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God is a fucking joke

  October 16th, 2009 by hume

The entire concept of Jesus and God and the bible and all of the bullshit that goes along with it and every other world religion is so unbelievably offensive to anyone with half a rational thought in their head.

It is 100% impossible for anyone to ever have empirically verified the existence or nature of any god anywhere at any time. Despite all of the lies and bullshit religions feed us, despite their low circling carrion bird flight around the downtrodden and depressed, nothing they tell you is true and will only make your life worse in the long run if you believe in lies.

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Just Took…

  October 15th, 2009 by whythisnow

…a handful Oxy and a liter of Bacardi. Most likely won’t be the end but it just feels EXCITING to ty!!!! Is there an other side? Something new and fresh, a replacement to the dull chill up the shoulders when true sadness kicks in. Oh man. I haven’t lived at all.

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i’d really love to help

  October 15th, 2009 by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or …

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Getting closer

  October 15th, 2009 by Coyote

I had a job interview.  It would have eliminated all my financial problems and enabled me to move out of my father’s house.

I was informed (phone call on my birthday, no less) that I was not hired because I was too nervous in the second interview.

That same birthday I was accused of “overflowing the bathtub or intentionally dumping bottled water on the carpet” because a wet moldy spot was found on my bedroom carpet.  Even though the problem is clearly a leaking pipe I’m still being accused of somehow orchestrating the problem.  As well as anything else that goes wrong in the house.

I’ve gone from …

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feeling suicidal

  October 15th, 2009 by hume

I believe the only logical conclusion we can come to about the nature of human existence and importance is that human lives are completely unimportant.
There is no absolute right and wrong.
Suicide is ultimately no different than dying of natural causes.

The purpose of suicide would be to end life. This would be beneficial if experiencing nothing at all would be better than continued tedium and misery in drawing breath. The one problem I find with suicide is that other people have been the cause of my misery in life and they would live out their lives after I chose to end my life.
The …

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  October 15th, 2009 by justme

today I was washing the floors and I was filling the bucket up in the sink. It was heavy and I lost my balance as I lifted it out of the sink and fell. I stepped on the kitten. It was the sweetest little thing and had only just learned to walk this past week and it had followed me into the kitchen. I stepped on it and then fell on it. I killed it. It was an accident that I feel horrible for and I didn’t do it on purpose. I guess I could have dealt with it. What just made me give up is …

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Help?

  October 14th, 2009 by lilvann

i’v been dealing with depression for 5 years now and tried to kill myself many times. everyday i feel like there is no point to keep living. friends have tried to help me but turns out i cant trust any of them..so it would be nice just to talk to someone

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worthless

  October 13th, 2009 by Mizzexclusive

man here i am feeling fuckin worthless i just spent a hundred dollars on bullshyt cocaine. my nose is stuffed and i am broke..i would have never bought that shyt but ym best friend is ranting on how she wanted it and i did too. it makes me mad becuz i know if i wasnt with her i probably wouldnt have bought it. im weak. i let that shyt take over me.while i was doing it i was enjoying it, dont get me wrong. but now look at me. no money stuffy nose.im fuckin sad man. its been 3 months since i did that shyt …

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No More

  October 13th, 2009 by steveagain

I saw her today. It sparked too much. I’m going to die tonight.

If not tonight, then tomorrow night. Or the night after. But I’m killing myself. With rope.

My story will never be finished now and I have her to blame for it.

Don’t try, people. Just don’t.

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just tell me how

  October 13th, 2009 by ashley

wanna kill myseld and i need to know how… since  im fucking too ***** to grab a gun or knife tokill  myself  tell me a way to kill myself witha fucking pill or somin w/o pain

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what the fuck

  October 13th, 2009 by Mizzexclusive

my mom is tryin to get me a job at her hospital….i mean i am greatful but she is giving me hell in the process and she wil continue to give me hell in the future. they drug tested me the other day and i smoke weed everyday….i didnt knw i was going to be drug testd and i had no choice but to pee. when she finds out she will maybe kick me out and thats when my suicidal thoughts will start to kick in….it fuckin sucks man. i hate this shyt. i used to be so happy and now im miserable. sex has …

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First post being my last post.. Just kidding, hope some still have a sense of humor.

  October 12th, 2009 by holy grail

I’ve never sought help like this, nor looked for it.  I’m bored and finished watching a movie(The Wackness).  If you have seen this movie, i can relate to that kid and his heartbreak.  I’ve only suffered one heartbreak, and it has nothing to do with where I am at(level of depression).  That being said, I’ve done far much more damage to others.  Not saying I’m a whore of sorts, just having issues with this backlash of reality.

OK, lets shorten this up so I have a chance to capture someone who can relate or pretend to relate.  I was the happiest fat man in the world.  …

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I don’t care anymore

  October 12th, 2009 by mindstormz

I’ve got my pills lined up and I’m ready to take them. This has been a long time coming. I simply cannot live like this anymore. Every day is an effort just to get up and function. My story is a long one but i won’t go into it here. Suffice it to say it has brought me to this point. I simply exist,nothing more. My mistakes have cost me dearly and they cannot be fixed. I am simply a robot now just going through the motions. Every day is just gray or black. No joy. No life. No love. My death will affect those …

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i’d really really love to help

  October 12th, 2009 by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or …

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Does it ever end?

  October 12th, 2009 by saraagh

I know I don’t have the guts to go through with suicide but there is only so much someone can think about it. Think about how much better it could be. I dont know about you, but if your mother is screaming so much hate towards you.. Who would want to stay alive and listen to that? Defiantely not me! I dont know how many times I can take to being called a whore and a slut when I’m not even close to that at all. I have to take so much shit from that woman who’s meant to love me and what makes it …

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Help Im new and still want to end this pain

  October 12th, 2009 by no name please

I dont know how I got here, but I still want to end this pain Im trying because I do have somethings to live 4. I never cared about friends but I need one now I am so lost

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WHAT HAPPENED

  October 11th, 2009 by Mizzexclusive

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED,  SOMEONE HELP ME SEE

WHY A CRUMMY WASTE OF TIME MY LIFE HAS EVOLVED TO BE

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN

WHY THEY CARE IF I LIVE OR DIE, WHAT WILL I HAVE TO GAIN

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, DONT RUN AWAY! COME BACK

BUT THEN I DISTINCTLY REMEMBER A TRUE FRIEND, MY LIFE LACKS

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO THE GIRL THAT RAN AWAY

THE ONE WHO WAS SO FULL OF JOY WITH EVERY COMING DAY

THE ONE THAT ALWAYS ASKED QUESTIONS AND WANTED TO KNOW WHY

HAS BEEN REPLACED BY A SOLEMN GIRL WHO VOICE IS BURIED WITHIN …

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Enjoy it while it lasts

  October 11th, 2009 by mr. edicius

You can NEVER live your life for anyone but yourself because you will never be happy that way.  It’s actually really nice to start doing the things you want without a care in the world about what others think. If people make fun of you or think you are a loser, they can go fuck themselves as long as you are happy. Look at them. Do you think that they really have any reason to make fun of you or put your life down for any other reason then to make them feel good about themselves and their own lives? You’re happy and they obviously aren’t. Turn …

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I FEEL SCARED

  October 11th, 2009 by Mizzexclusive

I GOT SO MANY PROBLEMS I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. SOMETIMES ILL SIT BACK AND THINK TO MYSELF IF I DIED MAYBE THEYLL BE SORRY. AND THEN I THINK DO I WANT TO DIE?DO I WANT MY LIFE TO END? AND THEN SOMETHING HAPPENS THAT MAKES ME WANT TO END IT ALL OVER AGAIN. THING ABOUT ME IM SCARED OF HELL AND I KNOW IF I KILL MYSELF NO MATTER WHO I WAS IM GOING TO HELL…BUT THEN AGAIN I SMOKE AND DRINK AND HAVE SEX AND DO ALL THESE THINGS THATS GONNA SEND ME TO HELL ANYWAY SO Y NOT…IM SO …

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Why I want to leave this world

  October 11th, 2009 by stilldonthavetheguts

4 years ago I was a contented and happy person. The simplest things make me happy. I was an innocent high school girl who just follow my parents. Of course I get mad at times at random things but i easily get over it. I have fewer back then..fewer friends, fewer connections, fewer material possessions, and fewer things to think about.
But when I entered college I became more mature and I can think of a lot of things I don’t think back in high school, most of which are philosophical. Before, I was close to God and I go to the chapel everyday before I …

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