1st- My laptop fell and either the charger or charging port got damaged. Spent time running around to a PC repair shop. Hopefully it’s just the charger but I’m scared it’s the charging port that got damaged bc it feels loose. Actually, it wasn’t charging properly the last 6mo+ or so. I really hope it’s just the charger bc if it’s the port then that’s going to cost money to have someone fix it. Plus the time that I can’t use the laptop and the energy involved going to several PC repair shops to find the lowest price, which is […]
Wondering if most suicidal people are into “dark” movies? Sure I’ll watch all types of genres but I’ve always gravitated to the more “dark” movies ever since I was a kid. Sci-fi, horror, murder, death, etc.
Hell, would be interesting to see a study as who who watches what kind of movies. Do happier people watch happy-go-lucky movies? Comedies? Do depressed ppl watch more morbid movies? Who watches true crime? Loads of middle aged women are glued to true crime shows. What does it say about middle age women lol
What dark movies/shows do you recommend?
Sigh, movies not really doing it […]
I’m into survival game movies, last man standing types. Movies like:
-Squid Game
-Battle Royale
-Escape Room
-Cube
-13 Sins
-The Circle
-The Platform
Any recommendations?
Sure I’ve had ups and downs, been various levels of depressed, very depressed and suicidal. But the last 9mo has been hell. Well the last few years has been hell too but it’s getting worse and worse. I can’t even distract myself with music and movies anymore. Going through lists of movies and it’s all “eh.”
I hate this. I hate my life. I hate that I hate everything and feel NO fucking joy in anything anymore. In the past, I’d at least enjoy SOME things like movies, music, food, a nice breeze, etc.
I’m so cursed. I can’t […]
So the other week I went to get food (unsuccessfully) and had to walk a bit. Saw a storefront called “The Cutting Room.” It was dark and closed (night time) so I didn’t know what is, but my immediate thought was cutting/SH or cutting/butchering place. Turns out “The Cutting Room” was just a haircut place. But funny how my first and second thoughts are so damn dark O_o
I mean it’s not funny but how are we supposed to be all sunshine and roses when we instinctively think certain thoughts? It’s not as if I haven’t TRIED to change my thoughts. […]
What can I do to “cope” with the shit life I can’t seem to escape from? So far, the only thing I can do is stuff my face and feel good for a few minutes, then go back to feeling like shit bc all that does is get me fat and I do not want to be fat.
I USED to exercise like mad, 3hrs a day every other day, and that worked beautifully bc it released my pent up anger. But obviously I can’t do that now. I’m physically fucked so now just walking hurts- something as simple as walking a few […]
It pisses me off that everyone says that shit. NO, there are many things that you just don’t forget or are able to “get over.” First of all, it’s not a choice. NO ONE wants to be traumatized nor do we want to be mentally screwed up over shit that’s happened in the past.
Like say for example a girl gets raped. Do you tell her to “just get over it” bc it’s “the past”? FFS
People who say that are shitty uncaring people, and have NEVER experienced trauma or horrendous things. If they did, they’d know that it’s not easy […]
Imagine a world where everyone who truly wanted to suicide could. That’s never going to happen in reality bc there’s too much money to be made in keeping other humans sick and depressed and indentured servants to our corporate overlords.
But suppose it was allowed. Old ppl who are terminal and dying wouldn’t have to suffer the last few years of life. And it’s going to be ALL of us, minus a few who are able to end our lives beforehand. It’s so insane to me that the severely ill still can’t die quicker and be allowed to end their […]
I wonder how many people are ACTUALLY severely depressed and/or suicidal? What stats there are, are off bc most ppl who are “depressed” aren’t chronically depressed like we are, where no matter what we do, we can’t shake off this darkness.
There are loads of ppl who claim they are “depressed,” when in reality they are just going through say a breakup or something, something that may be unpleasant or shitty at the time being, but it’s not the same as someone who has a fundamental issue with life itself, or of our existence.
According to WHO:
“An estimated 3.8% of the population experience depression, including […]
Or are we just Fucked?
This has been the worst fucking birthday, and I’ve had a lot of bad ones -_-
:'(
but NO ONE would help me, and so I’ve rotted, and become rotten. Is it a wonder I’ve been the way I am? It’s not my fault I’ve become an angry monster. That anger has been flamed by EVERYONE in this shitty world that’s done me wrong. EVERY. SINGLE.ONE. of those fuckers.
was extinguished long ago. What’s left is an angry weepy mess. :'(
your insane fucked up mom is LESS insane and LESS fucked up than you are. -_-
-_-
I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING
I’m so fucking frustrated with my life that I have LITERALLY been screaming the last few days. IDK how else to deal with anger and frustration.
I hate my fucking life
I hate my situation
I hate being sick and disabled
I hate being poor
I hate living in a shit apt
I hate NOT being able to control my environment and my life
Goddamnit, I had bought a flight, but it was a day earlier than I wanted to leave (not packed and ready to leave tomorrow night), but it was booked a few days ago, and tonight I saw the flight I wanted, but it meant I had to cancel the flight and rebook and pray that nothing goes wrong and someone snatches my flight as I cancel and before I can rebook (the page is SO slow, lagging, takes many minutes to cancel and rebook), so I decided to think about it first before jumping on it. I re-checked it 1-2 hours later and it […]