It’s like a test. You think you are completely over someone and then you hear their voice or see them.. A huge wave hit me and set my heart off. Silly!
I miss things, but I know I can’t get them back so … Fuckit! :]
I love you but I can’t have you.
XD I feel so silly.
Well things have been turning around for me. I still have that wave of depression hit me almost every day, but who the hell needs to know about it? XD
I love him. I dont want to hurt you.
GHoodbye
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Okay.. So I’m not writing this because i’m really depressed or anything like that. Right now I couldn’t cry if I wanted to. I’m in a neutral emotion and I guess it might be distorting my real feeling or something… But I’m really tired of hurting people. I feel like that’s all I do. I let people close to me and these people want to help me.. To fix me. I warn them that it won’t get better and for a while it might, and they think they did good. All of a sudden I spiral downward. I can’t do it. I can’t smile for […]
I’m still contemplating suicide (I would rather take all the time in the world to make the right decision than to give up and have no other choice). Umm things may be starting to turn around now?
My trauma councilor told me a way to tone down my panic attacks.. so I’m not always freaking out about those anymore.
(even though all day I had a panic attack coming and going and I just about lost it.)
I love him. No I’m not talking about my ex. I feel like.. I fell out of love with him, he’ll always be in my heart but not in the […]
Okay, so me and my ex(the one you guys all have been hearing about!) are trying to remain friends… We’ve been doing okayish but it’s so hard for me to accept the face that he .. doesn’t love me. Today he informed me that he was… well of something personal and I didn’t know what to say back.. I had to comment on it though and I said, “Do you usually let your friends know?”. I don’t know if he told me to make me feel like shit because we aren’t together anymore or what… I felt like crying when he said it too… On […]
Each tear that falls off my cheek is another painful memory. They are happy memories but they suddenly turned cold. Thinking about him makes my stomach turn. I cannot continue this.
I want death
Hello.
I’m coping with depression. I started to see someone about it and I’m currently waiting to see her today. I feel like things are pretty much impossible. Me being my usual pessimistic self believes that I will not find happiness. I have someone who really loves me, but that doesn’t seem to be enough. I used to think that maybe if I had someone who loves me I would feel a little better about myself and about my life.
Hey guys, It’s been a little while since I’ve been on last.. Today has been pretty rough on me and I’m so depressed I can’t eat or drink or anything without wanting to throw up. I’m weak and I haven’t even done anything.. I feel like my body is giving up, my mind already has.
I’ve been having a rough time trying to deal with everything. My parents seem like they are splitting up. I’ve been “dumped”. Everyone acts like I should be the strong one. I can’t be. I’m going through life now pretending to be happy. My friends think I am, that is. I don’t want anyone else worrying about me. My parents know about my cutting now. Last night I refrained from cutting myself when I found out about how my parents see everyone in our household. I told them they are pathetic for both of them to give up. That was selfish of me, I know, […]
I would cause a lot of stress on my family. But they would cry and get over it. My friends would not know so they would forget quickly. My love will die with me. Problem solved there.
I want to kill myself tonight. I have every reason to… I need someone to talk to.. Can’t stop shaking
Sorry we couldn’t help change your mind but I know you’re going to be happier gone….
R.I.P….NihilisticThought
You helped me stay alive this long
I’m very sheltered… I have boyfriends in real life but I also try some long distance things.. I ended up having feelings for someone who lives all the way across the united states. We dated for almost a year but things got so serious..I got scared and broke up with him… I didn’t want to but I felt like i had to. He’s the only one who has had my heart for a couple years. After taking some time to figure out how I could do this.. I tried to get close to him again but I felt like he was pushing […]
I figure since everyone is starting to introduce their pics in this ><
This is me.
I cut and have an eating disorder.
I write and laugh and smile at times.
I cry and feel worthless.
I’m a gamer chick.
I text and email.
I use facebook and blog.
I write poetry and short stories
Take photography and more.
I could say a million […]
Hey everyone.. you’ve probably seen some of my posts and i’ve probably commented on some of yours..
I just wanted to make it clear that I’m hear if you need someone to talk to, as well as the fact that I hope some of you are too…
You can email me or add me on Facebook, just let me know whom you are.
http://www.facebook.com/#!/Bring.On.The.Peace
and
iwant_yourhelp@yahoo.com
…. I’ll reply or add asap.
I just thought I would throw it out there.
I’m here looking for help. And looking to help.
🙁
I’m scared to die..
I lie
I cry and hurt
I feel pain and smile at times
I love and I lose
I wish and I fail
I’m 17 in a month
I’m a female
I’m suicidal
I cut and I take pills to make me sleep all the time
I care…
I hate myself
I hate who I am
I have been beat up
I have had boyfriends cheating on me
I have been threatened and hurt for not doing what I was told.
They taught me not to speak unless they tell me to
They taught me to do what they say
I was forced to have sex my first time and many times after
I was forced to do certain drugs
My ex’s put bruises […]
I don’t know but tonight seems good….
To end it
I’ve started to plan it…
I have what I need…
The pills that will end it for me..
I haven’t left a note yet
I’m still hoping for someone to grab my hand
and help me up
off the ground
But I won’t hesitate to swallow every
last one of these pills…
I took my first
http://yawnycontinues.blogspot.com/
I stare at a white wall
Hoping for a hand to grab mine
Of course it doesn’t
My hand is ice cold
I let tears fall off my cheeks
Gasping for air
Grabbing my blade
Taking my pills
1..I start to calm down
2…I’m breathing normal
3….A smile creeps upon my face
4…..I feel myself slipping away
5……I drop my pencil
I drop the photo
I drop my memory of you and our smiles
I lose grasp on reality
6…….I stare at the white wall
I’m not here to hear people say I’m ridiculous for wanting to die.. or for cutting.. I’m here because I can’t help myself.. I want someone to listen to me when I’m saying I want to die… I want someone to care…
I’m hoping I get that here.. If not I’ll search else where…
I lost someone I’m in love with… I feel pain I’ve never felt before/.. I have tried countless times to kill myself but each attempt failed :S… I just…. need help..
I have cut myself over 100 times. I’ve counted. I’ve taken pills every night.