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My story of survival from suicide after my break up.
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I thought I could handle it, life I mean.
I thought that everything was going to go okay now that I had decided too live my life the way I want too.
But it isn’t.
I had a fight with my mom tonight. She doesn’t listen to be about everything, all she does is speak her own mind and tune mine out. I just feel like she can be so selfish and conceited, that she forgets that I’m even there, her oldest child, her flower, trying to tell her how much I’m hurting.
“You never listen!” I jumped out of the car at lightning speed and slammed the doors […]
ok so after all the fightin nd everything me nd my bf got bck together now were pretty much still upset bout this whole situation nd im really upset that i almost lost him due to the fact i no for a fact hes the one nd he was just bout to give up nd nvr come bck to me:'( now were still talkin bout this i keep questioning him bout y he was gonna give up nd he has yet to give me a true reason nd im affraid he dont love me:'( rite now i just feel like dieing/cuttin myself:'(
I’ve always had some amount of anxiety and depression, but they get worse when issues in my life set them off. I’m going through a lot of things right now, and it’s really bad. On top of that I’m going through withdrawals from alcohol and xanax, exacerbating my anxiety even more, it’s constant through every day. On monday I catch a plane ride home and commit myself. I just hope I can make it until then. Too anxious to eat or sleep, suicide seems like a very viable option to my messed up brain right now. When it hurts […]
Has anyone ever had to see the one they love.. love someone els. do u know the heartbreak an the tears that come with it. i think that everyone who has felt this dose one of two things
One: die inside but show the world that ur ok
or
Two go insane.
why dose this heart ripe apart and shatter into a million shards.
“I love you!” is a sick ass joke that asshole made up. there is no love there is no soul mate and there sure as hell no one that can protect you. so i say dont trust and so […]
Ppl will fall and ppl will rise. the good thing is there are then ppl who will not only help but lift you up with here own problems.the light of the world grows on that and if you are good and the angels are nice that day then you will grow with the world. but then if the angels never come around and the demons seem to pile up then the only thing to do is fight back. No mater what it is not right to surender and lay down. if by surendering you give up what make you you then your squewed.
Today was great and I know it will probably ne the last one of these for a long time Im debating going out with at least one good day
So me nd my bf got into a fight this afternoon nd i thought to myself someone kill me nd i tell him in every fight nd break up my lifes shit without him but i can never seem to keep him happy i nvr no what the hell to do im always hurtin him or myself nd he told me bout this place so im givin it a try but im 101% sure this thing wont help me one bit! but its for the relationship….
Hi, I have never really been any good at expressing myself in writing so I am sorry if this passage does not make much sense.
When I was younger, around 12 years old, I was sexually abused by a man of the age of 22 at the time, I was young and naive, He was a friend of mine and sometimes I used to help out in his workplace, Due to family experiences in my childhood I had to grow up at a very very young age and look after myself, and also my body matured at a very young age, by the age of 11 my […]
Ok, so here goes, this is an understanding of myself, my ideals, my beliefs, etc.
We live in a world of Finite Energy & and Infinitely Expanding Economy.
We have surpassed peak oil resources, and are on a decline. Yet the politicians in this world think our economy can still grow…it can’t not without OIL. You can run cars on hydrogen, but they are made from OIL, the machines used to make cares need oil, the people who fix the machines, well there cars need oil. It is all connected. So how can I fix this for myself?
SELF – SUSTAINING
What is so wrong with communities locally […]
ugh i cant nething right at all n im tired of ppl telling me that i wanna kill myself so bad but i love my lil girl so much n she loves me to, id miss her a lot, an id miss my bf a lot to theyre the only ppl n reason y im still her, so i think im gonna go back to cutting myself again……im tired of everything but the two ppl that matter the world to me
Did anyone here read my very first post? I haven’t been here for many months, so some may recall. My very first post says that I have three more days to live.
But I need someone today to tell me that they have known my story for all this time, and that life is worth living. Tell me why life is worth living, because I need to make my emotion to live overwhelm the logic in dying. And don’t be general and philosophical please, I’ve had enough replies telling me that the greater good exists. Tell me why I should live, not why I should lie […]
I’m not sure where to start, I’m not very good in expressing myself in paper. I found this website today after thinking about suicide yesterday. It’s good to know that there are others out there who have similar thoughts. I don’t think I ever was serious about committing suicide, because I don’t want to hurt myself, but especially I don’t want to hurt my family: my mom, my sisters, my grandma, my nieces and a nephew, and my husband. I don’t want them to think that death is an easy way out. When I get depressed, I try to remember how much they care for […]
i really dont know when i lost all controll of my life.. whats worse is my wife (trying to help) keeps telling me you have alot to look foward to.. or youll get through this… but im so tired of “getting through” things… i dont think i have it in me any more. whats worse is i havent really always been like this. but i am now and i cant make it stop.. the last few days i have ben extremely distant and truley contemplating giving up and just getting the task at hand done… but ill be the first to admitt im scared… but […]
“It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.”
I’m DEATHLY afraid. (no pun intended)
I’ve talked about wanting to die, needing to die, trying to die, but I’m afraid to die.
It’s not the actual dying part, it’s the after that is so terrifying. I don’t know if I believe in God, I haven’t since I was 8 yrs. old, so what happens when you die? Do you go to heaven, to hell, some sort of limbo place? Or is it just blackness, just an infinite place of obscure darkness where you are bound to spend all eternity? I CANNOT be […]
I hate having to lie to everyone just so I won’t get sent away. It’s getting ridiculous and I’m tired of it. The anti depressant meds make me super suicidal but I can’t tell anyone that because if I feel suicidal then they think I’m going to do it so I have to go to mental hospitals and get locked up in a small room and be watched 24/7 so I don’t hurt myself. And I can’t stop taking the meds because my mom makes me take them each morning and watches me do it too.
I haven’t cut in a while and its getting really […]
i could sit here and say how i fake being happy to impress people, but i gave up on that. my old friends say they’re “sick” of me being depressed. well guess what so called friends…im sick of it too bitches. i dont wanna feel like this, i dont wanna feel at all. just shoot me please. the day i get a hold of a gun i promise thats what im gunna do. i have thought of becoming a police officer and lying to everyone just so i can get my hands on one. wish me luck
It’s GOT to STOP!!
No more picking on me
No more fighting with me
No more of this where I do everything right and watch it fail anyway
No more putting me in the worst possible position
No more of this “You always LOSE!”
NO MORE!!
I don’t want your damn pity
I don’t want your sympathy
I want life to cooperate with me!
I want what most people take for granted!
It’s going to stop. If the only way to make it stop is for me to hang, then that’s how it will be. It’s no big loss to the world, because I’m never going […]
Okay… so. I guess all my life I’ve been unhappy. I’ve always been the quiet kid, the one who just gets on with it. I’m now 18… since I was 13 I’ve always thought to myself, in the back of my mind: ‘one day I will kill myself.’
This is because I guess I am a naturally unhappy person. I’m happy when with my best friend/boy friend (he’s both)… but only when we are in our own little world. I love him but I love him so much it hurts and he is all I have to hang on to, and the slightest thing he does […]
I have suffered from schizophrenia for as long as i can remember. First it started off with hearing a voice scream my name so loud i thought my eardrums would burst. Then it slowly progressed to visual hallucinations, i started to see shadowy masses that were in the shape of a person. Then a few months ago i began to actually feel hallucinations touch my arm. A few weeks ago i began to see faces of people that i dont recognize. And just today i have began seeing inanimate objects move. I’m not really frightened by the hallucinations themselves, but its what they bring with […]