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Why is it that when anything bad happens to me the first thought that comes to my head is killing myself. No matter what I do I feel useless and in the way. Or that I’m putting some weight on someone to help me. I just want to close the door to that past, but everytime I try to do that I end up cutting off from everyone in my life. I don’t know if I do it so if I break down they don’t see what I’m going through and try to help me. Which in turn would cause me to open that door […]
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m a 15 year old boy, a straight A student who just finished freshman year at a relatively good school. I am a decent track and cross country athlete, and my family loves me very much. Yet, I still constantly feel alone and useless.
I don’t quite understand people. I see people I know having fun, hanging out, and I don’t know, I can’t seem to find myself normal friends. There are plenty of people I talk to (about once a week each, about serious shit usually). I don’t know how “suicide attempt” is defined on this site, but […]
I’m the problem and I am fucking permanent unless i kill myself!
Do you ever watch shows where the police try to solve murders, but instead of wanting to be the police you imagine yourself as the murder victim
Among your greater sorrows let’s still take a minute to mourn yet another significant loss of freedom for me
written by The Absurdist
Welp, I “finally” start working on Monday, which is quite frankly an unmitigated disaster. Not only I’ll be alone and hopeless as usual but robbed of about 80 % of my time for the sake of stupefying grinding slavery.
Because life always does get better doesn’t it? Can’t even do anything “drastic” for a quite while, honor bound to certain parameters and whatnot. So the trap is truly and well closed.
Let’s have a toast to a life of ever increasing resignation and small everyday horrors.
Dear office dweller,
Perhaps you like your job? Or even love it?
Perhaps you don’t mind doing it for forty or fifty […]
I honestly haven’t post on this website in months. o 3o Hi old and new people and if any case i am still suicidal and it has increase to the point where i have thoughts about me hanging myself. Sounds amazing right. c:
I, am a suicide survivor. I know not everyone will believe my story, like I know, but I do ask you to listen to me. I was there.
On a late winter night (seven years ago) I found myself homeless. After SEVERAL suicide “attempts’ (not too too serious ones) I made up my mind, that this was it. I was Agnostic/Atheist. I wasn’t sure what I believed, yet. I later that night found myself living with a group of drug addicts, not very pleasant. So, I took my razor from my wallet and sliced into my arm, repeatedly. I ate only handfuls of aspirin, and one […]
So many times i’ve felt like giving up on life, im only 14 and already i guess i’ve been through alot more then any other 14 year old.I was a victim of severe bullying and having that happen straight after i was cheated on was to much for me.  Its the fact that anything sharp was the first thing i’d turn to scares me, i’ve atempted suicide twice now but everytime i try i just stop, i can’t do it knowing now that i actually have friends that care about me also my parents. What would they think? I have scars all up my arm and some […]
yeah thanks mom and dad for screwing my dream of being a model. yeah i knew it was unlikely anyway but u criticize me for taking pictures of myself thinking im doing all of it for attention FUCK NO! yes i know i may be beautiful but im no size 4 u still have no right to flat out say “honey, your just not skinny enough they will destroy u put u on a diet to lose weight i dont want u to become obsessed with size look at me dear im fat and can careless u should do the same” u have gotta […]
I am over 50 years old. I’ve thought about suicide since I was 13. I have made attempts to end my life more than a couple times. The thoughts, planning, and so on have been so much a part of my mentality, I believe it has become a bad habit, habitual though process. The last stint of actively engaging in therapy my goal was to get new thoughts. I’ve tried. Truly I have tried to get along in the land of the living. When I make an attempt to interact / communicate with my loved ones, I continue to fall short – and immediately go […]
I am not the only one. There are others, multiple hordes, some of whom are people I know, people I even see regularly. Though I am slowly emerging into admitting my illness, they must do so too. Until this happens we are all alone here and we are dead.
There are no similes and there are no metaphors; everything can only be explained and delineated in exact terms. There are continual pressures applied from other people, wherever I turn. I try to escape, yet someone inevitably & invariably lurks around the next mental vista. There is truly nowhere to go when the thoughts inside your head […]
The Minute I wake up I cry because I am so sick and tired of my life and how it has been lived. I wonder what I have done wrong in my life. You know I know that i am not perfect I never have claimed to me and I know for sure I will never claim the perfection of someone…. I am not flawless like others. When i look in the mirror I stare and cry some more because I am not that pretty skinny girl every one would love to be with..
I am not perfection because I have been through so much bullshit […]
im just writing down my lifestory shortly and i wont go into details.
i grew up on a farm. well i lived on a farm for 14 years. my dad used to force me to watch him kill sheep’s for dinner. he wanted me to learn how to shoot them in a painless way. the first time i watched wasn’t that bad. it went quick. it died in a split second. the second time. a year or a half later my dad got drunk. really drunk and dragged me into the barn and shot a sheep and yelled that i had to learn this by now. […]
My mother tuts and scolds me when I say things like how I think she and the rest of the family would have been better off without me, but I think I’m right. I’ve been a financial and emotional burden for most of my life, and now I suppose it’s mostly financial, but what does it matter.
My mom’s boyfriend flipped out on me a couple nights ago, what triggered it is still kind of a mystery, but apparently he had a real bone to pick because he screamed abuse at me for the better part of an hour. It wouldn’t bother me if none of […]
yes its clear. there is no explanation to life. if so what is it?
While I”m at work, the grocery store or anyplace else there are people and some part of someones skin touches some part of my skin, I notice. It doesn’t happen very often. I will go months without ever coming into physical contact with another human being. When it does happen, like when a cashier hands me back change and their fingers slide against mine for a fraction of a second, I get goose bumps. I have to steel myself and look away so I don’t start crying. The memory of the contact will stay on my skin for hours. […]
Whenever I read about suicide, including on this site, there is usually a page that tries to talk others out of suicide. Of course, I understand that suicide can be really traumatic for the deceased person’s loved ones. But that argument assumes that a person has close relations with family and friends. If you do not (and some of us don’t) then your passing won’t be deeply felt by anyone.
Secondly, if you have family and friends and you are suffering and you reach out to them and they do nothing, then you’ve done your job. You’ve made others aware of how you feel and they […]
WHY?
That’s the only question I have for you.
WHY DID YOU DO THIS?
I can’t keep doing this, I don’t understand. Why would you make humans capable of love? It’s a horrid, horrid emotion? I don’t understand what we did to deserve this kind of cruel and unusual punishment. You made us in your own image, right? What, did you just have so much love in your heart that you had to give each and every one of us a bit of it, so that we could feel the pain you’ve felt in having to give up so much for us? Well, I’ll tell you one thing, […]
I have put all my affairs in order, and written the letters. I have 200 cocodamol a litre of vodka and my sleeping pills. I am sorry that i have to do this but i have no option. My life means nothing anymore, only god can help me now. This is not a cry for help believe me i have had help ut all they do is try and put things in boxes, or its time to let go. I have had enough of all that my soon to be ex will one day realize just how much i loved her, i am not doing […]