For those who have survived suicide.
Hello guys
I don’t have time to talk this evening, just popping  in. I hope you are all doing well and hanging in there. Tomorrow is another day. Keep fighting the good fight.
I wish you all the luck and happiness in the world. You are the people who deserve it. 🙂
Ruins
Who am I? I was born November 22nd, 1997. My parents?.. Ha, no. I didn’t have any. They abandoned me in a apartment all the time so they could go buy drugs! Why? I don’t know. Both of them had been in and out of jail multiple times. One day, while they were off getting drugs, I was at the apartment and neighbors heard me crying. They called the police… The police knocked on the door. No answer. They kicked down the door. I was taken away. I remember being in a cop car starring out the windows while it moved. I had no idea […]
Hey.
I am Kriss. 15. From Ohio. I’m a girl, btw. There are SO MANY posts wondering if people know how they feel, if they’re really alone. But please, listen to me!
You are never alone! You may not believe this, you may not care, but you have ME, GOD, FAMILY MEMBERS (yes I am sure you have at least one. If not a family friend or something like that) and other TRUSTED ADULTS. You are not alone. I know how it feels to be alone- I am one of those kids that constantly feels alone. But really we are not alone.
If you were alone, would these […]
Well, I’m not really sure how to do this.. But, here goes.
October 7th, 2010, exactly a week after my 14th birthday, I attempted to commit suicide. I shot myself in the head with a 22 Rugger handgun. I felt as if nobody cared, like something was wrong with me because I just could’t be happy no matter what I did. I didn’t want to feel this way but, I couldn’t control it. I felt like a burden on my family, I felt as if it’d be easier on them if I just disappeared. That day at school, all I could think about was, “What […]
So for you who have been following up on my post you know i self harm quiet a bit and quiet deep to. Instead of self harming the other day i chose to make some amv ( animated music videos) for vampire knight.
Please check them out and let me know if their any good. Also subscribe if you wanna keep up with my blogs and other videos.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCaTinffnkI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjnYh6GRmVo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UmrCUV9BdHY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m35rBe1iYKc
I hope this new coping skill works for a while.. and doesnt die in a matter of a week.. like most of the others..
Final Goodbyes.
Sitting here,
make-up streaks my face.
Knife to my wrist,
A 100 pills down.
Vomit on the floor,
sweat soaked shirt.
I want this to end,
I want to be free from this.
Slit my wrist,
one for the stupidity,
two for the pain,
three for the sleepless nights,
four for the tears.
Now the other,
five for the broken promises,
six for the stolen innocence,
seven for the abuse,
eight for the pleasure.
I don’t feel a thing,
as the blood gushes to the floor.
My heart stutters,
my breathing stops.
Goodbye is all that’s left,
written on the wall in blood.
This is the note that I wrote to everybody I know, I planed to die by pills. I planned it on my birthday, I just couldn’t take being called fugly, fat, disgusting. I was called that so much that I began to believe that it was true, and I no longer thought anybody cared or that I would be better off dead. I was dead…….dead wrong, my only friend came over to wish me happy birthday and made me spit out all the pills, after that she started crying and I felt so guilty I started to cry too, which I haven’t done in 10 […]
So I guess I am having a weird day. I feel fine really. I am just finishing up on a report I have to hand in tomorrow. I am not worried really I have it 95% completed. I just feel… I cant describe it really.
I have been doing really well lately. I no longer have anger issues of any kind really. I have been doing MMA for a while now, it has really helped me to channel my anger and frustration. My depression is all but gone really. I meditate almost every day. My stomach palpitations are basically gone. I have been building core strength […]
Suicide Poem
I don’t want to live, I’m ready to die, I reach for the blade and  let out a sigh. I’m sick of this world, I’m sick of it all, what would happen if I had a ‘Fall’ from a building or off a train track, would anyone actually want me back? If i Swallow these pills or fall down the stairs, I wonder if anyone actually cares. Don’t blame my family, it wasn’t their fault, my life was just ready to come to a hault. I know that I’m young, but I really don’t care, I sit on my bed with a lifeless stare. […]
Just called a suicide hotline.. they guy i talked to .. he just kept saying uh well you need to look at it from a better point of view.
I lost my 2nd oldest brother cause my oldest brother raped me! and you exspect me to look on the bright side. I look at his facebook everyday, hoping to get to know him. I DONT EVEN KNOW MY OWN BROTHER. And i hate it.. i hate it so badly. I only found out last week he’s graduated highschool.. i never knew.. i didnt know..
I miss him so badly, we would stay up reading the hungry catapillar, […]
i thought i could wait 3 days to die but i cant. im doing it tonight. i cant take this life anymore. its just too awful. no one cares. goodbye everyone, thanks for commenting on my other posts. bye.
Hello, I’m Bane. I’ve tried to kill myself many times and I decided I wanted to come on here and Impart my story to you fine people. My story begins and ends in darkness, I was born in a prison called Pena dura located in the darkest of caribbeans Santa Prisca. I was forced to serve the life sentence for my snake of a father Edmund Dorrance AKA King Snake. I was raped many times, Raped by Injustice and darkness…and sometimes men, dark men. I had nobody, I had nothing. Except my bestfriend Osito. I loved Osito, I made love to Osito. Osito was not […]
ive decided its time. 3 more days just 3 more days till 2012 is over and 3 more days till i die. i have decided it is time and im going to die. i promised myself that next year i will commit suicide. no one wants to help me, no one understands my pain, physical and emotional. im better off dead. im just a worthless good for nothing person. dead but alive. inside dead and outside alive. i just have to survive 3 more days. i cannot carry on like this anymore and im taking action and leaving. what do you think ?
I have never spoken about this before but I feel that maybe people can use this as inspiration. Something has happened to me that will change my life forever.
I have lived with schizophrenia my whole life which has lead to insomnia, bipolar, depression, lack of confidence, loss of personality…the list goes on. At a young age, I landed myself in a mental health unit, dosed up on stupid amounts of anti-psychotics and sleeping tablets with little to no contact with the outside world. They wanted to keep me there for a long time, as a docile zombie, drugged up and staring at walls with no concept […]
another sleepless night with crying, screaming into my pilllow and suffering 🙁 i wrote this in the night…. hope you like it.
fires ablaze within my eyes
a smile concealing all my lies screaming, begging calling out
a final frantic desperate shout.
i dont know why i feel this way
i never asked for pain, tears or suffering i was normal at one point in life
i was full of smiles, laughter and happiness
i wish i knew the cause of this pain to find a way to make it all stop.
have you ever felt like giving up this fight
have you ever slit your wrists or
have you ever picked up a knife
i […]
Its been over a year since I attempted suicide and I am still struggling with some aspects of my experience. I decided to participate in this project because I think that suicidal people need a voice to speak about their experiences with, especially since there is an onslaught of media messages and peer pressure that distorts perceptions of suicide. Since I came through my attempt, I have decided to talk about it and hope that my story helps others, so here goes.
I’ve been suicidal for years. My Mom said that moodiness and sadness were all part of being a teenager and that it would pass, […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qH6iRec4TvI&feature=youtu.be
this is the video of my story, please watch it. its wat has happened in my life. please. im all alone.
well hello. this is my first time posting on here. here is my story.
when i was 12 years old that was the worst year i have ever experienced, in may 2010 i got ill, i was diagnosed with a disease called chronic regional pain syndrome aka crps. it started off in my left ankle but it spread into my whole left leg and then it spread to both my legs and now my hand, wrist and arm. it will still spread and i will never get away from it. i have it for the rest of my life. this disease is the worst pain illness […]
suicide isnt easy. i stumbled across this site because theres obviously something wrong with me, to the point that i research suicide alot. im not going to do it, because i already have. and fyi, for years i said that if i were to do it on purpose, it would be by electrocution in a bathtub, just to show how hardcore i could be.
but on a better note. kind of. for the last ten years of my life my number one priority was nothing but drugs and alcohol. for the last 5 years ive been a hardcore alcoholic. when i say hardcore alcoholic, i mean […]
I was physically abused by my brother until I was 16 and left home. I admitted it to my parents, with whom I have always been very close with 3 years ago.
They claim to believe me. The claim to back me up. But after my last suicide attempt, after 3 days in 4 points in the ICU, when sent to the psych ward..they promised me certain things.
You see I uprooted my entire life on the West Coast to move back to the Midwest and help care for my sick father. He’s very young, only 65. But has a host of degenerative diseases. I went from […]
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