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I feel so helpless

by notwhoiwanttobe
written by notwhoiwanttobe

I can’t even type everything that’s going on with me. It doesn’t help me to tell people what’s going on. Unless you have about $2000 that you’re willing to donate me, and possibly a guaranteed job in Houston for my fiancee…there’s no help for me. Nothing has got better since the last few posts on here. I constantly think of suicide. Every single day I have at least one suicidal thought. I don’t know what to do. There’s nothing I can do, and no reason to fight for life anymore. I can’t say that I’ll kill myself. I thought I certainly would the last few […]

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Will you listen?

by silentwhispers
written by silentwhispers

Can you hear me? Not many can. A year ago, I became depressed. Life just doesn’t  make sense anymore. I could hear the whispers behind my back, and I saw the looks I got. I got pretty nervous; I was always checking my back. I stayed up for hours at night, writing letters and wanting the courage to do it. I wanted to kill myself.

I lived in fear. I wanted to leave this world; I was so tired of living. But I was scared of the consequences. I hated my mother, we always fought and I did not believe she loved me. I don’t think […]

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i have to; i need to

by LetItGo
written by LetItGo

im sorry im leaving
but i dont think you understand
i need to leave this planet
i need to leave
why you might ask
because im hurting people
far too many people
no youre not you may reply
but i am maybe not directly
but indirectly i am hurting them
i worry them and make them panic
i make them concerned about me
ive tried lying i really have
but i cannot lie about this
i must go and leave you
i apologize for that
but i have to go
i need to leave this planet
so no one gets hurt by me anymore
so […]

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denying death( by a malaysian)

by kishern
written by kishern

Well, this is my story. My first attempt to suicide when i was 16+. My true suffering when i started my IGCSE studies at the age of 15. According to my seniors, it was a year that supposedly has no room for fun and games. So i studied and really put in a lot of effort to work smart. Unfortunately, i was disadvantaged due to the fact of not having friends to support you when you need them the most and having a family that ask’s too much of results from you not knowing that they hurt you psychologically and physically. Meaning physically by the […]

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This isn’t really all sunshine and flowers.

by Saikarie
written by Saikarie

I’m not sure where to exactly start on this, I could go through my life story and all that to be honest it isn’t nearly as bad as what others have experienced, but i’ll see where it goes.

I was born under odd circumstances, the cord was strangling me so my mother had to have an operation to get me out. After what i believe to be a year they discovered that I was kind of deaf, so they inserted gromits into my ears to get rid of the wax and i could hear fine afterwards, but because of this i had learning difficulties. I was […]

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Fear.

by purplepain
written by purplepain

I think I’m on the verge of having an anxiety attack right now, I need to write this down to calm my nerves.
Just when I think things are going okay, everything goes downhill somehow. My classes are going all wrong, I can’t concentrate on my studies, I’m scared of even walking in the streets, I feel watched, observed, I feel inferior to those and everything around me, though I know I’m not.
A few months ago I stopped speaking to a “friend” of mine after she threw another of her little stupid tantrums on me, we’re 18 years old, I’m not a little girl […]

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Why does everyone abandon me?

by Aaron The Panda
written by Aaron The Panda

So basically people are absolute dicks head in my local towns, like I am a pretty normal guy except I love metal I have long blonde hair and I tend to fuck things up quite easily, and I don’t even know how.. Like my ex girlfriend I had loved her for over 2 years and when I finally worked up the courage to ask her out ( also we were really good friends) to my surprise she said yes 😀 but then everything fucked up real fast, she said she didn’t like me anymore, since then it has been 2 months and she has ignored […]

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Finally.

by Hospital For Souls
written by Hospital For Souls

I’m finally going to do it.
I’m getting out.
Away.
Away from here.
Nobody will be able to save me in 40 seconds.
Now I’m counting down the days to when I’ll slit my wrists and walk into the light.
I feel at peace.
This was a test that I just couldn’t succeed in.
Maybe death is my thing, my purpose.
I’m sorry everybody if it sounds like I’ve given up.
I haven’t. I’ve just said yes to fate.

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I blame Hollywood.

by monsterly
written by monsterly

Misinformation. Misinformation will raise your hopes and when you’re about to cash in those hopes and make them reality; bam. You search the internet better than you did the last time you wanted to commit suicide and, will you look at that, turns out suicide by pills isn’t as peaceful as you thought. Wait, wait… what? You won’t go to sleep and never wake up again? Hollywood misdirected you? How dare those movies make it seem so simple? Oh, what’s that? You might throw up violently? Your head will feel close to exploding? B-but—IT’LL FEEL LIKE YOU’RE LIVER’S BEING RIPPED OFF YOUR INSIDES AS IT’S […]

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Does it matter

by Day
written by Day

My mother is a complete psycho ***** that hates me to the extent of why I wonder I haven’t blown my brains out a lot if times I wonder if I’m even her son or something else to her like property and my dad is a wanna be thug who TRIES to relate to me when he was NEVER there for me and suddenly thinks that he can come back and think I will have no hard feelings towards him my grandparents think I mess everything up maybe it’s true I pretty much have nobody all of my friends I’ve made are on Xbox and […]

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Two of Swords

by BreathofBrandyandDeath
written by BreathofBrandyandDeath

I think this is the position, so many of us are stuck in.

A female figure sits blindfolded, as she calmly balances two swords across her shoulders. Behind her is a large body of water and above her is the moon.

The woman’s seated position, in combination with the crescent moon, recalls the High Priestess card, and we find a link as well in this card’s representation of the characteristic feminine strength of intuition. The woman’s blindfold and the sea show a necessity to rely not on immediate stimuli but on deeper thoughts and feelings, that […]

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I attempted last night

by silverlupas
written by silverlupas

I overdosed last night. I thought that I would go peacefully in my sleep, but I woke up with stomach pains, a head ache, and I was vomiting. This all lasted a good three hours before the the worst of ended and I could go back to sleep. I wish that I didn’t wake up, but I know one thing if overdosing is like that I am not going to do it again. I just cannot find the strength to continue, I want to sit in bed all day and sleep. I just do not understand the point of life, we fight to live so […]

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To Just Go

by Anastasia
written by Anastasia

To go, what a pleasent idea. I have no sorrow, no pain, no blame…I think of nothing and no one…I don’t have goodbyes to make. I have no negative thoughts, fears…I just think of leaving this place simply because I’m just about done.

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My Long Story

by recovering_girl
written by recovering_girl

I am 19 years old and I have an eating disorder.
Two weeks ago I was admitted to hospital for an overdose and for self-harm. My normal weight before the eating disorder was 73kgs but now I range between 59-62kg (which is on the brink of unhealthy for my height).
Between the ages of 8-12 I was continuously sexually abused and when I was 12 I was taken from my house by child protective services because of a FALSE allegation against one of the male family members in my family.

Since that night I was forced to live away from home. Luckily I was allowed to […]

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by recovering_girl
written by recovering_girl

I am 19 years old and I have an eating disorder.

 

Two weeks ago I was admitted to hospital for an overdose and for self-harm. My normal weight before the eating disorder was 73kgs but now I range between 59-62kg (which is on the brink of unhealthy for my height).

Between the ages of 8-12 I was continuously sexually abused and when I was 12 I was taken from my house by child protective services because of a FALSE allegation against one of the male family members in my family.

 

Since that night I was forced to live away from home. Luckily I was allowed to lie with […]

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Untitled

by Shadowknite
written by Shadowknite

Done

You say you’re done,
You are going to die.
Life has finished,
No need to say goodbye.

You think it best,
No one will notice.
You forget my word,
You forgot my promise.

I swore I wouldn’t leave,
I’d be here always.
I’d find you someday,
And give you better days.

If you die tonight,
Then my life won’t matter.
I’d end it there,
Since my heart is shattered.

I care for you,
Now and forever.
If you die on that day,
I won’t be held together.

Wait until the day,
When I make your life better.
I bet you then,
What others think won’t matter.

A cut for a cut,
Death for a death.
When you end your life,
I will take my last breath

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by hellblau
written by hellblau

I want to believe in someone, I want to believe in something, I want to believe that I can love again. And one you will love again, one day, you will.

But I can’t.

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