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mhm high again like everynight mhm thinking about my good moments . see ? thats why i get high! to be happy !  i think of the good moments and i laughe alone … then the next morning i get high again to be happy. thats hoow liffe works for me … cuase when im not high, all the bad comments my familly tell me hurt me.  sad truth ?  anyways … im like everyone here… whirting about my dark side waiting for someone to tel me theyre proud of me
I tried to be happy I really did. it worked for maybe like a month but now I’m right back where I was before comfortable in sadness. I guess since I felt it so much I’ve started to like it happiness is so temporary sadness can be forever…. and I think it will for me I’m socially awkward and not worth remembering I’m the true definition of dust in the wind haha it’ll get better though right? yeah right
I’m looking at all your stories and they sound horrible. half of you are sick and the other half gets bullied. But, well i get a different kind of bullied. Im too scared to go back to my own house after school because my mum told me to die. She said she wouldnt care if i did suicide. That no one would. I’m starting to believe her. She yells at me 24/7, hits me and pushes me. And I just think that if your own family even wants you dead, maybe I should make them happy and just do it?
Hey guyss! ive got something to tell you guys !!! 😀 you knoww true friends?? well i had one! she was called  Maude! one day she went to the princaple to tell on someone which was great because that dude was annoying everyone.. ANnyways!! when she told off him, some people started to hate maude and wanted to beat her up like hardcore! but i stood up for her! cause she was MY BEST FRIEND the girl that knew all my secrets and that was there or me to listen to me! i thought she wass a good friend.. i stood up for her while […]
Im scared to see what I’ve become to I distract myself. Amakua made me realize this.
I’d tell people my problems on how I’d cut and puke so they could distract me… But really these people didn’t give a shit about my problems…..
I look in the mirror and see the person I let everyone else see. But I don’t see me. Why can’t I see myself??
-Morgan….RawrImaTurtle….!…..
It’s been a while since I’ve posted on here. I keep on forgeting about it. Well, I guess I just wanted to say that I’m tired of being judged and that I’m done living. I’m to ugly and my boobs arnt big enough, is what they tell me. Well, that won’t matter anymore when I’m dead. I guess I’ll get out of they way for you guys.
I’m finally going to be free. So, bye.
Check out my blog of journal entries threw my struggles with depression anxiety along with heroin addiction to try and stop the pain. I keep my journal raw and for all to see . No one in this forum is alone !!
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i attempted offing myself about a 2 weeks ago….ive just been to damn ashamed to say anything….what is this….attempt 12…..13maybe?? i think ive gotten to the point where im just used to the failure. The pills only made me spaz thru the night. i kinda get a kick out of how cruel God is. it surprises me tht i can still have a relationship with God, no matter how one sided it is…..i begg and pray, and he just looks on. i swear my pain and eternal torment is his entertainment! Atleast Death holds me in the night. tho its not time for me to […]
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Hello ime 19 find myself constantly sucidle or deppresed idk why evean when i try geting up in the morning i feel depresed i have already attempted to end my life 2 times although i seem to be more so depresed at night for sum reason i never cry apart from when i think about my feeling my eyes seem to instaly water up when i do . i have already tryed to kill myself 2 times and i cant say that i left a note or anything idk why i think its probley because it shows signs of regret and i don’t realy regret […]
My mother would lock me in my room until the weekend was up and I could go back to my dads.
My dad is an alcoholic. Spanks would turn into hits. Hits turn into a bloody nose. A bloody nose would turn into a kick.
I moved in with my step grandparents. They basically raised me. I would play with a neighbor there. Her brother molested me. I would close my eyes while his fingers went in me. I can still hear his breathing. This went on for years. Over and over.
I went back to my dad and his new wife. She was exactly […]
Okay so this week has actually been good so i guess theres no need for me to go back into the hospital
Ive been 10 months clean from cutting… I don’t think I can hold that anymore… i might start with zero by tonight…
I know, only I can make my life better. I know that just wishing and whining will accomplish nothing.
But how is it so hard to actually live by that knowledge, to put it to a good use?
I have always been really shy. People have told me “it’s just a phase” “you’ll grow out of it” and other similar things.
Well, I haven’t. Actually it’s just getting worse as I age. At least in high-school I talked quite lot. Now I spend most of my time crying alone in my apartment.
“So? go out and socialize!” Another thing that people had said to me earlier.
I..I can’t. I have […]
I tried to make it until Australia. Just not meant to be.
I have no other words. There’s nothing left to say.
my heart still hurts so much! I’m in so much pain it feels like I’m screening and no body even cares, no body hears me.
I’ve been cutting again… And doing other forms of self harm. Like banging my hand against the bath tub repetedly stull it turns read. Or hitting myself in the head till I get a headache.
I’ve also been puking again (I’m bulimic) when I’m done my body trembles and I like it… The feeling makes me feel good..
I need a hug…. But it can’t be from just anyone. I want a hug! I haven’t hug someone in forever.
I still […]
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Raise a little hell , raise a little hell, raise a little hell!
Raise a little hell , raise a little hell, raise a little hell!
Raise a little hell , raise a little hell, raise a little hell!
If you dont like what you got, why dont you change it?
If your world is all screwed up, then rearrange it?
Raise a little hell , raise a little hell, raise a little hell!
Raise a little hell , raise a little hell, raise a little hell!
If you dont like what you see, why […]
I will honestly fight for you. I will always be here for you. I will help you get better because I love you. You just have to fight with me. Fight to get better. I want you to realize , your beautiful. Your amazing. You shouldn’t care what people say. People just are dumb. No offense to them but have they seen you. You don’t even understand how much I would fight for you. and I am NOT a fighter. You know that. I want you to believe in yourself because you have a lot ahead of you. A good future. Who cares if you don’t know […]
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I’m 15 turning 16 this year, I think iv had deppression for a while but i covered it up by smoking about a Gram of pot a day for a couple of months, I cut myself alot, and all i can think about is jumping off a building in the city. pretty much the only reason im still alive is my best freind. I know that eventually Im probably going to jump. i know it will hurt my family alot but, I just know im not strong enough to have a happy life anymore. I’m also attracted to death, no feelings of guilt, shame or […]
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