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Have been suicidal for about five years. Every now and then I go that bit further and for around ten minutes I have the urge to kill someone. It happened today and the episodes are become more frequent as time goes on. I am worried that I may hurt one of my family and feel that the only way to stop it is to kill myself. I will die a traitor but not as much as if I were to kill someone else before I do. I don’t care what condition you will want to call it but I do not want help. How could […]

first of all i want to apologize for any grammar mistakes because English is the third language I have learned.

I feel that i can’t take it anymore. I constantly fall depressed because of things that going on in the family. But those things are not what i want to talk about. I want to talk about my feelings. Lately I have started to feel that all this pressure is just too much for me I’m falling apart and I feel there is no one who could listen and understand what I feel. They will never do this without judging me and telling me that I’m […]

I am still in love with my ex he is now with someone new and I was at there house and they left with out telling me, so I went looking for them and found them getting ready to have sex!  Yes I know that I should not be around him anymore but I still love him and think that the guy he is with now is a slut and will hurt him bad.  I have been thinking about killing myself for a long time now and think I should because I am not good looking and have no teeth, most guys just turn away […]

I was going to wait until next winter (I’m Australian and it’s summer here) to do it, but I don’t think I can. I was worried about surviving, being sent to the psych ward and forced to take off my jackets. Yeah jackets. I got a pretty bad problem with not being able to take them off, I don’t mind it though, I don’t get that hot. I’m just really fucking worried the nurses will make me coz they think I’m too hot and will overheat or whatever. God, I wish there was a surefire way I’ll die. I’m really not coping.

I’ve never ever ever seen anything as horrifyingly disgustingly putridly repulsively hideous as my own reflection.
I want to rip my face off.
How could something as hideous as myself be created?
There isn’t enough make-up in the world to hide this hideousness.
Even the most skilled of all cosmetic surgeons wouldn’t be able fix this mess.
I want to set myself on fire and burn to ashes so that my hideous form will be no more.

I hate it when I’m in the middle of telling a story or discussing my theory about my life and my beliefs, someone comments about how prayer and religion will help me. Being a christian myself I do believe that there is a god, however (as ironic as it seems) we were all probably put here for a reason and who ever knew what it was. Most christains are hypocrits and believe that everything one does will se you to hell especially being gay or killing yourself. My mom tells me this every day. she thinks that i want to possibly kill myself be cause […]

I was abused as a child and that’s a large part of why I feel the way I do and why I am on sites like this.  I was mentally, physically, and emotionally abused.  No one wants me to talk about it.  So I’m looking for some community.  Can anyone relate?

-X

Somewhat melodramatic perhaps but I just cant. I’ve had an alcohol problem for over 10 years now and I have no idea how too possibly beat it. Ive been depressed for as long as I can remember and even that seems in insignificant word to describe how i feel. Why should i not just die now, why the fuck not. It wont make any difference. Ive fucked up so much of everything that i dont know how to get back to any semblance of normality or life, or frankly if ive ever been there.

You are lucky if you have the strength to daily decide not […]

Im 13 and hate my parents i can honestly say i dont love them.Me and my mom are constantly fighting and not the little fights most kids have with their parents.I was 4 when my dad died in some freak car accident and i was 4 when i saw my first porno wich was easy to  understand even at that age.My mom and dad rented some movies and when they gave me mine i told them it wasnt it but u know parents they never listen to their kids i remember that night before i went to bed that my parents probably got the movie […]

   From the time I was able to walk and talk, Grandpa was my hero. I had won over his stubborn yet loving heart. He called me Scooter. I was his third Grandchild but very spoiled by him. Grandma and Grandpa didn’t live but a few miles from my house so I spent time with them regularly. My mother and father both had full time jobs, so it was up to Grandma and Grandpa to watch me during the day. I always followed Grandpa around their property. (They had a few acres of land). I remember Grandpa taking me to their apple tree and letting […]

I found this site in an temp to find a reasonable means of a very thought out conscious decision made… what I found was much different. Most I can relate to. We all have our down moments, which is obvious most on this site has had his or hers in their own fashion. Mine is simply everything lost by others hands, one being my ex wife. It’s been over three years now and everything has taken full circle. As much as I have tried to move on with the grueling task of day to day life, I have found myself in a position where everything […]

hi all i used to use the final exit chat rooms and the forums. But now they have closed for good.

Does anyone know of any busy chat room i can use?

James

No matter what i do, i hurt and hurt and hurt. I’ve been in therapy for a little over a year. I’m 16, and depression has quickly taken over 10 years of my life. I was 5 years old and a sad excuse of a man risked his marriage for a pathetic “fling” with a child. I was molested for a little over a year. I dont remember a lot but i do remember tht was a year tht changed all the rest to come. I’ve had severe depression ever since. And i’ve been on medication for about 6 or 7 months. NOTHING seems to […]

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i dont knw whoyou are but i would be grateful if u could help me.  i live in india and i am a final year undergraduate student. i was googling about ways of committing suicide when i came across this site. i am helpless right now. in my 12th grade rather i wud say during my 11th and 12th grade things were horribly wrong. i mean they just went wrong. i had been a bright student throughout my schooling career. it just happened that in 11th and 12th na additional pressure of clearing the entrance exam thing.. […]

I hear my mum downstairs talking about me. How im such a disappointment, and she doesn’t want anything to do with me. just like many other people, i will get mad at my mum when she reads personal stuff, or insults me in anyway. But like any pissed off person i told my friend i wish she would die, and i hated her. But i was pissed off, i really don’t hate her. She doesn’t want anything to do with me, and i’m so upset. I want to be part of this family. And all i can do is sit upstairs and cry because she […]

Several times a week, I will try to post something (a video, a song, or something funny) that I hope will brighten someone’s day 🙂

Dumpweed: Awesome song- has a lot of energy and makes you feel good 🙂

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rp2I4r9LX44

Hallucinations: MOST EPIC SONG OF ALL SONGS EVER!!!!

I get goosebumps every time I listen to it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?annotation_id=annotation_43506&v=Vd_T1Plhfhc&feature=iv

Im tired of people telling to snap out of it

Im tired of people saying its just a phase

Im tired of people making fun of me

Im tired of people telling me it will get better

Im tired of people telling me to stay on my meds

Im tired of people telling me i can get through this

Im tired of people asking if im ok when they already know the answer

Im tired of seeing and hearing shit that isnt there

Im tired of not being able to cut a little bit deeper

Im tired of only having the emotions: sadness, hatred, and guilt

Im tired of life only getting worse

Im tired of […]

Pretty much all day I’ve been researching methods and LD50’s of easy-to-get poisons. My head feels like it’s gonna explode with all this information so I figured I’d ask for some help. I’ve researched loads of stuff, from eucalyptus oil to methyl salicylate, nail polish (lol…) and petrol. I checked out paracetomol but idk if i can do that again, last time i did and I failed and it wasn’t pleasant, maybe if I increased the dose it’d work. Truthfully, ODing on something won’t be the only method. I need it to work, I can’t face hospital/psych ward again. So… I plan on taking a […]