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no feeling… i can’t feel my fingertips… i can’t feel any feelings… all i want to do is die… i wake up every day wanting to do… every minute of the day… i would kill myself if i had the guts to slit my throat…. maybe il suffocate idk
It’s funny how you can feel like your suffocating even on this web site… I migth as well save up my money for a gun.. Maybe I can have some fun after I walk acrosse the stage….Class of 2014!!!!!!…… Do any one know the requirements to buying a gun?
I am currently 16 and i have strughled with depression, suicidal thought since i8th grade. from the time i was 6 yrs old i was treaded like crap by my strp dad and me being the oldest dint help any. i was starting to strugle when i turned 11 i moved i always hped things would get better but i started getting bullied at school. after 6th grade i moved again and got transfered to a new school things were better for a while but then everyone started making fun of me, i ignored them for awhile but then i couldnt do it anymore and […]
May I as how do most of you find away to wake up in the Morring?
So of you are older then me and a want of death do not happen over nigth why do you stay awake and walk with friends and family … Why havent you withdrawn from the world yet or kill your self yet?
Why do you come on web sites lie this when you know what te out come will be?
Any awnser will be good… Personally I have ran out of ideas from keeping my eyes from crying and my breathing to stay stable….all my ideas and tricks that used […]
Man, I don’t even know what I feel right now. I just feel so numb, so lost, so indifferent. I think indifference is even more unbearable than anger or sadness. I just want to feel again. I want things to matter. But nothing ever does. I just want the nothingness that is my existence to end. I need rest. I’m so very tired.
I am 17… And I completely hate my self … I hate the fact that I am black , that that I am female that I am tall…. That my mind is the most perverted thing in the world…. But I am so loney… I am not looking for sex just some one who I dont have to talk to, some one who gets me completely… Who shares the same view point of the world… I have a best friend and others friends but I can’t get my self to actually care about them … If they died today I wouldn’t even care….I had this […]
For the past three months I’ve been a recluse. I was in college, excited about life, happy, and i was in control of my depression. Now I’m too depressed to continue school, scared of the future, want no future, and I just don’t have the will to live. I don’t want to continue life. I’ve been suffering and I’ve tried to manage my depression with medication, therapy, and alternative treatments. I’m honestly willing to electrocute myself to cure my suffering. I spend my days at home playing with my dogs and watching tv. My therapist and psychiatrist are pushing me to get back into the […]
Hi all, I am 17 years of age and is so closet to finishing highschool but I just don’t want to live and I don’t know why. I have been trying hard to find a purpose, or a joy, or anything to destory that want of death , for the three years that this lack of feeling appeared but nothing is working anymore. There is nothing eles I can turly change anymore, when you are six feet two, black female and as realistic as me … You become numb to the illusion of dating of marriage-it’s impossible- but that’s not why I amm depressed […]
I’m going to the er for suicidal thoughts and tendencies and see what happens. Wish me luck.
I have been lurking on this sight for a while. I thought I would post my story. Until about 15 years ago, I had a good life. I had friends, normal ups and downs. I was able to cope with what life handed to me.  I got married and had a very difficult time having a child. It worked out in the end, but husband was abusive, etc. I was lonely. I tried to connect wi other Moms. ±Gradually over time, I ended up with just aquantences  or “group” friends (people invite me to events and parties, but not one on one. It was very […]
Able to do less & less.  Was dx with SCA type 6 in 2002.  Can not take care of myself anymore.  Tired of the struggle.  My  last attempt was very very close.  Obviously not close  enough.
i finally found someone i could be happy with then i lost her, i don’t know if it was my fault or not but all i know is that i got too attached to her and now i feel so dead inside, i’ve been through so much already in the past 19 years such as verbal, physical and mental abuse and now i’m on medication that’s supposed to make me feel better but its only making things worse, i’ve never felt so alone and lost in my entire life like i do now if anybody reads this please help me i don’t know what to […]
Instead of commenting on some posts, I found it easier to put it on a post itself so everyone could see it. If someone is passing through a hard time and needs someone, I’ll be there, and I promise. I’ve already passed through it and I know how hard it is to find someone who actually cares about you and is sincere about that, but I am. So if any of you have trust on someone who can help you, contact me. I’m a female teenager, and you can find me oftenly on Kik Messenger (username: Skullgold) and e-mail: jujumgebara@gmail.com
Thank you.
PS: I hope SP doesn’t […]
i’ve began cutting again .. it seems when the blood runs all my depression washes away with it. the open wound is like my soul beginning to glow shinning bright to destroy all the darkness. But the darkness still lingers, in my mind. Forever trapped, like a maze turning into every dead end. Searching. Looking. Finding my light that brings me out of this horrific nightmare. I feel like my mind has put walls up all around my thinking. I can’t think too much anymore as my brain begins to hurt and spin. The walls only fall down at night when i wish to sleep. […]
The thing I felt in the beginning was the control I had. Finally I found something where I, only I, had the control on. But now, after more than 1 year, I still do that thing, but it doesn’t give me control anymore. Actually I have totally no control on it. But still I’m doing it, because it gives me a good feeling. For a few seconds. Fight after fight, a battle with myself, got no control on it. It’s was the main reason why I was cutting in the begin. But now it’s not the reason anymore, because there’s no control anymore while cutting. […]
I let everyone down. My family, my friends, my partners in class, everyone. I never reach expectations. I tried to kill myself Sunday and couldn’t even do that right. All I’ve done is mess my arm up pretty bad. I’m being admitted to intensive outpatient therapy for three hours a day three times a week for two months, but i doubt it’ll help. I’m tired of talking about being a fuck up. I want someone to help me STOP being a fuck up.
I don’t know what to do I can’t stop shaking and crying and I want to scream and rip myself up and hurt myself and I’m too scared to tell my family or call 911 I don’t know what to do I can’t be alone I’m so scared no jo no no no no please no
Last night I was gonna kill myself. I had everything set up. Â I was actually starting to feel better knowing that I would not have to deal with the day to day suffering. I was not going to say good bye. I was just going to go away. Then I heard my dad telling me good night he told me he loved me. I just started crying I’ve been not letting myself do that. I realized that everyone feels pain. My mom shes depressed too. My brother has to deal with his past. My dad is full of regret. I can’t just go away. I […]
I’m a 21 year old male and i have enough of life trying to punish me.
Over the years i have been the subject of divorces, constantly being physically and verbally abused (both at school and at home), but these last few years have been the hardest. Recently i have broken up from my only relationship i have chosen to be in (3 years ago), been  diagnosed with severe depression,  Avoidance Personality Disorder (AvPD), numerous life-threatening medical conditions, family deaths, and being alone. I now know that being alone is the worst thing that could happen to anyone, however due to my inability to communicate to […]