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I’ve had depression for almost a year now and my life is just falling apart. Over the summer I’ve tried to kill myself 5 times, but can’t even do that right. I have nobody to talk to about how I’m feeling because nobody understands. They’ll just label me and think I’m a freak… People think I have a perfect life because I’m popular at school and always seem happy, but they don’t know that every night I consider killing myself. I’ve been on another depression forum and people keep saying things will get better and to just hold on, BUT IT HASN’T GOTTEN ANY BETTER!!! […]
And harder to get through. I have had that night on my mind since it happened. Scares me. I have many sketches started, but none that I can finish fully. I have put the gun to my head many, many times. Good thing though: I have had the pleasure of some company lately which has helped distract me, and I appreciate it. (you know who you are)
I want to tell myself that I am trying to get through life to get  _______. I am sure I need to know what _______ is before I try to get there. I do not want the end to come so […]
I’m so tired of trying. Every day is the same. This endless depressing cycle keeps repeating itself. I press on, fail, and end up in the same place I started. I’ve tried so hard for the past 9 years. But everyone just see my failures, not what I’ve achieved or how hard it is for me to survive another day. I feel worthless. Empty, defeated, and alone. Everyone is always wanting me to change, to be doing something else, to be somewhere else, to be someone else. It’s frustrating, I’ve changed so many times, I have no idea who I am anymore. And what good […]
I’m in that mood again but it’s different.
I just moved out into a different place,
I couldn’t handle the one place anymore-
And lately I feel like there’s no forward or backwards,
My mind is absolutely feels like it’s a dream.
Last night I cried myself to sleep,
I wanted to cut and than take all the Melatonins so the pain won’t bother,
Don’t know what to do anymore.
I wish it was a dream-
Tell me it’s a dream.
When you are a dead man’s child.. No one will defend you.. No one will give a damn!!
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Ok, Let me first tell you, what prompted me to look up this website today, and vent out my frustration . I’ve been having suicidal thoughts for the past 3 years.
Having been a remarkable student all my life, something happened 3 years ago, that all of a sudden, you can even say, overnight, turned me into a loser! Its not a specific incident or anything, but I’d even move over to the occult and say I’ve been struck by bad luck. My performance academically started dripping, my concentration levels started dwindling, nothing that I wanted, even with all my sincerity and hard work, I got. […]
If death is the last thing you ever experience, then why wouldn’t you want to feel it? Why are people so afraid of pain?
i dont hate people, i understand them. it hurts to understand people.
okay so prozac really isnt doing anything for my severe debilitating anxiety, what else can i try,i need  it asap, icant live in this automatic every day feer an stress its exhausting
I sure fooled them. I took that precious college diploma, that winning personality, those great looks and trashed them all right before their eyes. My brain is jelly from all the pills and “treatment”, I’m about as charming as a corpse, and the scars & torn hair make me look like one too. And soon I’ll just be one of those anonymous suicides that they won’t bother investigating because they have other things to do. If the gang could see me now.
I never understood how people felt better after self harming themselves. I didn’t understand how pain could make one feel better. Even though I’ve been so depressed I always told myself I would never hurt myself.
Lately I’ve felt on edge, and just an hour ago I couldn’t take it. Whenever I feel like I can’t take anymore, I imagine myself running away or scratching/ripping my face off. I will usually end up scratching my face a bit but today I felt like I was going absolutley crazy just keeping all this in and none of it getting better. I started pulling my hair and violently scratching […]
Ok, so i don’t like eating. AT ALL. I haven’t eaten in about four days, but even though my stomach feels empty i keep telling myself i am full, like when you eat too much your stomach feels stuffed. I want to be able to eat but i cant bring myself to do so because it just makes me feel disgusted with myself. My friends are beginning to think i am anorexic, and other people as well. but they are not understanding that i am simply not hungry, or rather that i just do not feel like i have the need to do so. […]
The day I’ve been waiting for is almost here. My method of release is almost on my doorstep and the pain and depression will disappear! ECT didn’t work, group sessions didn’t work. My previous 2 suicide attempts didn’t work. Both my hospitalizations didn’t work. The time is now. I’m so happy and nervous at the same time because I know for certain this time, I’m surely going to die.
As part of my behavior intervention plan it was decided that i shouldnt come on here as often.My plan for death after the family trip is still in motion.Im aware that i could die but its to late to stop cause everything has all been planned out.And for me i dont stop when ive decided to do something.Theres no turning back.Its sad cause my mom said today that ive changed and grown a lot.I agree with her in all ways except one and that is im still sad.Just this general doom and gloom about everything.I cant even call my friend from the hospital cause im […]
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I just cut myself for the very first time, I had been thinking of doing this for a while but never did. Tonight it all was too much and I did it and it was AMAZING, the feeling of the reason on my skin and the slight burning sensation as it broke it apart. The little blood that came out was like the reward for a good job and I can’t wait to do so again.
I’ve completely ruined my life. Â But I don’t think I ever had one.
Things started spiriling out of control earlier this summer when I quit my job. I’ve been doing contract software development at home for years. It’s a life of sad isolation. I sit in my den and type away for days straight. The job was just going bad, I was losing interest and my boss new it. He pushed me and I snapped. It was sad, because when it started it seemed like there would be so much potential.
Anyway, something happened afterwards that made me realize I didn’t want to be a programmer anymore. […]