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I used to be sure of how I was feeling. Whether I was horribly depressed sad, or the occasional satisfied, I always knew how I felt. Now…all I feel is numb. I don’t care about anything.
I don’t care about my future, I don’t care about my family, I don’t even care about myself. I put on this mask every day when I go to school, every time I go and see my girlfriend. I don’t think we’re gonna make it; I’ve changed too much. my mask is just the shard of the old me that’s left. She’s in love with a shred of a […]

I really just wish I could smile again.

I think this is what most of us forget to do. We forget how to smile or how to laugh. And eventually, the happiness leaves us and then we just wallow in our own suffering.

So, every once in a while, smile, even if it’s fake because eventually, it’ll come straight from your heart.

At least this is what I’ve been trying to do for myself.

is it possible to commit suicide by having an outside item holding your breath? like tape or a clip or something?
so that once they pass out they cannot start breathing again on their own?

i hat my life!! i wanna die.. T.T

hi,
im currently in high school and am suicidal. i am like my user name suggests at the end of wits. i am currently failing the simplest of classes like scuplutre and have cut myself on purporse and on accident. i have had not only the upper class man talk about how much i suck at the sport i play and how i over due myself and say im good when i clearly never say im good. im torn for a girl which i thought would be the one and was my first true love. after she broke up with me about after trying for […]

my name is victor my age 17 my life lost

1 was born addicted to meth as a child and was adopted into a none compatable family in my mind i was singled out so i always felt alone and grew up to trust know one and so in jr. high i became  very ………dark and started to cut my self 4 times i ended up in the hospital for attempted suicide i suceeded 2 then i fell in love with a girl whos eyes can turn stars jouluse and a heart filled with love i dated her 6 months her name trinda she tryed to […]

                   You mother fucker you take every thing away . I loved my father i was daddys little girl , he was going to surprise us   for                thanksgiving , and christmas you mother fucker I want to go. How come you cant take me too , you mother fucker take me from this Earth. Make my family  hert more then you already made them you mother fucker. Dont take my grandma away shes my best friend the only person other then my father that gets me . You mother fucker you might as well cut my heart it already aches , I know […]

I lost my virginity.

Scandalous, I know. Now don’t worry, I’m not going to give you ALL the graphic details-that would just be cruel-but I am going to tell you why it happened.

I was at a football game on October 28th and it was only around 7:30 (yes, I memorized the date and time this happened), and I was sitting alone as usual waiting for the game to be over so I could travel on to the bonfire where I could meticulously think about wanting to throw myself into the flesh-eating flames. I don’t know why I had decided to drag myself to the game, it […]

What happens to someone when you are not smart enough to earn sufficient money to not worry about it, but not pretty enough to secure a good marriage and too old to have any hope?

You end up like me…40 and alone.

I have a small child that in hindsight, I should have given up for adoption because the train-wreck of a life she has will take years of therapy to recover.  She only loves me because she has no one else.  She has no grandparents that have any interest in her and her Dad could care less.  All she has is me.

The problem is, her mother […]

Anyone who has attempted suicide so many times that they have lost count, please contact me.

Or don’t. I don’t care.

But my story is an insignificant one in an insignificant billion— who wouldn’t want to pounce on this opportunity?

Ok. Meow.

Last night i prepared myself to die but it went wrong. Do not waste your time with lithopone. I followed the instructions perfectly in a small sealed box room.I laid down waiting and waiting for 6 hours, there was the smell of rotten eggs and my eyes started to sting and i coughed a little, but that was it. No knock out….nothing. I was so happy getting everything ready and today i’m a failure again. I used 2225 g of lithopone and 10 bottles of 75ml hcl. I stirred the stuff for hours waiting and waiting. Really need to find another method of catching the […]

Ok, this will probably be my last post before I do the deed. I only have one final question. I’ve been making videos outlining my last will, and reasons as to why I’m going to do what I’m going to do for my family. The only thing that’s holding me back is my mother. We’ve always shared a powerful connection, and to put it bluntly, I wouldn’t just be killing myself, I’d pretty much be doing the same thing to her. I’m not going to leave this world without trying to explain and soften the blow of my actions to her. Any ideas what I […]

Dunno if I will fit in here: Serious feeling of a terrible tiredness of living…And pursued for so long by terrifying phobias and dark, dark thoughts.

I have been living in this purgatory since my first panic attack when I turned 18….31 years ago! 10 years of “lounging” in any and every emergency rooms in my country of birth ( France), and in different countries. A life of worries, fears, lightened-up with only some rare flashes of happiness.

I am at a loss to comprehend why I should keep on dealing with this anymore, and yet, ironically, I fear death as terribly as I do with my […]

It must’ve been in a place so dark you couldn’t feel the light
Reachin’ for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little hometown
This can’t be the way you meant to draw a crowd

Oh, why? That’s what I keep askin’
Was there anything I could have said or done?
Oh, I had no clue you were masking
A troubled soul, God only knows what went wrong
And why you’d leave the stage in the middle of a song

Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
Roundin’ third to score the winning run
You always […]

But then again, what is it that makes us such the savior??? Shouldn’t it be easier to just end it _

He wrote me so many precious poems.
Once he told me
“When my skin lacks radiation the clouds stole,
I won’t let this coldness become a black hole,
because the comet in my sky is your smile.”

I hope his black hole opens up
and sucks her up
and kills her
the next time he kisses my best friend,

because he will never see me smile again.

Today, I carved his name into my arm.

The worst part is, if I showed him,
I’d only be less likely to get him back.

He dumped me on my birthday.
Ten minutes after taking my virginity.
Because, after ten months of dating,

Im only 13 and think im going to commit suicide tonight i need someone to talk to please if you are willing to talk please do im begging you please talk to me and comment even if you can give me an email address to talk to you my friends or parents or any other dont wanna help so please help me and talk to me

Well I’m feeling down and I need to hear about your shit life so I can feel better bout mine :).