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For those who seen my pic yesterday am i ugly because that what everyone call me and ive been feeling that im ugly since i knew what that word mean
I can’t do any of this anymore. I tried so hard to do something new, to make myself happy. And guess what? It blew up in my f*cking face. Excuse the language. So, now I can’t see my best friend without wanting to cry my heart out. Long story short, I broke up with my boyfriend because I wasn’t happy, in general (not unhappy with him) and wanted space. Then, I find out my best friend is in love with me. A couple weeks later he has me wrapped around his little f*cking finger. Guess what I find out two days ago? He doesn’t want […]
You feel pain inside, and you see a fellow human hurting.
Do you give love or hate?
Do you talk to your fellow brethren in loving way?
or
Do you talk to your fellow brethren with hurtful words?
I really shiuld start taking my own advice i mean i give other people resons why they deserve to live but i tell myself all the reasons to die
It’s senior year for me, this is supposed to be the best year in school right? So far all that has happened is bad more than ever. Not even the school wants to help. I have been bullied this year more than ever. Rumors flying around and it got so bad that I had to go to counseling. I hate this place, I wonder if there is a God sometimes because if there is one then why does he allow this to happen to me. One girl vandalized my car, one spread horrible lies about me and the other stalked me. I feel like I’m […]
I’ve wanted to kill myself at various times throughout the past 5 years. Â About two months ago I started to become serious about it and began to plan my death. Â This was after I had gotten out of the psychiatric hospital (my 7th hospitalization since 17 years old). Â I was in the hospital for almost 4 weeks and received 6 electro-convulsive therapy treatments. Â I also got put on some new medications which didn’t do anything to no surprise. Â I was however started on adderall which was the only thing that got me out of bed and able two at least go through the motions of […]
I was at drivers ed tonight at my high school and there was a basketball game going on and i looked in and i saw all the girls with their friends and families and all i cant think is why cant i have that? why cant i have friends who will support me? why cant i have friends in general or people who like me? no guys are ever interested in me and the only guys that are, are the kinds that just want a ding dong ditch because i let every guy in that i can because they are the only ones that ever […]
Im barely holding on. All I feel like doing is cutting and crying one day. And then the next I’m invincible. I cut when I’m happy.when I’m mad.but I don’t cry or cut when I’m sad. I feel like there’s something wrong w me that I haven’t gotten to the bottom of yet. Does anyone have the same issues as me?
I surely don’t. That is I don’t care about myself. I care so much about the people around me. The people I love. But why can’t I love me?? It just doesn’t happen for me. I try to think “of everything will be alright and I’m gonna love myself and how I look”. No. That’s not happening. I’d rather not love myself and suffer than lose the people I love the most. It takes me a lot of time to open up to anyone. It took me like over a year to open up to my best friend. But I did it. And now I […]
I don’t know if we are allowed to do this but does anyone use skype or oovoo? If anyone wants to video chat I’m totally cool with it. I’m nice so don’t got to worry about me picking on you 🙂
My mood lately has been up and down. But I came to a breakthrough. I don’t want to kill myself anymore (unless I’m feeling real down then the thoughts come back) but overall I don’t. I realize I’m going to die one day anyways so I’ll deal with all the crap til I do. Cause 80 years really isn’t that long (if i’m that lucky).
I still feel like shit, try not to think about what a failure I am but it’s very apparent in my life so not thinking about it or being aware is hard to do.
Momz is irritating once again trying to intervene […]
Okay so my second doctor that i had told me that i had psycosis. Because i told here that i wasnt depressed but just fed up with the bullshit.am i really crazy
I have been looking at methods, and keep coming back to antifreeze. I have studied and read facts from doctors and lots of other places. Seems the best option for me, since it is hard to diagnose at first and can be seen as an accident or something. If you aren’t given treatment for a certain amount of time, then anything after that point is useless to stop it. Anyone have any views on this? Some say you can’t die from drinking it, but all indications point to the fact that if you drink it and wait a period of […]
but I feel fucked up. I’m burnt out, I know it; I should stop. But why? Nothing gets better. Sober, enflamed.. the only difference is I have less control of my motor functions and my brain squeezes out more depression juice.
The juice is always flowing though, illicit drugs or no. I’m grateful for my brain, being so awake with such an open perspective, but it’s alienating. I felt apart from the general public before first doing drugs. The thing about them is that they just make you feel more of how you already feel.. at least for me they do.
My volume simply gets turned up; […]
December 17th, 2011 at 2:31 am
im not sure what to say other than i know all your going thru seems like alot right now but life will get better for you it will just take time. I offer this to you becouse i dont want you to kill yourself, wich puzzles me becouse i am thinking of killing myself also and if i am going to end it why care if some totally random person on some blog does the same thing? I think its becouse my life has alot of simularities to yours except it was a long time ago that i […]
My dad hates me – he abandoned me. He never wanted me. dad left me and mom when I was about 2 years old so I really don’t remember – but I have a feeling he used to be fun – I seem to remember we used to play and laugh a lot. But I don’t really remember because I was so young. Mom says he left us because he hates us.
I did see dad a few times … the last time I was twelve … I’m 17 now. when I would see him He smiled and laughed and his eyes twinkled like they were […]
I hate mornings, it takes me all night to fall asleep then all morning to wake up. I set my alarm super early but just turn it off instead of getting up. Was also able to lie to my boss and not go to work today or tomorrow which will take me right through the weekend. Perfect, I don’t have to leave my house for at least 4 days. I need to start planning the end but I’m too depressed to do much of anything. I need to put it together. Anyone out there?
Why does life have cruel parts in it? i don’t really like the place i am staying in right now still, because i feel unwanted….i am just trying to find a foster home but no one wants me in this area. but i really want to stay at my school Ridgeland, because i have such a wonderful teacher. does anyone want me that lives around here. i live in Chickamauga right now, but my school is in Rossville. but i know no one wants me, but can some one please talk to me?????