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why i want to and why i cant get over the hump

In particular I would like to say that I love the posts of both Lilah and Jakevaughn that were posted today. I feel exactly the same as both of you and saddened that I am unable to express it as well as you. I also read in another post, but I can’t find it now or remember the persons name, but they said that no-one can ever understand really what someone else’s life is like, even if they at some stage have had the same problem, the two people perceive those problems differently; as in each and every life is individual so you can never […]

If I make a comment to a post it goes into a holding bay until someone / something releases it, why is that?

I can understand why in some cases but it just made me laugh on here as what if someone posted that they need urgent help as they are about to blow their head off and I am reaching out to help them, wouldn’t that person assume no-one cares if there is no response? I posted a response to a post nearly an hour ago and it is still not showing (not that in this case it was urgent, but it could have been […]

I don’t really want to die, I just want to be able to live my own way. I don’t want to be forced to live this life that I have no choice whatsoever over. 

What I love about life: I love nature, I love the seasons, the river, laughing, talking with my friends, sleeping soundly, dreaming, and thinking deeply. To me, that’s all really  life should be about. There’s nothing wrong with me, except that I am literally forced to see all those things that I love about life as some kind of privilege that you have to deserve. You have to work hard in a job […]

In times past, I’ve talked to my friends and family about suicide, but it’s pretty rare now that I bring up the subject. I used to feel it was healthier than not talking about it, but it became apparent that generally people don’t believe someone will kill himself until after it happens. At which point people will exclaim, “Oh my God, I can’t believe he killed himself! I wonder why he did it.” So although prior to the suicide it was talked about and reasons were given, people are dumbfounded and confused.

Sometimes honesty can’t be appreciated at the time. I was a bit disappointed several […]

More often than not the most obvious answers are right under your nose, but mankind being what it is; prefer to complicate everything. It’s mostly to do with the ego why we do that. 

Human life on earth: This is a material world. The reason people either suffer here and see it as a life of hell, or those who prosper and flourish here, and see it as ‘God’s work’ is solely down to that one fact: It’s a material world. 

The ones who can prosper and flourish here can only do so by finding their enjoyment in the material things; this doesn’t necessarily mean money and […]

I know the word SUICIDE all too well now, for years I have looked back on my life and wonder why I still live. I used to try to end what some called life, but never did it work.

I was only 10 years old when I first had the thoughts and then tried. I was in my own demented hell, and could not see away out. Years would go on as I lived in a self induced coma. All emotions shut off!

At 13 years I was living on the streets, and that was way better then going home. If I went home I would not […]

Please read your emails xx

what is the purpose of life? i have found myself asking this question alot in the past year and haven’t found the answer. i wonder why some people fight to stay alive, while others fight to get out of it. i know the majority of people who commit or try to commit suicide have a chemical imbalance of some sort and their brain reacts to situations differently. but at the same time there are people out there who have experienced horrific things and yet want to live. why does a 89 year old want to live and a 14 year old want to die? […]

I’m supposed to be killing myself today, it’s all planned and I can’t NOT do it. I want to die so much if I don’t do it now I will do eventually anyway, but I really really want to do it. i thought is would be easier than this but I can’t seem to do it and I dont know why I never expected it to be so hard.

Please dont anyone respond to me telling me not to do it i just dont need to hear that. My plead for help is that I absolutely HAVE to do it today and it’s already getting late, […]

I think there may be some truth in this. Why do so many people want to die? I have a close friend who committed suicide and one of my other friends has two recent cases of his friends committing suicide. I too battle with staying alive on a daily basis. Why? Sure we’ve all got our own reasons and problems and we all see the world differently, but in the end, it’s all the same because we would rather die than be here. 

I don’t think this is about finding a purpose and finding what makes you happy, certainly not in serious cases. I am a […]

 

Imagine yourself at the moment of your death.

What thoughts cross your mind? Memories of family and friends?
Panic? Regrets? Remembrance of Allah? What is death? What happens to
us after we die? What is life in the Hereafter like, this new and
strange world after death? Do we lose consciousness of this life?
Where does our soul go? Do we feel and think the same?

The ineffable feeling of crossing the boundary between this world and
the next cannot be described in words, nor imagined in the mind, but
can be understood only through divine revealation and inspiration.
Let us for the next few moments seek an understanding of this, death,
the only […]

I have called in sick to work today and I am going to kill myself, I have planned it for 2 months.

I have seen posts on here where people say there is reason to live and there is hope in life. For me, there simply is not, and I think it is the same for lots of other people. Trying to encourage a person to stay alive when they are on the brink of suicide can be (not always) cruel. Are those people going to continue to be around for that person they have ‘saved’ or ‘conned’ when they relapse? Because believe me, they DO […]

Not sure what to post here, following instructions to write something, I am a friend of G1974 who died at 11:28 Saturday night following a car crash. I had no idea he was considering suicide. I wish he had come to me first. I recieved a text late Saturday afternoon from him, saying he had emailed me some instructions, posting here being one of them.

We served together in the Royal Marines and he saw some pretty awful things being a medic. As it turned out, it was his childhood that would eventually catch up with him and torment him much more than I or anyone […]

It’s been over 3 years. I thought everything was behind me. I just thought I was finally able to be with myself and learn how to be happy.
3 years and for the most part I never looked back. I still have scars from once upon a time, but I don’t hide anymore. I was finally happy with who I was. No need to be ashamed.

Don’t ask me what happened today… I still can’t tell exactly. I’ve haven’t felt like this for so long. It felt like a lifetime ago. I’ve been crying all day. Don’t ask me why, I don’t know exactly. Nothing feels […]

One common thing I can see amongst pretty much everyone, on this site and in the world (well the vast majority anyway) is that the world is corrupt and to coin a phrase, ‘evil’. I doubt anyone really can argue against it, not anyone reasonably intelligent anyway. But the thing where we are all so divided is in either what to do about that, or in how to find our purpose in life.

This is where an ignorance, a stupidity and an overwhelming selfishness comes into play. If you were a twin and you grew up sharing a bed with your twin sister or brother and […]

For the past 2 weeks I have kept from committing suicide to explore all possibilities of staying alive. Unlike a lot of others who are suicidal, I don’t have any of these ‘dreams’ that I can relate to. I can see nothing at all that life could offer to me that I would find any real purpose in accepting that. It all makes me feel like a fool. I ask myself why. The answer I find is that mankind is being destroyed right before our very eyes, but we are searching for something aside  from that which is ludicrous. The only purpose that I want is […]