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My mind was unrelenting last night. I couldn’t stop thinking about her no matter how hard I tried. Based on the past couple of days, I know we can be happy together now. I know that all of our problems are gone and we can be the couple that she always wanted. I told her it would take time, but now the time has come. And she doesn’t want to see how much I truly love her. The pain just kept building last night until I was back to wanting death more than anything. I know it’s going to keep happening and yet I look […]

Anyone know how to post pics from the ipod?!

After many years of trying to deal with depression on my own, I realized that enough was enough and  had to seek help before it ruins my life for good. I visited a doctor this morning, who has put me on medication and pointed me towards a councillor. I’ve been using alcohol and excessive gaming to get away from life and its demands and to shield myself from my depression, for too long. Im a talented musician, have friends and when Im in any sort of good mood, im okey to be around but the important things in my life have been suffering.

I have suffered […]

the walking dead

I’m all ready to go. My two helium tanks are connected. Exit bag is ready. Notesready written. I want this but I’m so worried it won’t work. Just staring at the tanks now….

oopps forgot a line,

True my poem lacked some class,
But stick Effexor up your arse….

Stretch my neck, slit my wrist,
I need a new Pshyciatrist,
Prod my mind, push and pull,
Then charge me like a wounded bull,
In your office, i must slouch,
Cuz you ain’t got no fuckin couch,
Treat us like we’re all just dills,
Pump us up on more damn pills,
My next appointment, i’ll avoid,
You ain’t no fuckin Zigmund Freud…

She’ll paint a lovely picture

But this story has a twist

Her paint brush is a razor

Her canvas is her wrist

I think I’ll draw the same picture

The picture with a twist

I’ll draw mine with a blade

I’ll draw mine on my wrist

” you gotta curb the self loathing that you’re getting from smoking weed. people from all walks of life have been smoking weed since we mastered the use of fire. how do you think our brains evolved so much further than the rest of the beasts on this rock? hippy cavemen that experimented with psychedelics of course lol in all seriousness though, why do you see smoking marijuana in such a negative light? i know that society has deemed it wrong but where’s the logic in caring about societys opinion when you yourself are so fucking depressed and suicidal? i pity the people on […]

I feel like if I die, not enough people will get the chance to get to know me and see how attractive I am. What does this make me?

Hi just wondering has anyone else ever read about Silverbirch Teachings on humanity and found it helpful about life’s big questions, that pester us….. ?

Every year around this time I buy a bouquet of gerber daisies and one rose. I leave it on my best friend’s mother’s doorstep, but never ring the doorbell. It’s been 4 years since my friend killed herself. The guilt still tears me up inside. So when I walk to the place where she is buried, I write her a note and leave it next to her headstone. This year’s was different than the rest. It read “It should have been me. Maybe I should just join you so you’re no longer alone.”

IT DOESNT MATTER NOW.

Lost forever.

Gone for always,

I’m already gone.

Too late for sorry s.

i’ve been depressed since i was 14, that was 8 years ago….im surprised i made it this far. when i was 15 i was just starting to get happy again and then i caught my brother spying through the crack under my bedroom door while i was undressed. for the next little bit that was the worst id ever been. i know its not as bad as other ppls stories but i was terrified of being raped by him every time i dressed, showed, or went to sleep everyday for the next 5 years until he moved out. i was already a little messed up […]