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I want to die, but I won’t. I’ve been crying all day. I want help but I don’t. I think I should go to hospital but I’m not severe because I don’t have a plan.
we were walking down the street when all of a sudden this guys head splatters on the ground next to us. dead.
It’s strange that the only place I feel safe letting out this side of me is to strangers on the internet…
And now I have to go back to pretending
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QW4x4gswm-o
“Tsubasa wo Kudasai” (Please Give Me Wings)
Lyrics translation:
“If I could have my wish come true right now
I’d want to have wings
Please place wings on this back
like a bird
I want to spread my wings
and fly in these heavens
To the free sky with no sadness
I want to flutter my wings and fly
Even now, I don’t need money nor fame,
what I want are wings!
The things I dreamt as a child,
I still dream about them today!
I wan’t to spread my wings
and fly into this wide sky!
I want to flap my wings and fly to this
free sky filled […]
Hey everyone, to anyone who has made up their mind or is considering to end it all tonight…
How about waiting just one more night? I know it may seem like you can’t stand even another SECOND of being alive and you just want to escape this life this instant. But adding one more night to the life that you’ve lived won’t hurt you. Just close your eyes, think about everything that you will miss, and go to bed one more time. Maybe your head will clear up in the morning and you will change your mind. Maybe not. But it’s worth trying, and what’s one […]
When will things just stop! Why are you playing this sick game with my life; constantly being bullied where ever I go and the people that should have my back turn on me to enjoy this twisted entertainment. The feeling as if the only place I feel safe from my suicidal thoughts is to isolate myself. Bullies you have taken the friends that I have always tried to make, the family that will always see me as second rate no matter whatever I accomplish, and a part of me; the part that is saying don’t let them get the best of you, but you have. […]
Pretty self explanatory… but I have no one to contact to help me when I am feeling this way. I don’t want to worry my parents, I’m an adult now… I know they’d rather worry about me alive rather than mourn my death, but it’s hard to reach out to them. I feel as though they wouldn’t understand. I can’t talk to my sister because this is the month her best friend killed himself.. the date just recently passed and I am afraid of triggering her, she is not well mentally herself. And my best friend.. love interest.. well his brother killed himself. So I […]
I wish I knew when I wouldn’t be able to fall asleep beforehand. That way I could just stay up all night and maybe accomplish something before I have to face the next day. Well, I probably wouldn’t accomplish anything, but I’m sure I could do more than lay in bed contemplating pointless thoughts. I just wish I could sleep.
we are ALL completely Insignificant in the great sceme and time frame, none of this matters. (except belly button lint)
My life is good I could never be happier Im happy with my gf she makes me happy and I make her happy. She is the reason for the smile on my face. I want to stay with her forever. But people say love dont last forever and I do believe it can but people alwayz hating on our relationship :/
Sometimes you don’t quite understand why is life taking you into such a dark place? Sometimes we don’t understand why all these bad things keeps on happening to us! Sometimes we don’t feel complete in the inside. Its like there’s emptiness and loneliness that each and everyone of us have. We have tried anything to fill the voids. At the end of the day you’re just hopeless, you don’t know where to go or even what to do with it. So we start cutting our self, inflict our self with such a pain. A pain the we thought was such better idea than the pain […]
I’m to good a procrastination , these excuses, i just want to die already.
I know I’m gonna end it soon, just not sure what day… before all this trouble I was in I was living a good life. I was happy then 1 night being drunk and stupid I lost it, and end up in jail with 4 assualt charges…. 8 charges total. so I feel I pretty much ruined my life. cuz after trial il be going to jail for 2years. fuck that. ‘ my family is worried about me bcuz they know I’m suicidal, and since I stabbed my self 6 times in the neck 3 years ago. I should have fucking died that time, but […]
Everytime my life gets better, it gets twice as bad after that. Like I’m taking 1 step forward and two steps back. It’s pointless. I still don’t see the point in living. I am trying to get help for my depression. It’s been about a year now, and still, no one knows.
And what really pisses me off is when people say suicide is selfish, and they expect you to stay alive just so they won’t feel guilty. So you can be their mannequin. But they have no idea what you’re going through. They don’t know what it’s like to struggle to survive. If they had […]
i am a fat crap
Hi – I really would like to know how many Amtripalyne I would need to take to ensure death. I’ve taken 60 before of 5mg and woken up 3 days later.
I don’t want to wake up or be in a coma. I want to do the job right.
Some stranger to me called me a moron today; I guess I don’t even care, why should I, they won’t care when I’m gone.
ok so last night I was in my room in complete darkness listening to some catchy tunes. Then I felt really…cold.. and uncomfortable so I went out to the living room (basicaly the whole house was dark) My mom was in another room (the office), and the light shined over towards where I was. I looked at my shadow and instantly wanted to go hang myself, so I raced back to my bedroom and begun the process but stopped myself
Why’d this happen? I could barely control myself, so maybe it was an impulse of some sort?
“I hate this place. This zoo. This prison. This reality, whatever you want to call it, I can’t stand it any longer. It’s the smell, if there is such a thing. I feel saturated by it. I can taste your stink and every time I do, I fear that I’ve somehow been infected by it.” – Agent Smith (The Matrix)
The other night I had an episode…I started to feel like the pain was taking over. Sometimes I can take a long shower and have a good cry and it releases enough tention to come back, but… This time it just seemed to open up my mind to other options. I got out and against my best judgement began to drink and drink and drink… The tears were to much and the hurting in my chest was crushing… I grabbed my keys and jumped in the car racing down the highway. Luckily within the hour I had come down enough to realize I should go […]