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i dont mean to be but i just get upset and want to hurt myself it helps my lungs feel better and the stress go away i just i want to not feel this way the only way to feel batter is to do somthing destrive to yourself but somtimes it feels like my only way out. why dose cutting has to become so addtive i cave it about every day i just cant help it sometimes

today was thanks giving i wish i couldve gave something to thank god for… i mean today was actually a happy day and i dont feel sad but i know when this is all over im going to be sad again.what should i expect from life when i dont know what to do or what to expect from the things that happen in life…. right now i feel like just writing i guess but i want to know i should be motivated to help everyone around me.

I’ve been weak and I’ve been strong. 
I’ve been thru the fire and I’ve been thru the storm. 
Try to do right and I know I do wrong. 
Just be happy for me when my life is gone. 
Cause with no more hurt and no more tears,
 There will be no more pain and no more fears. 
No more people in my face that are not sincere. 
So smile for me when I’m no longer here.

This is my story. I will turn 30 years old on Xmas eve. My whole life, I’ve been both coddled and emotionally abused. My father alternated between impulsively flying off the handle when I fucked up (as evidenced by his extremely loud and caustic rants about how lazy and incompetent I am) and unreasonably shielding me from the natural consequences of my behaviors (e.g. paying off large amounts of overdraft fees when I mismanaged my money) . I joined the Marine Corps in September of 2000, got through bootcamp, and then got administratively separated because of depression and have been ashamed ever since. I recently […]

i though we were gonna be together forever. but since he cheated on me i don’t know right now. these cuts means nothing to you. but to me they mean the pain that u gave me, the pain which you made that in my heart.

I feel as if my heart is slowly nursing back to health. I still feel despair and sadness, but I must be strong. I have to do what’s right. Every time, I think about it. I feel as if God is protecting me, and guiding me to do what’s right. We cannot simply ignore our mistakes, and what we did. We need to be truthful, and try to fix things. Fix things because it is what is right, not because of any gain or benefit to us, except our repentance.

So you guys got to approve my comments? Wtf buy that time it mite be to late for somebody that didn’t get to read my comment…wtf

I feel as though someone has cut me open,
Ripped out my insides
And replaced it all with so much pain, hate and uncertanty…
The only thing i can be sure of
Is that i will NOT live through another year like this
Soon i will say Goodbye to me for one last time.

This might be the end… I feel like no matter what I do in life I can never win, being an honest guy only gets me into trouble. I feel like every one is out to get me, last year I did 3 months in jail for walking down my own street, this kid I had trouble with in the past, called the police and said I threatened to kill him and I was holding a knife standing in front of his house, complete b.s ‘ police believed him bcuz of my record of violence ‘

Any ways to make a long story short, I’m going […]

Im only young, and from what other people have posted, my life isnt that terrible. But i hate it. I lost my house in the fires and lost alot of people that matter. I get bullied at school, I have been used by guys so many times, and often find myself in the school libary with no friends. Im not ugly and i have a fashion sense and i wear makeup, but only so people like me. I smile on the outside, but break from the inside. i have attempted suicide. Got scars on my wrists. But i always think “what would happen if […]