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Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

New, and need help..

by brokensecrets 4/9/2013

written by brokensecrets

Hi, I’m new to this and honestly I just need people to talk to and that actually get it. I’ve been through so much recently and I don’t know if I can take it anymore. My parents, boyfriend, and friends see me struggling and it doesn’t seem like they care. They are always “too busy” for me. I’ve tried committing suicide ever since I was, 13. It’s been different every time I’ve tried. Before my mother found me bleeding in the shower, and etc. I was raped recently too, and the cops STOPPED THE INVESTIGATION. I gave them so much too, and now… I’m so […]

4/9/2013 7 comments

failed seven too many times

by blood lusting freak 4/9/2013

written by blood lusting freak

I may seem like the kind of person that would always be happy since my life is â€œperfectâ€ and my family is â€œnormalâ€ but if that was your first impression of me, you would be mistaken. Â I’veÂ had anxiety issues and problems expressing my feelings ever since I can remember. Â Anxiety attacks and temper tantrums were quite common as a young child. Â I can remember always worrying about one thing or another. Â Yes I prayed about it, but sometimes I felt as though I was a burden on God. Â Iâ€™m not important enough to Him. Â I mean He has to worry about others who have it […]

4/9/2013 2 comments

Helium hood Kit – DOESN’T WORK!!

by LostOlHope 4/7/2013

written by LostOlHope

So I tried the helium hood kit today. I purchased the flow control kit and pressure guage from exit and bought the balloon time tank of the recommended size, checked the pressure to see if it was full, made the exit bag as per the peaceful pill books instructions and guess what?… IT DIDN’T WORK!!!! I was sitting there like an idiot with the bag around my head for about 5-10 minutes and I didn’t loose consciousness! I felt a slight tingling in my toes and my voice got extremely high but that’s about it. What a waste of time and money! I spent about […]

4/7/2013 63 comments

When You’re All Alone

by the empty shell 4/6/2013

written by the empty shell

When you’re all alone, and there’s nobody to hold you,

you cry, you weep, all by your lonesome.

When there is nobody to care, and you’re swalloed into despair, you give up. Ready to see what’s really up.

Scream and cry, swallow and die.

Sleeping pills that were supposed to take your life.

Wake up with an IV in your arm, people asking questions whether you’re into self harm

Drinking charcoal, in a hospital gown.

They shouldn’t have saved me. What the Hell do I do now?

They put you in a mental hospital when you’re released from the hospital.

Sleep in a bed with lumps, shower in a gray bathroom.

I was there for […]

4/6/2013 4 comments

Hi I need help

by mes1234 4/6/2013

written by mes1234

I’m Meta and I’m in constant emotional and mental pain. But this pain is caused by myself, my mind is just not right. I’ve been depressed ever since I could understand what the word meant. I was born in Indonesia but moved to the states when I was four to go to school here. My whole life I had to deal with culture differences. Â I’ve tried to commit suicide in 8th grade, but in reality I knew it wasn’t going to work, it was a cry for help. I’ve been on anti-depressants for many years, but they haven’t seem to be working.Â Earlier in the year […]

4/6/2013 6 comments

The “Perfect Life” Story

by thetruthonly 4/6/2013

written by thetruthonly

A story too long for here, but you can read it (a pretty touching read I would say), at my blog (which itself is different!)
http://thetruthonlydementia.blogspot.com/#!/2012/12/perfect-life.html

4/6/2013 3 comments

Help Needed

by myhorizonawaits 4/6/2013

written by myhorizonawaits

Hello everyone ! I’m doing this project i call ‘Tell me your story’. I did a facebook page & a blogspot. But I need YOUR help to make this work.I want to provide a way for everyone to interact with each other. This is how it works. You tell me your story, I tell everyone else. You could be known or stay on anon. Itâ€™s all up to you. What matters is that your story will be heard. People will know that you exist. You will leave a trace that you once existed. You will help other not do the same mistakes you did or […]

4/6/2013 0 comment

Vicious Cycle

by darksky21 4/5/2013

written by darksky21

I come here tonight to freely express my feelings and thoughts without the fear of being judged and with the hope that someone out there may understand. Okay ….let’s be honest, there’s still a shit load of fear, but I say fuck it.

I’m still having quite a rough time. My depression is weighing heavy in my head. Can barely lift it up. My isolation is at an all time high. The majority of my Â “friends” are occupied anyway. I don’t feel like I have any true friends. But I’m sure my isolation had a big part in that. I just have no drive. I’m afraid […]

4/5/2013 1 comment

still here

by just.emily 4/5/2013

written by just.emily

I tried to kill myself. It’s not worth it. I lost more of myself than when before. I hurt the ones I loved.

4/5/2013 2 comments

by why i dont no 4/3/2013

written by why i dont no

head cupt in hands fingers in hear god leving me frend leving me hope leving me kife infront of me

sing me to sleep dont wake me up im all readey gon put on my favret record let me take my last pills im dark and cold

so leve me alon let me go not here aney more dont knoc on my door in the morning cos i whont get up dont bother smeling the blood

2 frends dead the rest runing not geting beter alone so glad to go got no hope my love left got so go i dont need this iÂ a mess im a […]

4/3/2013 1 comment

im a suicidal survivor

by I_suffer_in_silence 4/2/2013

written by I_suffer_in_silence

I overdosed myself on March 27,2013. i was on the edge of dying and i stopped breathing for a moment but i kept myself alive because i thought of everyone and i thought what it will be like if i would have died. so i decided to give life another chance but I’ll just see where life takes me.

4/2/2013 2 comments

I can’t believe what I did

by darksky21 4/1/2013

written by darksky21

I just came out to my Dad tonight. I did not plan that at all. Came up totally unexpected. He came to talk to me because he noticed I was depressed and struggling and eventually things led to wanting to come out to him. I was so scared. I knew it was something I needed to do though. It took me so long to get it out. He’s a super conservative Catholic…so you can see why I would be scared shitless. He took it surprisingly calmly. But I don’t feel the relief I wish I had felt. I still feel like he doesn’t fully accept […]

4/1/2013 3 comments

help! ways to die nowww

by DarkerImagery 3/31/2013

written by DarkerImagery

I need ways to die within the next 45 mins please help!I know what im doing im not going to miss out on anything just please give me ways to die asap! Email me at darkerimagery@gmail.com

3/31/2013 7 comments

Saved

by Kei 3/31/2013

written by Kei

I suffer from PTSD, OCD, and bipolar II.Â I’m also a FtM transgender person.Â My father died in 2009; I was only 20 and was his next of kin and had to to everything relate to the burial.

It took a toll on me.Â I didn’t even tell my doctor until 2010, when he put me on antidepressants.

The medication works, for the most part.Â But sometimes, my depression creeps back up again.Â It did that two years ago.Â I had pills stashed, I was ready to do it…

But then an anonymous person commented on a blog post of mine.Â It was just the first public post […]

3/31/2013 1 comment

Lost Souls

by highway66 3/30/2013

written by highway66

Im 19, A few years after I was Born my parents divorced and my mom and I moved away from the big city to a smaller city not to far. The divorced didnt effect me much because I was so young but it showed in my mother and she began to drink a lot.

by the time I was in grade 3 I was very unhappy with life, There was rarely any food to eat in the house and I was in a very abusive relationship with my mother. I was regularly running away from home and staying with my grandmother who lived in the same […]

3/30/2013 4 comments

Why bother trying?

by Risette 3/30/2013

written by Risette

I don’t know what to do with myself. I’m an 18 (almostÂ 19) year old college drop out, and I just feel so lost. I have been suicidal ever since I was 12, and I never imagined that I would make it this far in life. I had only gone to college so I could get away from my parents, but due to my social anxiety I was forced to come back. I feel stuck; forced to live with my father who raped and hit me as a child, and my mother who has never tried to protect me from him (andÂ furtherÂ claims that the rape was […]

3/30/2013 2 comments

Option

by DarkerImagery 3/28/2013

written by DarkerImagery

If you want to talk and don’t think anybody would understand because they would just try and talk you out of it – I’m here if you need me.

darkerimagery@gmail.com

P.S I don’t know of any surefire ways to kill yourself and probably wouldn’t tell you. Seeing as I believe if somebody truly wants to kill themselves they will find a way on their own.

3/28/2013 1 comment

Someone to talk to

by DarkerImagery 3/28/2013

written by DarkerImagery

A few days ago (on the 25th) to be exact I attempted to take my life and almost succeeded! Except, well… remorse and guilt along with my Dog made me realize I made a horrible mistake. Sensing this my bodyÂ had begunÂ rejecting the drugs that were laced in my suicide cocktail.

The 25th was my dads birthday and truthfully I think he’d be too pleased with himself if I took my own life on his birthday, so, I have decided that no matter what happens I will only kill myself on MY birthday. (looks better on the grave, I think)

Anyways, I really want to have someone who […]

3/28/2013 5 comments

If you only knew my life….

by Tryingtostaystrong 3/27/2013

written by Tryingtostaystrong

Iv suffered with depression my hole life, but if you knew my story maybe you would understand?

I have tried suicide 3 times in my life. first was wen i was 12 it was a O.D attempt. second i was 14 and it was the closet Ive came to death, it again was a o.d. and lastly i was 16 it again was a another overdose.Â i guess i just thought going to sleep was the most painless way to go. just falling asleep and dieing just sounded so peaceful to me.

sense the day i was born my parents were addicted to drugs. first it was […]

3/27/2013 3 comments

Strange

by NotReallyHereAtAll 3/27/2013

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

The strangest and weirdest thing about recovery is comparing who you are now to who you were before. It is also one of the most amazing and yet bitter-sweet and almost heartbreaking things.

About a year ago, the suicidal thoughts fully took hold of me, they’d been there for a year or maybe more, but I’d been preoccupied with various other things and hadn’t really given the idea of taking my own life very much thought. But for whatever reason, last March I became completely filled with a desire to fall off the face of this earth. To begin with, it was a case of wanting […]

3/27/2013 2 comments

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