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attempt #10: FAIL!!!!

by LunaSorrow 1/15/2012

written by LunaSorrow

WHY AM I SUCH A FAILURE?!!!
i took a total of 18 painkillers, 7 ALIVE, 5 midol, and like 10 other types of pills and im still here! i didnt even have to go to the damn hospital!!
everytime i fail it just makes me hate myself even more. it makes me cut deeper and longer, and not even tht works!
why does my dear lover Death elude me?! why does he not want me to join him in a world we can spend forever in? i would be doing the world a huge frippin favor if i left!….whats keeping me here….and why?

1/15/2012 3 comments

Looking for someone to talk to

by SuicideNancy 1/15/2012

written by SuicideNancy

Hi,

Â I’m looking for someone to talk to about depression and suical thoughts. I’m very compassionate, caring and supportive. I believe we all need someone to listen to us and to talk toÂ about our miserable lives. I’m a good listener. No thanks to anyone religious, I’m not. No one bipoar because they have manic stages and no longer care about a depressed person. I’ve learned that lesson the hard way. No one married with children because it will just remind me I have no family of my own. I’ve attempted suicide many times and, obviously, am a failure at that just like in all aspects of […]

1/15/2012 14 comments

The life In a Houston niqqa.

by lifeishorrible 1/15/2012

written by lifeishorrible

So I ran away yesterday only to come back three hours later.I ran away because my sorry excuse for a dad or as I say “that quy”wanted to fuck my mom and wow when I heard him tryna qet some It brouqht some horrible memories as a child hearinq that.It really toke a huqe toll In my life.Oh and I was molested when I was little so whenever I qet intimite with a qirl the memories of beinq touched comes back and sometimes I can’t qo threw ItÂ and end up lookinq like a little ***** In the eyes of the qirls.To be honest,I’d rather had […]

1/15/2012 1 comment

I’m still sane. Told my cousin the truth

by RogueShadow1281 1/15/2012

written by RogueShadow1281

Im still sane.
I told my cousin how I’m in love with her and that I think about her all the time, told her my dream where I ask her out which to me shows this love isn’t a horny attempt for a teenager to get laid with his hot cousin.

I believe sometimes that my love for her iss an ill attempt to find love again after being heartbroken by Nycolle. My love is real and not some incest bound love, because if she were anyone else i would fall for her either way. I wish to exchange a kiss so badly and hopefully […]

1/15/2012 4 comments

help…?

by blackwindowsofpaint. 1/15/2012

written by blackwindowsofpaint.

i cant do it anymore, no one around me knows how i feel inside, how shit i feel all the time, they pick on me for every smoke i have, but they dont know i cant stop, they try to get me to stay here, but i cant i have to leave, they dont know that im crying at night, or wearing long sleeves to cover my stupid dunken attention seeking release, im not sure how to be happy, or i ever have, i need help, but i dont know how to get it, i want to overdose, to be put in hospital, but i […]

1/15/2012 5 comments

Well…

by vincent 1/15/2012

written by vincent

Well, I’ve lost my mind. I don’t have a bad life, it’s the way i look. I’ve had to deal with blepharitis in my eyes, it doesn’t look appealing. my teeth arn’t great, but i get braces next month. But what’s really getting me down is my longer than average neck. it just looks so long and stupid and I just can’t take it. I hate the way i look, i hate the person I am.

I’m 16, i’m trying my best to work on my appearance so it doesn’t look as long. but, life is to hard. The only thing stopping me from killing myself […]

1/15/2012 5 comments

Drunk and Heartless

by Roaming_Soul 1/15/2012

written by Roaming_Soul

Was drunk out of my mind last night…it was another one of my cowardly acts to try and escape reality for a couple of hours.

But I can’t get away from the thought of suicide. In a drunken state I decided to open up to a really good friend, I just dumped everything on her. She is the only person that knows Im suicidal.

I feel so guilty for dumping all my problems on her. She doesn’t deserve it. I didn’t mean to make her cry. I didn’t mean to cry. why was I so heartless?

I’m so stupid!! I don’t want her to feel guilty when […]

1/15/2012 2 comments

Thought process

by waitingtodie 1/15/2012

written by waitingtodie

Hey all 🙂

ok so im not going to go into some long story about how i ended up here but iv been through a few threads and have similar experiances to some on this site, basically my illness is anxiety and depression (depression resulting from the anxiety). My questions is for everyone who has made a FINAL decision to end there life (without a doubt) no cries for help BS etc. Personally i believe no one wants to die and suicide is a choice between the lesser of 2 evils. 1. Living in misery / pain (terminal illness) or faceing oblivion with the possibility of […]

1/15/2012 11 comments

Wasted

by longtimegone 1/15/2012

written by longtimegone

So much potential, wasted. So much. In me, in you, in all of us. We are capable of so much, but life just keeps getting in the way, people keep trying to stop us, all I want is to do something worthwhile in my life before I cut it short but nobody gives me the opportunity, I have spent the last few weeks just devouring math and physics books because it makes me fill like I’m worth something, perhaps it’s a new addiction to replace the cutting and burning and oxy and cigs but just like all those other things it doesn’t feel the emptiness […]

1/15/2012 4 comments

I don’t belong here.

by justawhisper 1/15/2012

written by justawhisper

A couple of years ago I was a completely normal person. I was happier and my life seemed normal. I laughed a lot and I loved my family. I concentrated on them, because they were my life. Years passed, and things have gotten progressively worse. I’ve always had depression looming over me, but never this dark. I’ve always had anxiety, but never this painful. I’ve always been afraid of the outside world, but never this bad. Now, I am looking up ways to kill myself. And I have no where to turn.

I am a 21 year old with nothing going for her. If you knew […]

1/15/2012 7 comments

if there was a god, i’d have killed myself already

by Evariste 1/15/2012

written by Evariste

maybe–

but my girlfriend got me a souvenir. and herself edible vanilla body shimmer. her eyes are so beautiful when I stare into them–

i can’t kill myself when she does that–

but oh the dysphoria…the horrifying circles when I close my eyes; my favorite songs now haunting beasts– how can I deal with that?

1/15/2012 3 comments

The face I see in the mirror says I`m not her

by blankgirl 1/15/2012

written by blankgirl

1/15/2012 2 comments

Being pretty, not me

by blankgirl 1/15/2012

written by blankgirl

1/15/2012 1 comment

I just suck at everything…

by blankgirl 1/15/2012

written by blankgirl

1/15/2012 1 comment

too young to die yet too tired to continue

by blankgirl 1/15/2012

written by blankgirl

All the people that know me think that I have a “good life” . Yes, I do have the “good life” yet I feel so unhappy and guilty living it. The parents who love me and who provide everything as much as they can andÂ little brother I adore the most, even with them I feel somehow hopeless. I pity them. I pityÂ myself even more.Â Theres nothing to badmouth about my life, I`m considered to be the luckiest kid because my parents dont do drugs, there is Â roof over my head and food in my plate, good school, good clothes etc.

The friends who are not in […]

1/15/2012 3 comments

if it wasnt for my mom i would have died:c

by drift_along 1/14/2012

written by drift_along

1/14/2012 7 comments

Smoking

by Ashley444 1/14/2012

written by Ashley444

I have kind of an odd question.

First, let me preface that question with a little information. I have smoked on and off for the last three years. For the last year or so, it’s mostly been on. The reason I started was because I figured that it could replace some of my less-than-desirable hobbies (ie, cutting and burning myself). And surprisingly, it worked. That’s not to say I don’t still harm myself, but it’s definitely less often then before. I think it may be the combination of the calming effects of smoking and the fact that it is just a different (albiet long-term) means of […]

1/14/2012 6 comments

Dawg…Lon3….Ama and who ever else so we don’t steal someone else’s post

by mwtele 1/14/2012

written by mwtele

Lets just chat…..

1/14/2012 746 comments

by period 1/14/2012

written by period

On good days she feeds you with crumbs. You are irrelevant. You are only the host that carries the attention that she craves. She smiles at the ease with which you’ve flayed yourself open for her to take. She tosses you scraps of your own ignorance. The trail of hope Â that keeps you coming back. She’ll peck until there is no more. You give because you know that if you stop, she will stop. She has no capacity to love. You have too much. You can only speak of the darkness in cliches. Your screams to God tearing through the sky like unholy devastation. Finding […]

1/14/2012 1 comment

She creeps up like a spider, and wants you deep inside her, She turns you into stone, A twisted little show….

by Nat.... 1/14/2012

written by Nat....

Sorry for the explicit title…..

but that basically sums it up, last year i got into ‘Sexting’ which is gross, i know. i was pressured into by a guy who i thought was a friend, and after a while i started to fall for him, i loved it when he messaged me first and we once even stayedÂ up until five in the morning….That changed amazingly quickly, one day we were doing our thing and the next he got a girlfriend. That hurt.

It fucked me up.a lot. i kinda feel that those past events helped me to become the person i am today.

I feel so dirty and […]

1/14/2012 18 comments

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