so last night i had a terrible night my anxiety kicked in and i could do nothing but cry. my bf was being a bit of an ass and my mother had nothing better else to do but yell at me. its been 3 days since i last ate and i can already feel myself wasting away. i looked in the mirror last night hoping to see a better me then what i was. i saw the same old self. i just cried. feeling so fat and ugly i tried to throw up anything that was left in my system. it was 3 in the […]
I´m 16 now and I´m writing here first time. I really thing about suicide somethimes but I think i cant make it. I can´t die with feeling I didn´t tried I surrendered to death to life to all people and whole my family.I dont want to run awayand I´m gonna fight. That is what i was telling for myself a lot times. But when i think about it now i can see a spark of tightly hidden will to live.Why? because of her. really old lady. For someone a purpose to live and for the others a reason they decided to die for.Love. Nope noone […]
i just wanted to say thank you to you guys you have helped me with soo much it. talking to you guys masde me feel like im not alone adn that other people feel the way i do too:). I’m trying to be happy i tried to do it awhile back but someone thing happended and i cracked</3. I’ve decieded not to tell my parents that i probally have reacurring deppresion becasue… well 1 i ont want them to think im screwed up and 2 im afariad of’ve what everyone else will think of me…. anyway THANK YOU GUYS SOO MUCH!!<3333 I PROBALLY WOULNT BE […]
I’m so sick of people acting like they know me…. They don’t. They think they do but they don’t. And I really just need someone to know my story. Sometimes it’s comferting knowing someone has your story.
It started when I was 4…. my parents got divorced. When I was 5 my dog died… no big deal right? Wrong. I was 5, my dog was my best friend. When I was in 2nd grade me and my mom moved to Tennessee over the summer. I thought we were just staying for the summer. No. We were moving… To get away from my dad. Since […]
Hi, i’m 15, I’m a girl, and I’ve been through hell. I’m a sophomore, and I know what its like to lose everyone you’ve ever had. My mom had me at 16, and starting at three years old, my mom was dating around a lot, got hip on drugs and alcohol. Both of my parents were VERY bad alcoholics. My mom was dating this guy that beat her, and made me watch, then my sister was born, I was three, taking care of a baby my mom couldn’t take care of.. We got evicted and lived in a car for a week when i was […]
It all started at the beginning to high school, 9th grade.
I fit in perfectly, I made new friends everyday, hung out, went to parties, dated. Normal stuff that people would expect a normal teenager girl to do. But…I wasn’t exactly happy. Sure during the moment of all those parties and drinks and even experimenting with weed a few times (nothing I’m proud of anymore) I was happy. But after that adrenaline rush went away, and I sat in my bed looking up at my bedroom ceiling, I knew I wasn’t happy.
I guess I could say it started when I met Joe. He wasn’t someone that went to my […]
last night i took a knife, went up to a nice quiet spot on the hills, rolled a spliff and proceeded to not cut myself. i’ve still not. since i “broke” the other day i’ve been cutting a LOT. but last night… last night i said no. and i’m still saying no 🙂
fuck you SI!
hi there, yes you, the one reading this dont stop now i know you want to. life is really UN fair and u know it but don’t give up now, there may be a lot of pain in your life weather its emotional or physical but don’t stop trying. if you want to die just please don’t give up, if i can fight through this you can…. but I’m not out of the woods yet i feel suicidal everyday i feel im worthless, screwed up and an abandoned lonely teenaged girl, so me you and anyone else can fight through this togeher and if you need me ill be there for […]
Thinking of suicide ? You’re sitting in your room ~ door locked ~ with a pen in your hand and a blank piece of paper infront of you. Your hand is shaking, and the tears begin again – for the third time in the past hour. ‘To my family’ you write at the top of the page, but decide it’s a bad way to begin your letter ~ your suicide letter. You try again, start over ~ again and again, but you don’t kn
ow where to begin. No one understands you; no one knows what you’re going through, you’re alone or at least that’s what […]
Alright so.. For about a year I’ve been feeling depressed and such. I’ll admit, I’m not as bad as most of the people who are depressed, or suicidal. I’ve only cut twice in my life. I’m 14 now. I always get the urge to cut, but then I tell myself it’s not worth it. It won’t change anything. I want to commit suicide most days, but the thing stopping me is the fact that I know it would be a selfish thing to do. It would devastate my parents, my friends, my brothers, sister in laws, all of my family. But still, I feel the […]
To everyone planning or even thinking about killing yourselves- hear me out.
I’ve always been one to finish what I’ve started. Even when I thought about killing myself, I would stop and think- was there anything big that I would leave undone, if I were to die? So I came up with this: just a little anchor, to keep myself from letting things get out of control.
Every day, I would think of something to do. It could be something real, like finally finishing that drawing I’ve been working on, or completely stupid, like making up a code and teaching it to my sister. But no matter what it […]
so im a 14 year old teenager and in constant pain. ive been pulled out of school because i was bullied extremley bad. my life has been going down hill ever since i was 12 and got a diease in my foot which spread to my whole leg and then to my other foot and up my leg and now its going into my hand. what would you do if you knew you were going to be in pain for he rest of your life and nothing can help???? i used to be an odinary kid full of smiles laughter and hapiness that was real, […]
Let your butterfly fly free. Don’t kill it. Let it live. Butterflys cant fly with a damaged wing. 🙂 <3
I came across this website randomly browsing the internet. I couldn’t help but get caught up reading some of these stories. I couldn’t help but feel the need to share mine. I can relate to a lot of your stories. The family problems, being made fun of, not wanting to live, etc. I grew up in an abusive home. My father used to beat me up everyday. Up until the day he walked out when I was fourteen. Not only did he beat me up, he beat my mother up in front of me, he beat my sister up..until the day when he became sexually […]
Love. It’s such a simple thought, yet it’s so complicated. We spend our whole lives looking for that one person. That one person that loves you unconditionally. That one person that wants to be with you forever. That one person that understands.
I found this person 7 months ago. He’s perfect, absolutely perfect. I couldn’t ask for anyone better. He understands i’m manic depressive. He understands I sometimes need my space. He understands I’ll be suicidal. It’s a feeling of content in your heart, when you know you’ve found the one and only person you want to be with forever.
So somehow one of my friends convinced me to talk to him. he got me to tell him everything and now I feel so much better. I still think of suicide but not ad much. I owe it all to him.
It’s a weird feeling. The first few days just felt hectic. Bit sick, but nothing too bad. Woozy more than anything. It seems to have stopped now though.
The side effects seem minimal so far. I can’t stop yawning. For hours after i take it, i yawn constantly. And feel a bit high, like my stomach is floating and i’m kind of doing a space walk. Been zoning in and out alot, not thinking about anything in particular but just staring into space. Other than that and mild sickness, things seem good on that front.
The biggest change is my mood. I seem incapable of negative thought. […]
At the start of my sophomore year of college, I had to sit down with a friend and tell him that his ex-girlfriend was not only never going to date him again, but she was leaving school to get away from him. She had tipped me off that he was severely depressed and suicidal and had been emotionally abusing her as a way of coping. We talked for six hours.
It was the hardest conversation I have ever had.
I’ve had depression since I was 7 or 8 years old – never as severe as what he was going through, but I have felt a lot of […]
I’ve never done this before but I need someone who understands me to talk to. Let me start by describing myself a little bit. So I’m a 25yo woman (kid at heart). I’m told by most I look like I should be a model (I don’t see it). I have an awsome personality very down to earth open minded and supportive to others and have a lot of knowledge about life do to my own exploring. I have no kids but the best dog in the world that I would take a bullet for and a man of 6 years. But ever since I can […]
MY BIRTHDAY IS OCT. 12 I HONESTLY THINK NO ONE CARES FOR IT. ITS BEEN ANOTHER YEAR OF THIS SHITHOLE I CALL LIFE. I WANT TO BE DONE. I THINK IT WOULD BE COOL TO BE BORN AND TO DIE ON THE SAME DAY. TRUST ME I EVEN JOKED ABOUT IT. IF MY EX-BEST FRIEND, WHO I REALLY CARE ABOUT, SPEAKS TO ME BY MY BIRTHDAY I WILL CONSIDER NOT DOING SUICIDE BUT ITS HOPEFUL WISHES. FINGERS CROSSED.