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thought they might make sumone smile i think animals are the closest thing to perfection, they just are what they are. blackones lucy, other one is branston. i might put a picture of the one with 3 legs tommorow.

One song can change my point of view about life completely. I may be completely down and helpless. I’ll listen to “Tinie Tempah – Invincible”. And I’ll suddenly have a rush of hope. When I’m in a good mood, I’ll listen to “Rihanna – Cry” for example and I’ll feel down and helpless again. I guess there’s a hidden feeling behind certain songs …

I really hope I don’t bsck out… I’ll be pissed if I wake up in my bed tomorrow…

“Everything’s gonna be okay”, I soothe myself.

I calm myself down

Say I just have to give it time

I convince myself that all scars heal

I wipe away a teardrop

It’s a black teardrop

I think that I’ve lost hope

I don’t know yet

I say it’s okay

“Tomorrow will be better” I tell myself

Only this time,

I choose not to believe my lies anymore

I choose not to get back up, for now

I feel tackled

I feel cold

I feel defeated

As I watch my black tear drops fall

thats how my life feels like. im dangling off a cliff with one hand barely holding on…i can hardly push myself back up. sooner or later im letting go.

I posted on here a while ago. Thing’s have gotten worse. My doctor has basically told me nothing can be done to help me. I have major treatment resistant depression. I have had it for over 10 years. My doctor suggested i come off all medication as it is not helping me. I am going through the worst withdrawls and he doesn’t care. He wont help me unless i see him again and pay him a ridiculous amount of money. I only saw him fairly recently and am only due to see him in 3 weeks. He refuses to talk to me on the phone. […]

okay so i think it started when i was in kindergarden. i didnt talk, at all. i knew how to and understood everything but i was just toooo embarrassed to. i was able to talk to some people one on one but never in a group. all i really did was nod, shrug or point. i got ovr it when i started high school, i was teased a lot and people would say im mute. it really took a toll in school, i wsnt able to do group projects or presentations or anything that involved talking to people. people ask me why and i honestly […]

Has anyone ever seen @suicide room I feel like it reminds me of the people here a little actualy its what got me here and I’m glad it did this site has already started helping me it’s nice to finally let something out to someone who understands. I would recommend this movie to almos everyone here :/

I am not suicidal. Well, I haven’t been for a while anyway. Lately I have actually been enjoying my life for the most part. I’m dirt poor but I have a girlfriend whom I love and we’re working on just improving our quality of life. So that’s nice.

However, While I am not suicidal, I do have an almost constant anxiety waiting for something to end. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to be waiting for though. I know it isn’t my life. I know a lot of people look at suicide as a path towards relief, but it doesn’t look that way to me.

If I […]

I just got here! Sitting un the ER now… Lord help me! I need this gone… I want to be happen

P.s. If i can do this… Any of you can too!

I think I’m addicted to pain (mental not physical) that is possible isn’t it like to really have withdraws from not being in pain its like Im addicted to a drug it is a chemical in ur brain it seams to me that it would be highly addictive any emotion that is not accompanied by another would be extremely addictive

I can’t deal with it anymore, I just want at least 1 good day just 1 day where I don’t cry, don’t feel the urge to cut and don’t wish I could end it all. Yet again I’ve not left the house, I’ve just sat around all day playing with my razor and realising that I can’t do this anymore. The pain in my knee is so excruciating an no matter how many pills I pop the pain won’t go away. I’m just so sick and tired of being alone and not have anybody to be there or to just talk to. I’ve not left […]

., can’t do it

I wish i could say that i’ve reached my happy ending. I really do.

But no. The depression is as deep as ever and there is a 50/50 chance that i will still be here next week.

I’m no longer with that long distance boyfriend… And now i have some annoying freak telling me that he loves me, when he doesn’t even know me.

This world is fucking strange and i would rather not be a part of it anymore.

Fuck you, Daniel. Fuck you.

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i come home from the pool, i walk in the house and my sister is already waiting she pulls me by my arm to my room and slams the door behind me. pushes on me looks dead in the eye and says through clenched teeth”***** i hate u, ur ugly, u r weird, what u need to do is take a gun to ur head and pull the trigger. i will be so happy when ur dead. its what all of us want u know thats true. so tonight either i take a sharp knife and slit your throat or u do it with a […]

i am 16 years old , i have been sexually abused by my elder brother for the past 6 years..everytime i would go to sleep he would touch me where hes not supposed to and now hes stopped but i go to sleep completely covering myself i can;t let people touch me or else i end up screaming i used to get bullied really badly and i hated that my mom used to be in depression so she would scream at me for no reason she calls me fat ugly worthless once she even said that she wished i would just die because i was […]

some know me – others do not … many think i’m funny or smart or wise and others think i’m a meddling old lecherous fool … but I think most would say that i at least try to stay positive at all costs and that i try to be helpful – whether i am or not.

but – today i’m in pain – real, physical pain – i have it every day – some days bad some days not so much … but today – seem particularly bad – don’t know why – but it is – literally breathtakingly bad.

the point to this is nothing really other than […]