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as far as i can remember everyday was and is a stuggle for me. I realised i am i highly sensitive individual that just doesnt fit in as SMOOTH as the rest!

Its clear to me now that its just how i was born, its my nature! I am unique and now i can can proudly say i am proud of it! its amazing that out of all ive been through i can honestly say i wouldnt wanna be anyone else. I have been through immense emotional pain. No my mother/father didnt die no i didnt witness a real tragety. I have suffered MILD abuse but […]

Im sitting on my bed. Not knowing what to do. I wish I had some friends to do nice things with. Or just hang out with..

I need contact with the outside world to feel a bit more sane. But I cant get it.

I dont know how you make people to like you. How do people make friends?

I hate being alone all the time. I dont want to be alone.

I dont understand why people make such an effort to keep me here. I mean, if I did it, if I killed myself, life would go on. Maybe they would be a few memories, maybe even some tears. But afterwards everyone would have to get on with their lives and I would become a distance memory. So, surely, the only one which should care about me should be me. I hate myself, so I should go.

I have few friends, I’m awkward, I start talking about something then stop half way through the stories and go silent because I don’t want to talk anymore. When other […]

I miss the bad things
The way you hate me
I miss the screaming
The way that you blame me
Miss the phone calls
When it’s your fault
I miss late nights
Don’t miss you at all

My fucking mother!!!! How can someone be so mean to there own flesh and blood? My mother is sick and twisted in the head. She stopped taking her meds so shes even worse now. She wants to take everything away from me and i just don’t understand why. All i want is to live with Tressa and be happy but she just wont let that happen. Shes told me a million times she doesn’t care about me so why would she care if i lived with her?? And no its not cause i’m her daughter and she wants to have a relationship with me. All […]

I don’t feel like killing myself.

The feeling is so foreign, I’m sitting here dumbfounded.

I don’t know what to do.

I’ve trashed my life with every intent to die.

So, I just sit here.

??

Paranoia is in bloom, The PR, transmissions will resume They’ll try to, push drugs that keep us all dumbed down And hope that, we will never see the truth around (So come on)

Another promise, another seed Another, packaged lie to keep us trapped in greed And all the, green belts wrapped around our minds And endless red tape to keep the truth confined (So come on)

They will not force us They will stop degrading us They will not control us We will be victorious So come on

Interchanging mind control Come let the, revolution takes its toll If you could, flick the switch and open your […]

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LEGACY OF TRAUMA

Biological scars left behind by childhood trauma can increase a person’s risk of suicide later in life.

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When sociologist Mike Tomlinson began combing through the health records of people inNorthern Ireland, he wasn’t interested in suicide. He was on the hunt for links between poverty and international conflict. But he came across a startling trend. From 1998 to 2008, the rate at which men in their mid-30s to mid-50s were committing suicide rose alarmingly fast, more quickly than the rate for the rest ofNorthern Ireland’s population.

At first, that spike made no sense. A peace […]

So if you read or saw my last post I asked for anyone who’s ever been through what I’ve been through help me cope. Now I need a guys help. I told my boyfriend about what happened to me and he became very sad and mad at the fact that I can’t over the event…any guys out there who can explain this to me :/ much love wittleninja

I tried to write last week while I was seriously weighing the option to leave.  I was unable to put sentences together.  Here I am again.

I’m a middle-aged man.  I’ve struggled with social anxiety, depression, substance abuse (five years clean and sober now) and various shades of mania my entire life.  In the last few years, thoughts of suicide have become increasingly common.  What bothers me the most is that I don’t find them to be crazy, insane, or unreasonable thoughts when they are occurring or afterward.  They seem quite calm and, and not being alive appears to be a completely viable option.  That’s the […]

Hello SP and all of its users. I’ve been lurking here for a while and I’ve decided that I should post a brief, succinct paragraph that describes my feelings/situation.  I have no real concrete reason to be suicidal or depressed. I was not abused, bullied, exploited or oppressed as many on this site seem to be. I won’t try to justify my feeling either by pointing out the petty flaws in my life. The only real reason I’ve decided that I feel as hopeless and depressed as I do is simply because I don’t fit in. When I say that I’m not just referring to […]

I feel so alone, abandoned, there’s nobody to help, nobody to tell me everything’s gonna be alright, nobody to catch me whenever I fall, I’m alone,,, left to die.. And right now… I wish I was dead

Saturday I was molested :'( I’ve gotten consultancy of the samaritans but I’m still in need for help. I advised my friends of what happened but they see that I can’t really get over what’s happened. I just want to ask anyone out there for help. If you have ever been molested or violated or raped or harrassed please give me advice on how you coped with the situation. 🙂 much love wittleninja

my boyfriend of 8 years killed hiself 2 years ago. i went into a state of shock,he left our daughter of 3 and me behind, his full family and friends. i have since been so alone. i have my good days which can roll onto weeks but then over thinking turns into overkill and i cant help but think my daughter is better off without me. my family have been put through so much. i am a complete failure. always a worry to my family and when i go down i cant pick myself back up. i cant go back on my meds because im […]

I wish I could get rid of myself.

I wish I could get rid of my f***ing overactive mind… I see no other way than suicide. I’m so tired of desperation…
The only things that have stopped me till now are – who will take care of my cats? and – I don’t want to guilt-trip the people who love me. I just wish I could find a way to simulate an accident.