and meds to teach you and strengthen you. There’s one thing that none of us humans can cope with, and that’s endurance (persistence, patience). Look, I’ve been takin anti-depressant and anxiety meds for a couple of years now. Sometimes things will feel peachy(er) than usual, other times things will feel just the same. That’s when I tell my doc that 6 times outta 10 it feels like things aren’t working. But, then I just get a higher dose, or try something different. Hope something I said helps ya. Take care.
Oh yeah. And people who have depression or anxiety will ALWAYS have it. For the rest of their lives. It’s a chemical imbalance in the brain. Unless, of course, someone just “feels” depressed because his girlfriend broke up with him, so now his life is over. He’ll probably get over that pretty soon. Others experience a trauma when they were a kid. And, that person can work through it and soon be healed of that hurt…or it forms a spot of “screwed-up-ness” in their brain and they will be scarred for life. Most of us have this “scar” on our brain and some of us don’t even know why; but it makes things really really sucky for us. Anyways. Sorry for the lenthyness.