Dear Diary,  today I convinced myself it’s okay to give up.
Don’t take risks. Stick with the status quo, no drama.
Now just isn’t the time.
But my reasons aren’t reasons, they’re excuses.
All I’m doing is hiding from the truth and the truth is, I’m scared.
I’m scared that if I let myself be happy for one moment, that my worlds going to come crashing down and I don’t know if I’ll be able to survive that.