I just wish my mom would try to understand my emotional pain. I wish she would support me emotionally. I wish she would tell me she loves me. I wish she wouldn’t put me down. I wish she wouldn’t judge me. I wish she could see the hurt she causes me. I wish I could hate her. I wish and wish and wish for the impossible when it comes to her. I know full well she isn’t the type of person I wish she could be. I know she doesn’t do it on purpose, it’s more like she’s blunt and doesn’t have a filter when […]
I’ve got a younger brother, who in my house is a fucking angel child. Every fucking day I’m compared to him. Like “Oh (deadname) Why can’t you be more like your little brother! Hes younger than you! He does his chores, he cleans his room, makes his bed. Why can’t you be like him?”
I don’t fucking know! Maybe it’s because I don’t want to fucking be here. I have fucking school! “Why can’t you keep up on your chores?”, Maybe it because I don’t have the fucking energy to do anything once I’m home! I go to school, deal with freshman all fucking day, […]
hi, i’m reaching a breaking point and i just need to vent. buckle up, there’s several years worth of garbage in here, and it’ll probably be near-incomprehensible because i am both very stressed out and very tired, sorry. so i haven’t been doing well since i was twelve, but i’ve kind of brushed it off because i figured that i was too little to have any real problems, as did my mother when i brought it up to her. but it’s been a few years, and i’ve only gotten worse. almost everything makes me nervous now, i can’t just talk to my friends or leave […]
A few months ago, I’ve had the unique experience of experiencing time dilation first-hand.
I had tried smoking pot a couple times last year, to alleviate the anxiety I feel. It seemed like a good idea because I know other people who use it for just that – and they seemed happy with the results. The first time I successfully got high was pretty good too, so I continued.
That was, until late November of last year, I experienced hell. I experienced the ironic testament that spit in the face of all the cautionary tales I had told myself about immortality, and how it would be a […]
had a crisis chat sometime ago, kept telling me shit about “I feel like you’re depressed..” no shit, im here for a reason. i feel killing myself. what the fuck is wrong with these stupid ass chatrooms?
i just want to be loved, i just want to find someone i can call my new big brother, i just want to be cared for.
i feel so used and abused, im so tired all of the time. im sorry im failing everything, im really struggling. please, let me talk to anyone, just someone. i just want to watch someone play games and have a laugh. i just want to be happy. im tired of the pain in my gut and throat, im so tired of being stupid, im so tired of living. i just want to sleep forever. i just want someone to tell […]
I’m in a relationship with an ex of mine and i’m really happy, im smoking less, getting stuff done and having my own life while with this girl and she has hers, it seems to work. I feel the happiest I have in a very long time yet my anxiety is the worst it has ever been. Every time she tells me about her life and there is someone else she was into in the story i feel so insecure. I know it’s normal to talk about past relationships, it just hurts. And i know i’m an asshole for feeling that way and i don’t […]
For context, I’m a British American. I was born in the Uk, was raised there until I was about 10 and then moved to the US. I’m in high School, and i have a few friends, but most of them only seem to focus on the fact that I’m British.
I introduce myself, and someone comes up behind me and shouts “Yeah! Their British!!” And then that new person only seems to focus on “Wow! There is an English person in my class! Cool!” or “Ew, British.” I joke around with my friends about e being English, but i feel like i don’t have a choice. […]
im tired of “living”
im tired of having no personality besides sad and sarcastic
im tired of being comfortable with sadness
im tired of not knowing how to live
im tired of trying to escape my negative reality
im tired of pretending im fine
im tired of being “that guy”
im tired of being that stereotypical nerdy ***** nobody would dream of
im tired of fighting my sad thoughts when they’re right
im tired of talking to people who dont care
im tired of watching greed, malice and ego be rewarded, no matter the field
im tired of existing for other people
im tired of being manipulated
im tired of having feelings
im tired of eating, drinking and sleeping
im […]
The people here are nicer than the people around me in real life. I feel sad when i read their problems and i wish i could help them. Its a sad but a happy place atleast we’re not alone here.
I have been on this website for a while now but i never dared to post because i was too scared but today im feeling a bit confident so i will just go for it. I am a 17 years old female. I have been diagnosed with depression since i was 14 and have been on meds since then. I have theraphy every monday and i go there. But nothing has really changed it just gets worse and worse. I was 16 and in 11th grade when i dropped out of highschool i just could’nt do it anymore. I always had huge dreams that i […]
Today i had a fun day and to eat we had a vegetable soup and i said i didnt like it and my mom and step dad are coming at me like “its because your used to fat foods and chocolate all the time” “does your dad pay you to eat” just because i didnt want anymore today im going to start starving myself because if thats my problem im going to fix it. Im tired of this constant yelling i get it every day every other week. I want to leave already. This has been going on for 4 years since i was 8. […]
I don’t understand why I’m upset that everyone doesn’t want to be around me when all I do is push them away when they are. I don’t know why I’m here because I shouldn’t be with my last attempt but I can’t attempt again after making it so far, yet it isn’t going to get better. That’s all just a fucking lie. Everything is going to get so much worse and I don’t think I can handle it but I don’t think I can go through attempting again because I’ve made it so long it would just all be a waist if I were to […]
I feel like I don’t exist anymore. Like everyone around me exists on another level, another plane. Its so hard to be seen. Every time I finally work up the courage to say something to someone, they ignore me or do not care. Even my friends are slowly leaving me. I keep trying to talk to them, and they keep pushing me away, talking to other people. Even my friend for the last 3 years, it feels like they now just don’t want to be around me at all.
My family isn’t much help either. My parents refuse me any sort of mental […]
I’ve completely broken down this time. It’s like no matter how hard I try, it ends in failure and more agony. I thought this damn time, I could finally recover my health…hah, what a joke! At the same time, what did I expect? I feel dead inside, don’t give a shit about my future, not to mention my health is like this because of being self destructive from wanting to die.
I have no one except for my family, the very one that plays a big part in why I struggled so hard to not hate myself. I feel a little bad about writing […]
i wish someone would just forcibly take me out of this world.
maybe that someone will be me someday..
dear no one,
i’ve been feeling down lately. actually, scratch that. i’ve been feeling down since i was 14 or so; i just never acknowledged or realized it. it’s a mixture of deep sadness and gut-wrenching anxiety every fucking day. i can’t even cry anymore.
you see, when i was young, i wanted to be an artist. i used to draw a lot, and even receive praises and compliments from others who look at my craft (thanks, pa. i hope you’re resting in heaven). i believed i can draw. when i went to college to become a creative artist as an advertising student, turns out, i only know […]
I’m going to kill myself soon.
though I say soon I do not have a certain date in mind.
I’ve been trying to connect with God but I’m not very loved by him.
I’ve been trying to distract myself but I’m not very motivated.
why do I have this heavy feeling in my chest, haven’t I had enough of life already? or is it human to fear death? if it is I don’t want to be human anymore.
I hate everything, though it’s not as bad as it used to be, I don’t want to live with my past […]
Some stuff to know first
I am a teen 13-17
I’m trans-masc, went through puberty at 9 and realized at 12 so I’m stuck in a stupid female body
Parents that don’t actually parent
I think that’s sit
(Writing this a while after- this gets progressively more and more depressing as it goes on. So, I apologize for that- also mentions topics of cancer and transphobia, body dysphoria. All of that jazz.
So just last weekend (Today is Tuesday the 7th of December) my mother, who I thought was all supporting of me called me down by the name I go by. Joey. […]
I was procrastinating on my homework when I came across this website. I’m writing this all off the top of my head so just stand by. So I read so many peoples stories on here and noticed one thing, everyone on here is going through the SAME THING. I myself often have bad mental health and breakdowns, but you know what? nobody is perfect. AND DON’T SKIP, I know everyone uses this as a pity sentence but just spend a minute of your life reading this because you need to open your eyes. Think to yourself, do you think there is a single […]