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i hate her. so much. she is so mean! its hard to explain, how cruel and twisted she is. she claims how much she wants me in pain..if better she wants me dead. WHY? i have always wanted a sister. to laugh and hang out with. i respect her i deserve her to respect me too. nope i got a ***** instead. now its manipulative, she wants to see pain in others. i cant even stop thinking of how fucked she is. god. my sister, if i dont watch her eat, watch tv, listen to her, if i dont do HER chores. i will pay […]

So I wrote this for my friend, and the title is actually her name so I’m not going to say it

SMILE, not because you have to
But because you want to
CRY, not because you’re weak
But because you’re strong enough to let it out
KEEP GOING, not because they’re watching
But because we’re cheering for you
LOVE, not […]

I woke up wanting to cut. -.- I miss you dim nights, razor, hoodie… I miss my ipod, when I could text all night… Being able to text at any hour, all night sometimes, it kept me alive… helped hold back panic attacks… I miss cutting, I miss having my music/people I trust there anytime I needed them -.- I almost did cut ths morning and I still want to but… I’m not going to… damn…

Hi, I have just been left by my only one love,

I feel so bad because I lived for her, for her smile…Everithing I did, I did for her, for us.

And now she left me…I don’t know why, I only know the se was and is all my entire life, the best thing that I ever had.

I hate the feelings I have now…

I need her…

Sorry for my english…I am italian

Have you guys ever had your so called friends and family who you always try to help and who tell you they’ll always be there for you and help you, all you have to do is tell them only to shy away, expect something or insult you when you bring something? How do you deal with them? Like not all my friends and family like this, but the ones that are just lower my trust and self worth even more and making me feel terrible and awkward about telling the ones who actually care. It never use to bug me, but recently it has really […]

i go to sleep around 6am every day, i wake back up at 10am. my anxiety is so bad i can never sleep anymore, i hate it. today i woke up sick, throwing up over and over again. i wonder what it would be like to just throw up tons of blood and eventually organs. (probably not possible btw) im not actually sick, just sick of myself. so bad my stomach cant handle anything. i havnt been able to stand all day. i keep trying to eat but nothing helps\: why cant anything ever work out?

Over the past years Ive passed trough many deceptions in life, and passed trough a slowly deteriorating medical condition that to this date has no cure, because of collateral damage from Dengue, transmited by mosquito and common in tropical zones. Why did I had to have the complications I’ve no Idea, and I consider it un fair, specially when I’ve seen people die from cancer, people having Zeizures allmoust daily when I was being treated in the hospital, and allways living in fear that other people could get me sick. My condition is a mix of a lot of mineral deficiencies and damage to the […]

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The Lion King

The story of Disney’s the Lion King is all about how Simba grows up on […]

I was just like any other girl in school.. I had my friends, did everything i was told, had a perfectly normal life. Then I started going through a lot of issues, I still don’t know if they were real or if they were all in my fucked up head.
After I started going on some blogs, after I watched a few movies and read a few books, I saw that some people felt more relieved from their problems after they cut themselves. So i decided to give it a try. I still ask myself why, everyday, I decided to give this shitty and […]

You push someone away and they don’t often push back.. Even someone who does will eventually stop trying. This is something I have learned about people, and do whenever someone gets close. How do I stop pushing? I broke down and cried when my friend asked what was wrong.. I had never done that before. I talked and he offered to listen.. then push, leave me alone. Time to lock up, shut up, because it will all come back to bite anyways.. Well it did, but I guess that was my fault too.. How do you expect someone to react when you say.. “I […]

yup, my family makes it clear im not wanted. they hurt me so much. my dads threats of beating me (though he has never acted on it) my moms assuming, she never lets me finish what i have to say she always expect the worst when it comes to me my sister verbally and physically abusive. THANK YOU family, i know im not wanted….u made it obvious. hope u will be happy when i off myself..whenever that day may be.

And please, be completely honest about it:

If you just had the most amazing sex ever, with a person you love,
would you still be suicidal?

A few thoughts about it would also be appreciated.

So I’m 33, got a misdemeanor battery conviction in 01, started working in medicine in 08, and places won’t hire me due to the record. I let someone take me away from my homeostasis in 06 and it’s just been down hill since then. I used to be afraid to commit suicide due to the Bible’s rules, but I think God would understand.

No one speaks my language for a 20 mile radius, my work abuses me because of the battery conviction, and I overall am just tired of it all. What’s left now? I live in solitary confinement 4 days a week. […]

Here I am, sitting by a lake, with nothing but the moonlight, the Frey’s “You found me,” and my blade… I’ve always been the one to reach out to help others, but came to realize the favor will never be returned. Ive managed to cope as best I could, but Im afraid minor scars dont do the trick anymore. Even as I am writing this – perhaps BECAUSE I am writing this- I am fighting. Fighting with every breath I take not to let the blade glide across my veins and leave me to slowly fall unconsious, while all memories written in scarlet, […]

Keep in mind through this whole thing i am not trying to brag. So i hate how everyone at my school thinks that being rich solves all your problems well it doesnt.i know because my family is rich like we own a plane ( not bragging ) and look what happened to me.and i hate how i get tons of random supposed friends who the second i dont give money to them they go back to treating me like a nobody. I just sometimes wish we were poor… sorry this is a pretty random post but its what was on my mind