For those who have survived suicide.
Feeling lonely. I hate it. Sick of feeling isolated from everything.
sometimes I think I think too much. I get paranoid and fearful. I can see all of the worst case scenarios clearly but not nearly enough of the good. I notice it but it doesn’t seem solid to me. I’ve been programmed to think that only bad things can happen to me and those around me. I notice the good that comes usually is a result of a concentrated effort, a conspiracy towards success on behalf of a person who is cared for and loved. Perhaps it isn’t that. Perhaps this is my overthinking things again. But I notice all of these details, the differences, […]
Im 17 years old,I’m losing hope in my life. i don’t think i can hold it much longer from past 7 weeks i have been getting the idea of suicide. i screwed everything, my friends, family, relationship, my college stuff literally everything. Im indian scottish.i live in US in an international school. everyone in here dont wanna be friends with me. As i look tan colour and most of the guys in here are rich and dont like to talk to me. most of them stay away from me. even though i helped them in their times of need. they just soak me dry and leave in middle of nowhere. fortunately i […]
I really don’t know how to start this with out sounding too cliche, so excuse me for being awkward. It’s a small story. If you take anything from this story, take the lesson that you are wanted. If you quit now, there’s someone else who will be hurt. I’ve had this story bottled up inside me for a while now. Well a few months. It’s fairly recent. Â Here it goes.
So for about 4 years I’ve been talking to this boy, Zach. We met online, and of course we ended up 3 states, 660 miles away from each other. We dated a few times, but distance […]
It just occurred to me that people will read these. And people will care. Well here’s a short story of a Suicide attempt I had. I’ve never shared it, But i have mention Jake in another story, and this will revolve around him a lot. But all the feelings are coming back, I can’t handle them. It’s time to share.
It started as an innocent day. I was simply going to my best friends house. I’m pretty sure she will be reading this, so let’s call her… Hope. It’s normal for me to just walk in and yell I’m home at her house. I was accepted […]
In an earlier post of mine, I mentioned my friend Phoenix. I said he has an extraordinary story to his life. Sadly, he isn’t here to share it. He told his story once, that was to me. Honestly, it sounded like a book. I remembered every detail, and thought there would be a sequel.
He’s not here, but his story stays with me. It needs to be heard, and it’s still going on today.
To start, Phoenix never really had a real family. When he was only 8 he felt suicidal. He felt he wasn’t needed. And his only release was art, and sadly, cutting. He was […]
I love you.
Gay or straight.
Woman or man.
Black or white or blue.
I love you.Â
And don’t you ever forget that.
Uhm hai.. Well I guess I should start with yes. I’ve attempted suicide. Many times. I’ve never actually talked to anyone about it, or anything’s that’s been happening. I don’t have the strength to say it to someone’s face. But the one time I did. I finally told someone… Exactly 2 weeks and 4 days ago, he committed suicide.. And I was blamed by his family for it. I wasn’t allowed to go to his funeral or say my good byes. This was honestly the love of my life.. We’ve been dating for almost 4 years. We planned our future together and everything.. But it […]
I want to sleep for forever.
I’m done with this shit, I’m done crying because of how they view me, I’m done hiding from the mirror because i don’t want to see myself, I’m done living up to their expectations, I’m done thinking of the people who killed themselves.
I’m sick of it all, I hate being afraid, I hate being in a dark place, I hate hiding from the world because i thought I couldn’t deal with it. I’m sick of people wondering why I don’t date, because I don’t want too, I’m sick of people asking if I’m lesbian (nothings wrong with it) I just have no attraction to any human. I don’t […]
20 minutes ago I tried to get some sleep then all of a sudden I felt really worried I was that worried I felt sick then I felt really scared worried and empty all at the same time I thought I was going to pass out or something. I have never experienced anything like this. I won’t be able to sleep tonight I still feel a little scared.
Ok I’m going to just get straight into this because I’ve had all of this bottled in and I can’t find the will to tell anyone face to face which I need to learn to do. Anyway my dad has recently passed away because of cancer, it was horrible and terribly sad that in his last few months I got to see the good side of him then I had to just see him crumble away being in pain. I’ve had to say goodbye and go to his funeral. A mistake I made was when I was hurting I kept all the hurt inside I […]
Everyone has regrets, right? Some lies they told, something they did. Well here are all of mine. Please, don’t judge me. Some are past tense, some are present tense. But no matter which tense it is, I’ve never told anyone any of these.
As a child, I never once said please or thank you.
When I was little, I never told anyone anything that happened to me. I never told my mom that my father sexually abused me twice in my life.
I wish I denied the Christmas presents my teachers gave me.(I don’t celebrate Christmas)
I wish I payed more attention to what my parents taught me.
I […]
Hello! They say writing and sharing your experiences can be therapeutic, and in my case that is especially true. So, today I thought I’d take a moment to sit down and have a little chat with all of you.
My story really begins about 8-9 months ago. I was going through a rough time, I had just found out I have a lump in my spine. In the past years I have been diagnosed with:
Reynauds Disease
Fibromyalgia
Osteoporosis (in my neck)
Osteoarthritis (neck, again)
Heart Arrhythmia
Severe Insomnia […]
I just come across this site and thought I want to contribute.
i have recently got back from hospital after my third attempt to overdose. As a child my parents were violent and drug abusesers, I was in care for a while made homeless twice by my mother. Beaten, emotionally abused. I lived with an auntie for a big chunk of time who also abandoned me at 13. My dad left the house when I was 16 leaving me to look after my 14 year old brother. My mum come out of prison and set the house on fire. As I have grown up I have […]
I went to bed last night with a date.
February 6th.
But I woke up this morning. And I felt awful.
My head ached and the first thing I did was regurgitate my meal from yesterday morning
I think if I work hard to get my things together today, I might leave tonight.
My name is Luke, and I want to share my suicide experience with you, for any chance of reading and really making you think about the decisions you are about to make.
Before I begin, remember that I do not know you, and it is your choice and yours only to take your life. It is a natural feeling to feel like this, and don’t let people tell you otherwise…they’re either in a shock state or they’ve missed a dose of their anxiety pills.
Anyways, now to start…
I had just started senior year, I was 17, had the girl of my dreams, was playing in a band, […]
My name is Abbigaile Alexandria Mareeh Knight. This is my story.
Some parts have been editied out due to length and time.
I was born during the blizzard of 1993 in Raleigh, North Carolina. I’m the middle of four children, three remaining. I don’t remember much from my childhood other than battling a disease that required me to stay away from playing and doing normal things that children do, The only “sport” was able to do was ballet.I resented it, as well as the pageants that my mother forced me to do. I was living in the small town of Dublin, North Carolina. I met several close, […]
half poem half rant.
I asked for one night
Just one night where I could show you my pain
To explain myself, to apologize for the way I’ve been
But you wouldn’t give me that
Not that one single piece of reconciliation
You feel so high and mighty
On that pedestal you’ve placed yourself upon
With my best friends tongue down your throat
You said it yourself.
 I can’t be fixed.
So I’m done trying. I’m done caring. I’m done feeling. I’m done living.
Maybe ill fail once more, end up in a hospital bed somewhere with needles in my arm
But maybe for once in my life I won’t fuck something up and this time not wake […]
i was in the sixth grade when i realized i was emotionally and physically depressed thats when i started to cut myself. i had no one but then i met a girl and we started to talk. we were all flirty with each other and then we started to date. we were doing great i completely stopped cutting myself but then one day i sat and watched her flirt with other guys while i was sitting right there. after i watched her do that i was so mad me and her got into a fight and we broke up. i was so saD mad and alone […]