feelings come and go but death is forever haunting and will be the main event of the night
stars fade tonight, feelings come to life
It’s been years since I posted. My first post was when I was a sophomore in high school I think. I’m finishing up my second year in college now.
I guess being suicidal and severely depressed never goes away even when things change. I was a year clean from self harm. It’s all starting again.
I’m honestly sorry anyone’s even attempting to read this load of self-pity.
Am I really just a dog? I can’t be, my family likes dogs. So what does that make me? My brother and sister both talk to me as if I were a dog. My parents stand by and either continue it, or tell me to stop being such a baby about it. I know that at the end of the day, I am nothing and furthermore that my family sees me and recognizes the same thing; I am worthless.
I’ve honestly got the best friends I […]
So after suffering for over a decade of loneliness, I’ve decided today is the day I will kill myself. No one knows the pain I am in because nobody cares to know me. People only know fragments of who I am, and when I open up, it only scares them away. I am 32 years old I haven’t had a girlfriend since my early 20s and I am a fairly successful individual. I have a master’s degree and make $100,000 year. I don’t tell you this to brag, but to demonstrate that this disease affects everyone. I have served in the military for over 8 […]
Posted on: Thursday, May 5th, 2016,12:26AM
Hi, my name is Carlos. I was born on Dec. 2, 1997 and I suffer from ADHD, anxiety and depression. I am Puerto Rican and was born and raised in America. I have 4 older siblings all also native to America. Three sisters with my brother being the oldest out of all of us, me being the baby in the nest.
I’m not really sure how I should start this off so I won’t worry about it, I’ll just start off from where I think it matters the most.
As a child, I had sort of a violent childhood. It was mostly […]
I’m really sorry to anyone who wastes their time reading this, so I’ll try to make it short.
I am not a necessity, nor a nicety, so why do I continue to roam this bloody earth in hopes of finally being wanted. I’m not wanted now, I wasn’t wanted in the past, and I can’t help but think that I won’t be wanted in the future. I’ m a liar, an accident, an attention whore, a know-it-all, and just an all-around piece of shit. Why am I even still alive?
If it’s not a problem for anyone reading this, would you […]
i have no words now … i was thinking about that alot latlyyy but i had a little hope just alittle one to fight for … but now !!!!
i made my decision ill stop thinking about it and ill do it soon ill fix some things before i leave …. i have nothing to do here actually never had !!!!
I lost the game. She really does hate me now even though, my depression and apathy were the causes for why I pushed her away. I guess I deserve this fate… A fate worse than death or Hell… A living Hell with only one escape. It’s fine. I was tired of fighting sanity and life, anyway… I’m moving my date to tonight.
Goodbye, everyone.
I’ve come so far, and have tried too hard to just give up now… But I’m angry, and I’m hurting deep inside too badly… I’m angry because everyone has tried so hard to help me, my therapist, psychiatrist, friends amd family… But no one can seem to rid me of this nightmare… I have tried so many medications just to be let down in the end… I’m angry because the last thing I want to do is give in now… I HATE the fact that I’m even considering suicide; but there is nothing left for me anymore…
I’ve tried to […]
*is playing “Echo” by Jason Walker as I write*
Hahahaha, my ex re-added me on Skype but she hates my guts! Sure, I was whiny and apathetic to her but I was fighting a really bad depression at the time. Granted, I’m still fighting it but it lessened enough for me to have some clarity now. I missed her and thought we could work things out… I really did. I guess I deserve this for my countless sins.
The future I dreamed of has turned into a nightmare and I’m breaking at the seams. Damn, I feel like Laughing Jack right now! Then again, I guess I […]
I don’t want to hurt your feelings, but I just don’t love any of you any more. I say that I do, and sometimes I feel an echo inside of the feeling that used to be signified by those words. But I don’t love you any more. I go through the motions, and I say the right bits of dialogue. But inside I’m empty and lonely and tired.
The road stretching ahead is more of the same emptiness. There’s no place I want to travel to, nothing I want to do, no one I want to see. I’m tired of movies, tired of books, tired of the […]
I can’t do this, anymore. I’m done. I don’t even care about the mess or scarring my family, anymore. Here’s hoping I don’t see everyone on the other side too soon. Cheers! *drinks my fizzy chocolate milk*
Everyday I constantly think about ending it and I can’t stand it. I think now is the time to go. I don’t want to leave my family and friends but I don’t want to live in a world where I have to fake all my emotions to everyone. I tried to tell them but they ignored me. Nobody will take me seriously.
I want to leave today.
I’m new here. Excuse my bad grammar skills.
also apologies for the extremely long first post.
I’ve been creeping a couple days now not as a member reading some of the posts and although sad, they made me feel home. There’s a couple things i want to get off my chest personally because i feel as though i cant go to anyone. my family is not the lovey dovey type, i didn’t grow up with mandatory family time, my parents and siblings were not involved in my personal life, And i’m not here to complain or whine, i did not grow up neglected but i just never […]
she’s hopless
she lies to keep herself alive
no one bears to see her pain
breaking everyday
everything is broken before her eyes
she feels trapped and hidden
no ones out to hear her
shes gave up so many times
its a dream for her to never wake up again
God if your really up there help her disappear
what’s left of me here?
just a brighter world and less fear
she wishes all day she can suddenly die
hoping for a way out of this hell hole
hoping someone can understand her pain
Well, It’s been a long 26 years that I’ve been alive… I have accomplished nothing of value. I do not contribute to the betterment of society. I am selfish and I know it. I lie and manipulate the people I care about most. I’ve lost every love I’ve ever had due to my mental illnesses.. I’ve been trying to get better, I really have, but it’s just too much. I go to group 3 days a week, then I have my ACT team 4 days a week, my psychiatrist every 2 weeks, one on one therapy once a week. My body is filled with prescription […]
(In case sportsnut doesn’t realy. This is a timed post and will post automatically on its own.)
Good bye sportsnut.
I love you,
Hazy day sunflower,
Cordless,
Notinterestedinlife (pretty pandarian princess),
Rocketman,
Totrees,
Mindlessgamer,
Dark willow,
Phantomcitizen,
Kupo,
GT suicide,
Drowning,
AttemptedSuicide,
Claritee,
Passionforalways,
Bah,
Yelm,
Alan Ominous,
Deadinside,
And others.
I’m not meant to be, so good bye. Do what you all do best. What ever it be. Don’t worry, I wont be around. Stay strong, even if that doesn’t mean a thing.
Please pass this on.
From the finger tips of Beau.
(Could you copy and past every thing above these parentheses and post it […]
(this will be my suicide note)
yo, so yeah i’m dead….pretty ironic how i’d say id kill myself so many times..but hey, i might be better idk…but um yeah tell dan, phil, mcr, atl, tyler and josh i love them
by m8 -the lving meme melz
p.s kys
Life is torture, death is hope.
Life is meaningless, death is magical.
I am a young girl, 15 years old. This is not just a phrase. My depression has somehow always been there, and I know it will always be there. My depression is hiding inside my breath, it will never go away unless I stop breathing. I hate life!!!! Not MY life. I hate LIFE. Yes, I hate most people and I hate social situations, but honestly, I don’t care. People suck, I’m over it. What bothers me is the meaninglessness. Why are we extremely insignificant?Why does nobody think about […]