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I don’t like being alone/single. That was the one thing I had to keep me from doing this stuff to myself. I never had friends. Not ones here.. I had a boyfriend. That is what kept me from feeling so alone. Now I don’t have anything. I’m alone. It’s pathetic and you all are going to post and say I shouldn’t let anyone have that much control. But this is who I am. I thrive on being with people. You may also post that I should go out and name a few types of places. […]
If these hands
are able to write words
on this simply piece of paper,
it should be able
to end my life easily.
If a murder can kill
with the hands that was created
then maybe my useless hands
can pop pills in my mouth
having my legs drag me
down the hall and into the bathroom.
If my hands can turn things
it should be able
to turn the water on.
I want to be able
to hold a bottle of pain killers
without shaking it out my hand.
Climbing in with no ounce of regret
everything thrown off my shoulders
as my bottle […]
i sit here contemplating about you. I wonder how perfect you are and my young obsession with you, almost 2 years back. I think about any chinks in your perfect complexion, but yet I still don’t see any. I watch your pictures I saved on my iPhone, from your Facebook. And can’t view yours after you blocked me and privates your profile after I mistakenly deleted you out of my misery filled stupor. All of this, stupidity, because you rejected me. I didn’t even know what I would say or how I would do it, especially when I can’t say it to your face. I’m […]
I’m in my room right now, about to try and sleep. I can’t. I don’t know. I’m confused about so many things at the same time right now.
Summer should be a reason to celebrate for most kids, I don’t know what I’m doing here right now. Summer kind of sucks for me because I can’t do much; most of my friends are another town away, and meeting up with them randomly is virtually impossible because I need my parents to give me a ride. The days seem to get longer and longer like it’s winter or some bullshit. I have this crazy feeling in me […]
Razors pain you
Rivers are damp
Acids stain you
and drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren’t lawful
Nooses give
Gas smell awful;
You might as well live.
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found that on youtube thought i would share it.
I hate  my family, SO BAD. I want to leave this house, even though im young im 13 yrs old my birthday is right around the corner. Its on July16! If you guys havent heard, im thinking about killing myself  just so I can have people to remember since I was born in July16 then I should die on  July16. Stupid as it sounds but I want it to happend that day! Yesturday my mom was invited to a Friends party, so my mom took me and my two brothers with her. Long story short, my brother Emilio is so ignorant and he has hatred […]
When I see a knife, I think of stabbing it into my chest, piercing my heart. Or cutting my neck with it. When I see a tall building, I envision myself jumping from the top of it. When I see a bottle of pills, I want to swallow them all at once. I would either overdose, or choke on them. Whenever I come across a body of water, I visualize myself drowning in it, my body sinking to the bottom. Perhaps never to be seen again. When I see a gun, I imagine putting it to my head, slowly pulling the trigger. When I […]
Since I was in high school I was in depressive states. I use to cut myself just to watch myself bleed. When I felt depressed I liked to feel the pain. I stopped once I began to see RD.
He was my HS teacher. Three months before my graduation we got involved sexually in school. It continued for now three years.
I would flirt with him before anything occurred by asking him if he missed me. He would say always you know that. Until one day he asked me what’s going to happen when you graduate? Are we going to grow apart? I was surprised and I […]
I just want to thank you all for your prayers! They have really helped me!
I am a 34 year old loser. There, I admited it. I am a loser. Admiting it isn’t freeing, it isn’t liberating; it is simply reciting a fact. I have never been successful at anything I’ve done in my life, never accomplished anything worthy of note, I just take up space. My career in the military was a bust, my dreams of getting an advanced degree have washed ashore on the banks of my crappiness more than once, and with three different majors to boot, my marriage would have ended in divorce had my wife not killed herself upon the announcment of my desire to […]
What do you do when you can’t tell your doctors the truth anymore
by tiffany_ts
written by tiffany_ts
Who do you go to for help when you are afraid to tell your doctors you want to die again? Knowing your doctors will lock you up in the hospital again for the fourth time. I can’t go though that again. I can’t afford to end up there again. I am still paying for the bills from the last three times I told the doctors the truth about my feeling of ending the suffering. Through the years I have tried all the drugs. All the new expensive ones that the doctor promises will help. I have even tried the many illegal mind altering drugs. I […]
Okay i know this is irrelevant to suicide, but i just realized that everyhere i look here, people are from the UK. Thats fantastic. lol I’m from Los Angeles, California 🙂 But anyways..i hope people enjoy my replies to their posts:)
Love
                 Georgina<3
so about 1 hour ago i attempted suicide by taking over 20 diet pills at once…my head hurts, im dizzy, sweaty and i can’t see much. im so sleepy. I did this only because i think my boyfriend only lusts me. but i think my mind may be polluted. I dont know..i feel the way to get his attention is to hurt myself. Last time i cut my wrists so deep that now i have disgusting scars all over and can no longer wear short sleeved shirts. i did it to get his attention. i want his love. I chronically attempt suicide for him to […]
Mum saw my scars.
Hi I’m back, bet no one missed me.
I want to start off with saying I’m sorry.
I’m sorry if I worried anyone because I have been gone so long. For some reason I have not been able to long in until TODAY, and my facebook account was deleted so I could not tell any of you that I was okay. I’m not depressed as of this moment per-say, I wasn’t off somewhere committing suicide (like some thought), and I certainly wasn’t already dead.
No, I’d have to say that my sudden bout of absence was caused only by technical difficulties and by no emotional difficulties. Just thought I would clear that up.
Anyways, I didn’t […]
What is the point … really? I am tired of living. I can’t see my life changing. I have tried for years and years to find the right balance for me, tried to fit in, find my own way and mostly all the people I come in contact with are fooled. To the world I am strong and capable, they all come to me, everyone wants something. I raised fine children, helping raise a fine grandchild, but for what? There’s no time for me, nothing but work and bills, not even enough money to buy a new pair of shoes or a shirt. Do I […]
my heart is full of pure love, but the outside has been beaten and bruised over and over. I’m tired of this. I wanna get married and have kids, I wanna live and have fun. but this is merely a dream that will never be real. gonna try to commit suicide tonight, wish me luck:/
*On My Sleeve-Creed
*Self Inflicted-Smile Empty Soul
*45-Shinedown
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There’s a lot of things I want to do but I know I can’t I love my family no matter how much the hate me and I say I hate them I love them I’m scared of everything I can’t imagine living in my own I I fear rapist,serial killers,kidnappers,stalkers,etc.,I can’t think about being killed.I don’t want to grow up I don’t want a future I wish the world wasn’t dog eat dog more of dog help dog as peaceful as my neighborhood is I just think there’s always something out there.and i relized why would I be afraid for someone to kill me but […]
I am a 53 yr old pre-op transsexual woman. I have suffered from severe depression for more years then I care to remember. I have been committed to the hospital 3 times so far for attempted suicide. During 2 of these hospital stays I had a total of 14 electrical shock threapy sessions. I have been several different meds for many years but nothing changes. Nothing has helped. I don’t dare tell my doctors that I am feeling like ending my suffering again in fear of being put back in the hospital. So where do I go for […]