For your poems.
If Time is money ,
I feel like we are poor
our money will run out
unless we invest our money in happiness
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Poetry & Art
I hate myself so fucking much.
It’s quite hard.. to explain how much I hate the way I am.
And I hate my gorgeous, skinny, perfect friends too for saying that they are ugly.
Shut the fuck up.
I would honestly kill to look like them.
I am never happy with myself.
I can’t do anything right.
I’m ugly.
Fat.
Stupid.
Worthless.
Disgusting.
I just hate it.
Why was I given this body.
Why?
I miss the cutting so much.
It’s odd.
For a while.. I didn’t think about it.
I didn’t think about anything.
I was numb. But now..
It’s like a need.
I have anxiety attacks now.
I will start crying.
I need cutting.
Not burning.. nothing else.
Just cutting.
But I just can’t get a fucking blade.
The girl that use to sit on this bed was ashamed to call her self a daughter, friend, girlfriend and so on. The girl who use to sit on this bed was scared to face her self in the mirror. The girl who use to sit on this bed would smush her self into a little ball every night and cry. The girl who use to sit on this bed only saw darkness. The girl who sat on this bed never understood why know one wanted her. The girl who use to sit on this bed saw the blood drip from her arm every day […]
I see the dishes clatter and fall.
I feel your breath on my face as you scream at me.
You hit my face.
My arms.
My ears.
I taste my salty blood.
At least the ringing in my ears is gone.
I see mother crying
Almost as if she’s begging you to stop.
You swing at me again.
My face to the floor.
How do I explain these bruises?
I won’t tell.
I won’t tell.
I’ll just smile to the wary eyes.
I’ll just wave it off.
No big deal.
No one will know your problem.
I don’t know why I exist
But maybe I’ll live to […]
I WILL LIVE THROUGH THIS? i want only honest people to answer. How do you live through everyday pains. Good advise please..
You awake in a room
The fires blazing hard
Biting you with the intensity of their heat
The world comes crashing down in flames
The room begins to crumble
Sealing you within it’s fate
Trapping you inside
Burning you alive
There’s no way out
You find that it’s the end
The flames sore higher
The heat increases
You sware you can feel
Skin on your face
Begining to melt away
Burning from the bone
It’s over, it’s over, it’s over…
It’s time to fade away
Silence your screams for help
Bathe yourself within flames
Feel your soul being ripped from your body
The pain will end,
When […]
half heartedly i name the things
you suggested to me
somewhat in consideration but
in the back of my mind this just isnt right
the stars are too bright too clear
i dont want to see whats happening
yeah sure write what you want
the weekly apology
try to invest in me
have a morning glass of gasoline
have an afternoon light
when a break from bad luck is right
life leads you through a bad scene
focus only on whats happening
don’t forget details are the key
ever since i chose what i chose
i have antarctic bones
real love is a daydream
absent from reality
i cant seem to find it within me
not anyone except for you
can give it straight
bring it […]
Injustice, insecurity, and very many problems.
Not a clue where they came from or how I could solve them.
Nights seeming darker, feeling more sorrow.
No anticipation for the day or the sun of tomorrow.
Concrete in my veins, a wrecking ball in my head.
Years of self hatred, wishing I was dead.
Crumbling away slowly, until there was nothing more.
I swallowed back hard, and sank to the floor.
Somehow still alive, but still without life.
Just a small spark of hope things would go right.
Days grueling on, forcing myself forward.
That glimmer of hope keeping my heart between my shoulders.
But time is only temporary: three months slowly passed.
That speck of hope the last […]
Rogue Shadow.
Considered a demon, but just a living shadow. He has many similarities to Nathan. He’s a shadow, no one sees him. He makes no noise when he creePs. People fear what kind of fucked up head he has. And maybe they are evil. They do always show their crazy side at midnight, esPecially on full moons…
Mr_Sebastior: I always enjoyed speaking to you. How crazy have your thoughts been?
Javier: The satanist phase, want to explain what exactly a satanist believes and whatnot.
SP Admin.: Don’t mind this post, I’m not a harm to myself or others… Yet.
Jamiejajamie: If you were to read […]
i get up without fully awakening
unsure of how to stay
by the minutes i can only fade
the taste in my mouth
always different than the last
an unfamiliar world
but somehow same in contrast
familiar in the way it looks so scared
it’s a reflection that conveys
the center of my soul; my heart
rejection will always break me apart
look there i can see my limited words
and gestures are taken out of
context in all aspects everywhere
to think a leap of faith is a dive into death
i try to jump but get held back
these lines are what i think to feel
they keep me grounded especially
with their weight weighing heavily
i now know i am real
and […]
I wrote this last night when I had no one to talk to.. Just before my ex started emailing me again..
I hope you know:
That the world spins circles around her.
Catches her in a whirl wind of emotions.
Tangles her up in the lies,
And the hatred for the love she used to have,
With a lover who’d said he loved her.
I hope you know:
That she’ll never forget the moment,
When he ended it all,
Went back on his word,
Broke all of his promises.
The day he stole her heart.
I hope you know:
That she’s not alright, not whole,
Not molded together […]
I wrote this just before cutting myself. I guess you could say I was feeling a little depressed. I don’t actually have plans to really kill myself right now, this is just how I felt:
When others turn their backs,
When others run away,
Leave you hanging on the noose.
Let the air leave your lungs,
Breathe your last breath.
Hold strong to the promise that things may be better.
That they may become new,
Or finally dissapear.
Don’t fret, for soon it will be over.
Soon you will breathe your last breath.
They left you, dangling,
But do not scream for help.
Be calm, accept what is to come.
The promise of an end,
A new begining,
A place to […]
Look in the mirror:
To see yourself a stranger
An unknown monster
Which slithers in the night
Lurks in the darkest closest
And never comes out to play.
See yourself a child
A frightened unknown soul
Someone lost and so confused
Who’s too tough to give in
But too stuborn to let go
See yourself a mess
Someone who’s lost control
Who got pushed into darkness
Spun into hell
And who doesn’t know how to
stop it.
Broken memories, shattered homes,
Words that cut through nerve.
An honest mistake, an honest lie
That was made, honestly,
Too much.
Broken stories, shattered souls
Words that pierce the heart.
It’s romantic, it’s almost sad
How the prick of a rose
May cause,
Bloodshed.
Broken princess, shattered hope,
Words that relfect agony amongst you.
A darkness that you’ve succumb to, a fairy tail land
Something you’ve created
That you’ll never, ever,
Escape.
Last night I tried to kill myself. It was silent and it was sad. I wrote no letters explaining why or apologizing. I only signed goodbye on a pink scrap of paper, opened the pills, shoved them down my throat, and sighed. Then I sat and waited for Death. I wanted to greet him with a smile, take his hand, and murmur my thanks for coming so swiftly. Instead Sleep came first, a blissful cover for me to slip away. Because I doubted I could meet Death without trembling. So Sleep wrapped me in her arms and held me close.
It seems as though Sleep protected […]
Crona’s Poem.
By Crona.
A poem…
It’ll be dim…
All I’ve known is the dark,
It swallows me like a shark.
Am I the predator or the prey,
I’ll never find out with each passing day.
I wish I was never born,
My heart is torn.
I’ve never known love,
So what’s the point of a dove?
They try to be my friends,
But I seem to scatter them like hens.
They cant understand my pain,
I might as well be slain.
I have never known happiness,
Because of my sappiness.
I’ve been treated so wrong,
For so very long.
I’m a slow dying flower,
In the frost killing hour.
I’m in the darkness,
Being swallowed by the sadness and weakness.
The others can’t reach me,
The blackness is an […]
My blackened heart
A disease that corrupts my entire soul
Blood no longer flows through my veins
This iced poison restricts my movements
There’s no saving me
I lie here waiting for Hell to claim my soul
How long must I wait?
A human sacrifice, take it
For I have given up
No longer do I wish to see the green fields of Earth
Deliver me unto Darkness
My heart explodes and leaves a crater
A crater filled with hollow dreams and empty hopes
A crater filled with darkened love and tainted passion
I close my eyes and feel the cold
Death breaths softly on […]
I am only 13 years old. I have suicidal thoughts regularly. I am going to see a doctor soon about it. I just want to die though. Nothing is leading me to kill myself. It is the nothing that is. I just keep thinking, there is really no point for me to be alive tomorrow. It isn’t like my presence will be the biggest deal to the world. I think if I wasn’t afraid to kill myself I would be long gone by now. The thing that bugs me the most is how my parents have reacted to this, they started treating me differently. I […]
Thinking about it all, it just makes you shake. When you keep running from something that will probably hunt you down your entire life, it really makes you paranoid. It really puts you on edge and makes you seem crazy to the masses. I’ve been shaking uncontrollably for days, and I keep trying to convince myself I’m only cold. Truth be told, the past is sneaking up on me and the anxiety is crashing in around me. I haven’t talked to very many people about anything but common lighthearted conversation for the past few days. I’m too timid. I fear I might say something that […]