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if i inject an air bubble in my vain via a needle, won’t that kill me? i can get a needle because my mum is a diabetic, im not sure ill be able to do it because she’ll blame herself for leaving them out in the open where i could get them. i think my mum and sister suspect im cutting again. not good i won’t be able to cut on my arms anymore. 🙁
It’s actually pretty surreal writing this. I’ve seen this site more than a few times. I’ve been brought to tears by some of the people who wrote here. I’ve tried to kill myself more times than I want to remember. I mean I’ve fit a noose around my neck, taken one too many pills, or stood on the edge of a high building more than enough times. I’ve come close. I fell I’m old enough to understand my position. It’s truly sad for me to read of these 12 and 13 year olds saying they want to die. […]
I no longer know what to do. Every morning I put a big fat smile on and at school make alot of jokes to try to feel good, but I don’t. I have so much to live for, but I feel like I don’t. Now depression envelops me like a cold blanket that will never come off. It’s now to the point that I can no longer live. My head says that this is just stupid but my heart tells me to just give up. I have no friends, never did. And although I’m a good-looking 15 year-old teen, I have no one but myself. […]
I want to end it as soon as possible my life is not worth it as I’ve ruined before now I’d like to ruin it for good. Today I spent the whole day looking for painless ways to end it. The only thing that excited me today and can probably ever can at this point is the fact that I found a painless accessible way to end my life. I found a painless way to end it.
i don’t understand what i did to deserve such an awful feeling inside me.
So im sitting in jail for taking a gun to school i have a sheet and a razor to cut myself then hang myself so Bye idc if im to young i cnt take it anymore in this hellhole
What do I say? There are no words to describe what I’m feeling right now…. what’s the closest I can come to putting it into words? IDK…
Sorrow, hopeless, dead, despondant, pointless….pain.
Yet at the same time… there’s , this nothingness, this resignation that its time…
I don’t want to text Matt, poor guy has crazy hours as it is… ahhh, the life of a shrink! Not to mention I’ve just gotten to where I’ve pretty much given up… must be frustrating knowing I’m coming in, yet he doesn’t get mad at me… on his phone a little too much maybe but not mad, … […]
Surely we are all meant to be something more. But we aren’t. Chances are, we won’t ever be. And we go along wondering what the meaning to everything is. But we won’t ever know. I don’t even think there is a meaning to anything. We just need to feel like there is because it just makes sense. The thought of existing with no meaning is so depressing, we might as well all kill ourselves now.
I just wish things could last. Without having to constantly earn them. I don’t want to leave the only person who I find is worth anything. But I’m being forced to. […]
I am in so much pain…I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to think. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, with them, with everyone.
What do I do when I meet with a counselor? I never know what to say. I let him steer the conversation, but the problem is that things don’t really get addressed. Okay, suicidal thoughts. Great. But those don’t go away, and he knows that. I dunno. I dunno what to tell him.
Please tell me why I want to take care of other people but can’t take care of myself?
Please tell me why disgusting people like me get […]
Okay, so I know everybody has bad days and we’re supposed to persevere and all that jazz, but I honestly don’t feel like putting any effort into living anymore. Everyone around is fake and shallow; every time I try to talk to my “friends” about something that isn’t happy they just end up ignoring me and trying to change the subject. They also talk about people who cut themselves (which I have done for years), saying they should just get it over with already. they have no fucking idea how tempted I am…
Unfortunately, all my attempts have been stopped by people who “care” (which […]
The past keeps on haunting me. I sometimes have dreams of them. This morning, I woke up remembering the good memories I used to have that are gone forever… about people who were close to me and said they treasured me but just end up abandoning me and leaving. It’s in the past, yet to me, it seems like it’s the present and the future. I can’t seem to forget and move on. Even when I think I’ve forgotten about the bad memories, they’ll come showing themselves again later on. I sometimes wake up hurting a lot with them. I just want to forget it […]
Last night was the worst.
I stayed up until two in the morning, on the computer bawling my eyes out.
Nobody answered my texts, my IM’s.
Now, that’s loneliness, you know? You tell people you’re in desperate need of consolation and nobody bothers. Here’s what happened: I was in a two year relationship with a boy, and he broke up with me on Valentine’s day. I’ve been walking on crutches for so long, been kissed, hugged and admired for so awfully long I can’t walk on my own anymore. And I don’t want to try.
The biggest emptiness is inside me. I feel like a […]
Well, I posted here a couple of weeks ago. My situation hasn’t improved. I’ve come close to emerging from my situation only to be smacked in the face by a laughing Divine energy.
I’m about to lose everything in a couple of days, as well as my hopes and dreams.
I’m an attractive woman that no girl wants to be with. Largely ignored, no friends to count on, no family.
I’m sick of fighting for things I know that I deserve but aren’t getting.
I’m choosing the helium bag method.
What’s really pathetic is that this will probably the only trace of me that will last […]
This might proves to be very interesting (and mind-opening) to watch for 10 minutes,
perhaps it’s heavily related with how almost everyone here often feels.
it’s time to re-think our ‘old’ notions about survival and living.
getting more interesting..
just when things are looking up. the future looks fun – bearable – even enjoyable…
the world remebers that it likes to make my life miserable.
ever feel like everything you do is for nothing? nothing is gained by a single breath you take.
Innocence. Everyone who is innocent, wish there were more of them. I am a virgin, but I rarely drink or smoke, so I wish I could say I am innocent (but you know shit can’t be pure or innocent). I used to be in love with a pure girl, too bad she didn’t give me a chance (too bad you stalked her on facebook with those love messages) =(. I have now fallen for my cousin, she aint close to innocent, shes young but drinks and wishes she could smoke weed. I love her dearly but she aint innocent. Wish she wasnt from Chicago so […]
Doesn’t mean you’re alive.
The idea of suffering is used as a sense of being constantly in pain. Or something like that, I don’t feel like checking wikipedia for that. Anyways, I think I enjoy suffering. I am a pessimist also, I pity myself and feel like shit all the time. I always ***** about how I will never have my first girlfriend, even though I tell myself I’m too scared. I enjoy putting myself down. Also, whenever I go on this site. The fact that it’s got to do with suicide, makes me depressed just going on here, yet while I’m in high school classes. I go on […]
My heart is such a nuisance, always reminding me that i am still alive
it seems to be that i’m not friends with emily anymore- and my other friends have taken her “side” and are being very cold towards me. i can’t take it. i have no one…my friends were my world and now i have nothing. i hate them all. they dont even know i feel like this…they have no idea and they dont even care. and its not like i can go out and get new friends. im stuck with these shitty ones..
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