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life……:(

by nee1823 1/10/2012

written by nee1823

My names Sydney and I just don’t know what to do anymore 🙁 I try and try my hardest to go day by day without cutting and 🙁 its just been a fail 🙁 its been about more then a year since I started cutting and I regrett the first time I did it and everything 🙁 its done nothing but cause problems for me 🙁 I started cutting because of my friend Esmerelda she would take most of her anger and put it out on me and everything I could barely deal with my problems which was grades and stuff but even if I […]

1/10/2012 11 comments

Feeling Guilty and Ashamed Of myself Again , ! -_-

by Tear_Drop :'( 1/10/2012

written by Tear_Drop :'(

Well I told my brother that is close to my age about my 19 year old brother sexually abusing me! He Said he already knew about ! Well I just find out my brother use to do things with my sister that always taunt me about being sexual abused . Well I Thought my brother that’s close would understand when I Told him but he said “you could of said no”. He said “you probably had wanted it” and that “everyone get touched I’t Isn’t that big of a deal. I started too feel bad again and said to myself I probably did wanted I’t. […]

1/10/2012 18 comments

is there anyone out there?

by aroxx666 1/10/2012

written by aroxx666

someone whos not a complete and uter asshoole who migth understnad what im going througha dn might understand and be able to consule me and let me do the same to them if they need help i guess i jsut wnat that one but i dooublt ile ever get it fuck this life….i hate nights again.. the blakcnes and utter loneliness brings back evertyhing and it keeps me from sleeping i fcuking hate it

1/10/2012 9 comments

Im okay ; Such the saddest lie.

by Haiimwaters 1/9/2012

written by Haiimwaters

Im okay.

Okay, im alright.

Alright, im miserable. I go to school and hang out with all my friends who can’t see past my laughter and bright smiles. I wear long sleeved cause I can’t let anyone see what i did, what they would do if they knew, i have no idea. They’d probably leave me, they don’t tend to deal with those kind of people. Wow, i’ve got them fooled. Mayday parade, weed, and a nail file is what’s making me go on. I have alot of good memories, but for some reason i have forgotten any bits of happy days and sunlight.Â My inside is cold […]

1/9/2012 2 comments

Do you see?

by Epiphany 1/9/2012

written by Epiphany

I noticed the comments were off and couldn’t figure out how to fix it, so hopefully re-posting will work. Comment if you want.

Do you see
The troubles that blind me,
The pains I have to face,
The hardships I have,
To endure?

Do you see
The cuts, everywhere,
The substances, the lies,
The feelings I have to face,
Everyday?

Do you see
How hard it is,
To just be me?
How much it sucks,
To be me?

Do you see
That Iâ€™m crying,
Screaming out for help?
Itâ€™s too bad,
That no one,
Chose to notice.

Do you see
That Iâ€™m hurting,
Broken, kicked
To the curb?
Canâ€™t you […]

1/9/2012 3 comments

reflections

by death_appeal 1/9/2012

written by death_appeal

I am all alone in this mysterious world.I know almost nothing about my life,myself or the world around me.I’m really lost in the darkness of my great ignorance.I don’t know much about myself either.I can’t understand the workings of my own mind.It seems as though I am myself part of the mystery of existence and life.I am so helpless and lonely.The god of this enigmatic universe manipulates and controls all aspects of my life.He controls the innermost parts of my mind.I’m like a toy in his powerful hands.And death is getting closer and closer to me.My life smells of death.My body is so mortal that […]

1/9/2012 4 comments

Last minute check list

by deadright 1/9/2012

written by deadright

Here I am trying to catch up on last minute details.

I had a fun time writing my own obituary and even put some humor in it. I am going to leave it in my home taped to my refrigerator along with my handwritten, live and dead wills. I understand that if you just type it out and sign it, the document can be contested. The same goes for DNR orders and suicide notes. You can write a short version of the note by hand for the police department, photocopy it and put them in separate envelopes. You can then type up a long version where […]

1/9/2012 26 comments

pills

by drift_along 1/9/2012

written by drift_along

I have 105 ibprophens that im going to take tonight i just cant keep living like this

1/9/2012 34 comments

ME TOO)

by boer58 1/9/2012

written by boer58

I was sexually molested(hurt) the first time at 4 years old. This continued until the age of 15, when at last my mother died. MY life has been screwed up since I was a little child. Could’nt make it in school. Joined the Army, got a bad discharge. Started robbing people to survive, went to jail. Got married, had two children. I was sent overseas, when I returned home, my wife and daughters were gone, she had run away with our neighbor. I had been using drugs for a long time, I increased use dramatically. Went to rehab, found out I had bipol disorder. tried […]

1/9/2012 6 comments

pretty girl

by Schneiderang 1/9/2012

written by Schneiderang

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ewFKzu6NQ2k

1/9/2012 0 comment

by MrMagoo 1/9/2012

written by MrMagoo

I don’t understand why people smoke in this day and age when they know its so bad for themselves and those around them, I understand addiction though, but why do people take up the habit these days. Even if it was dirt cheap and didn’t smell or have side effects its still an annoying habit that takes up time.

1/9/2012 10 comments

This how I Feel

by Tear_Drop :'( 1/9/2012

written by Tear_Drop :'(

1/9/2012 2 comments

2 months… ?

by crewde 1/9/2012

written by crewde

Well I talked with my ex today, a very heavy conversation… one that (sadly) but also good i guess if the ideal situation is achieved after this point, saved me from myself today. While I didn’t really push or care what her response was, she randomly threw me a bone, the very chance I wished came a lot earlier. Minimal contact for 2 months, and at the end, we will reconvene with different perspectives on where to go from there, i am feeling this is a 50/50 chance right now that it does come with the results i wish. While I am also hating that […]

1/9/2012 7 comments

Quilt of Rambling…

by CherryBlossom 1/9/2012

written by CherryBlossom

What random rambling shall be sewn together today in this post.

I’m moving forward a bit, trying my best to push dark thoughts from my mind. The nice retreat to a rented house on the beach helped too :). Realize I need to get away from home. As soon as I got back then my uberly happy mood went BLAH! It’s disappointing how people are not aware of how their actions effect others. Don’t think they really care.

I also realize that I have no real goals. Nothing particular to strive for. Right now I’m just going. Just chugging along til I run out of train track. […]

1/9/2012 1 comment

If Something Can Make You Smile

by worrystone 1/9/2012

written by worrystone

I guess I’m suicidal. My stomach churns just putting that label next to my name. I think about it all the time. I think about all the things wrong. I get sucked into that black hole where you just keep going down and down. And then I find myself on facebook in an immature poke-battle with one of my best friends (who I also happen to have been hopelessly in love with for years) and I can’t wipe the smile off my face as I watch the notification pop up again and again. A real smile, not the stupid fake one I plaster on my […]

1/9/2012 5 comments

My daily battle

by hollywood1919 1/9/2012

written by hollywood1919

Depression is kicking my ass right now.
I feel fat and ugly (I’ve never felt really bad about my appearance before. It’s like when I look in the mirror, I see the fat 12-year-old I once was. Now I feel that way even more, even though I understand fashion and makeup and hair even more than I did in high school.)
And I feel worthless no matter what. My parents treated me like shit for 19 years, all they ever taught me is that all I’m good for is sex, chores, and looking pretty, and that nothing I ever do is good enough. Well, thanks […]

1/9/2012 4 comments

I am sooo lucky!

by ctb-driver 1/9/2012

written by ctb-driver

I literally have no friends and no family. Work sucks and my health is bad. I am over 50 with over $1M in debt.

So why am I so lucky? I just got my 12 gauge short barrel shot gun with oo-buck. Problem solved.

1/9/2012 8 comments

On Wednesday afternoon, I went to the hospital

by porphyrous 1/8/2012

written by porphyrous

Chapter Two of my story, which began with, “On Wednesday Night, I broke.”

On Friday, December 2, I attempted suicide.Â I hung myself by my neck with a cable TV coax strung through a metal shelf.Â I failed, because I was startled by an unexpected sensation of falling.Â I told my wife, and she called my mother, and the two of them put me on a sort of informal “suicide watch”.Â This is what happened after that.

On Sunday, my mother came over and spent most of the day with me.Â She’s a former cop and detective sergeant in the […]

1/8/2012 10 comments

If only.

by Haiimwaters 1/8/2012

written by Haiimwaters

I’m not the kind of person to tell someone about my bad day. Or how shitty and downhill my life’s going. I’m not the kind of person that can tell you that suicide crosses my mind everyday. I dont want to end up in a mental hospital, but i know i am crazy. I have fallen so far in this deepÂ hole called depression that is overloaded with dirt and is slowly suffocating me. What are you supposed to do when that happens? I hate my life, and i’m still so very young. I smoke cigarettes, and weed, and nothing will ever escape me from this […]

1/8/2012 3 comments

Afraid of failure

by jtk 1/8/2012

written by jtk

I’m so very afraid of failing.Â I have failed myself; I have become weak and patheticly sad.Â I have lost my ability to fight, tread on, or at very least endure.Â I failed my parents and any other relationship that became an affair of the heart.Â I am failing my children.Â Â I am failing in my career and by the time my divorce procedes and finalizes, I will only be a financially failed shell of my former self.Â Â –But most of all I am afraid of failing at suicide.

1/8/2012 3 comments

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