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It’s said to be a painful way to attempt suicide.
If you did survive, what where the side effects, ruined liver ? Kidneys ? What ?
For general topics related to the site.
It’s said to be a painful way to attempt suicide.
If you did survive, what where the side effects, ruined liver ? Kidneys ? What ?
After all the fighting the judge believed the lie’s  my ex’s mother put  before him .He didn’t even request proof. Before I’ll sign my my rights over I’ll be dead. I will not have my only surviving child from my first marriage think I don’t want him. I’ve received threats , calls e-mail letters under the door since 2006. ‘If I try for one I’ll lose all three.” If I don’t walk away anything could happen to one of the kids. Accidents happen all the time.” And I can’t even prove it was them either of them, ex husband or ex mother-in-law. They have money and I don’t.  I have […]
I really need to stop taking these until the day I choose. I wake up feeling pretty good and not suicidal. Thats the problem. I need to stay feeling suicidal if I’m gonna get it done. It’s really hard to kill yourself when your not feeling bad, lol.
Pain
Pain
Oh sweet pain
You come to me in every way
Mentally you crush my thoughts
Physically you cut my legs
Emotionally you destroy everything.
If there were a way to escape your grasp
A way to be free from what you cause me
A way to never again feel your torments
To enjoy what I have
To be happy
I would take that way in an instant
There is a way
To escape you
It’s feared by most however
A way witch most would never dream of
Never think of
Never long for
It’s horrible final way
No way to fix it
No way to change it
It’s everything I want
It’s everything I need
It’s Death
In death there is no pain
There is no feeling at all
Just death
Just […]
These days, i cannot sleep and i would listen to my music of goodbyes and farewells. And i would try and not to cry, but i couldn’t hold it in. Every night has been so difficult for me. God…my life is a waste of time, and it serves no purpose, so why am i still here? There is two battles going on, an that is to not go through with it. And the other is a question of moral grounds. I am sorry for that i have let myself down, and to the people that knows me. How much pain can i really take? I […]
I saw a nature program on t.v. There was A animal traped in a cage. looked sad. Out of it own environment in a small cage. That’s where i find myself.
I’m not going to live like this. I’m not much enjoying it.
So it look’s like i lost this game. (of life) So i can go on like this or end it.
s there a life insurance that covers suicide?
How do you prepare you wife and kids while you still have the chance?
Is leaving a note at all help full, or would it scar others?
what should you do with your belongings?
should you take others with you?
is suicide by cop, the right cop, covered by life insurance?
I’m 17 and have an eating disorder. Last year at school I kind of messed up my exams, so guess this year I need to pull myself together so I still have some chance of succeeding. My teachers keep saying how well I’m doing, how much I’ve improved and how much happier I seem. But I don’t understand how they are seeing such a change because I don’t feel as if I’ve made one. Everything they are telling me just seems so wrong compared to how I feel – and I don’t know whether I should keep going along with it.
My eating has gotten messed up again […]
when you wake entered this life, beat for fun and left to fate.
life lives allover this life, belief is that 1 made every thing fucket.
so dream of it broad that you will live all never ending viccums to last etenally.
bllooddd. is our paste they take it to inject into others the beautiful life that shown how viiii-?
ccctuumnz last to never escape funkled libre. hahahahahahhahhaahhahahaahah why granpa why. cuz were all vics. right? if no then what are you? not vickum grand pa, im going to the good life. no sir no such in that way. only good is,…good lilllelll vinky.haha hehehe hohoho hihihi lalatututu. one […]
i think i have the flu and my mom told me to stay inside or else i’ll get pneumonia. i was planning my suicide attempt for some time now and apparently one can die from pneumonia.
nice coincidence. let’s see if this works
Today is the fourth day of living on 2 hours sleep; used every pill imaginable. I must have an iron liver, I take so many different types of drugs. The sleep deprivation is what kills every single positive neuron in my brain. I medicate, meditate, and nothing is working. This has been the case for years.Â
Today is horrible. Just going to take one step after another and then one more until night falls. Try all over again, listening to “Sleep Cd” about four times.Â
Once I tried the car in the garage attempt, my dog got my husband […]
I’ll be dead before christmas.
I just don’t want to feel cold.
I’m gona explode my heart or something.
It feels good to think that I will be dead by christmas.
Free, dead and hopefully safe at last.
Welldone to all those people who have made my life a living hell.
You did it, you accomplished your goal and broke my spirit. You did this to me so now you can bask in the glory of your accomplishment!
Go on, live your life while I perish behind these walls that Ive built all because of you.
I hope you sleep well at night, because I don’t. Your words follow me to bed and replay over and over and over again in my mind as I shut my eyes and hold my tears, anger and frustration back.
Go on, keep talking, you think I can’t hear what […]
I stumbled upon this a few moments ago, reading a couple of the blog posts about suicide. Like so many others, I consider it and I empathize with all of you. My “name” is Xinite.. I’m 27, schizophrenic, bi-polar, clinically depressed and am on three different medications for these- an anti psychotic called Abilify, an antidepressant called Mirtazapine, and sedative for PTSD- Xanax. I’m still depressed. I still break down. I still hear voices. I’m still paranoid. I still feel crazy. I took Zyprexa until I gained 40 pounds and had disgusting, traumatic nightmares every single night […]
I’ve always asked myself, why I go on? I mean really, I always think about it and talk about and it would put an end to everything, right? I feel awful every waking moment and I have no motivation to do anything..
Who knows, maybe someday something will change, I don’t know where the “strength†or whatever it is comes from. It isn’t me, I’m not saying it’s God.. because frankly, I don’t believe.. maybe it’s that “happy me†that once was there..
But I guess I’m really just curious about the future; I really want to know how things will play out. It seems a bit silly to base my […]
I don’t know what to do anymore with my mum. She wants me to have friends but every time i have friends she suspects them of doing drugs and teaching me bad things. She found out yesterday that i went out with my best friend to go malling. so what?! if we went malling and had a chat? can we do drugs in the mall?! my mum is crazy and i can’t wait to leave her. she’s the person who’s making me depressed all the time. i hate it when she treats me like a baby and calls me “baby” because i’m not a fucking […]
I have no idea what I’m doing…I’m guess I’m just writing this in hopes that someone reads it somewhere so I would have actually told someone. I know when you feel like this you’re supposed to go to someone for help…but I feel like I can’t and am scared to death. My family wouldn’t understand, I don’t think they understand that anything like this even goes on. My cousin told his dad that he had been thinking of killing himself and they shipped him off to a school with people like him. That’s the farthest thing from what I want. Even though deep down I […]
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My story begins Christmas eve of 8th grade, tears and beers, uncovering the lies my cheating, alcoholic father had spewed. Until this catastrophic event I had remained a fairly innocent child, ignorant to the pain of the world. My father never drank which I found strange until the discovery of his demons and fight with booze. But that’s a different story… That night deviated me from the path I rightfully deserved to traverse. It sent me spiraling down a steep hill of anger, self hate, addiction, and confusion. 8th grade was very tough. Fighting depression and neglect (my parents being too involved with their […]
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